Misc., Maudlin

• Black citron; music
• https://www.npr.org/transcripts/1134061488
• Value cards
• Grab bags
• Candide Voltaire

Allies

• Rebecca
• Christine Baskets
• Gene Wilder
• A bear
• Not the tv from poltergeist
• Cows + four leaf clovers
• Karen Zabrieski // Karen Adcock?

Satisfactory

• Farriers cleaning hooves
• Mood changing nail polish
• Ole Munch
• Grilled pitted olives from TJ
• Antipasto salad // https://www.realsimple.com/food-recipes/browse-all-recipes/antipasto-salad-recipe FUCKKKK
• Utah kid taping fish to ATMs
• Anchorite // anchoress
• Caroline Schlegel
• John Locke // Locked Room Theory // Rust
• Leo from Romeo & Juliet during the aquarium-yellow-tang scene

It hurts today 4.1

• wait, they don't love you like i love
• mother fucking paul
• turning 35
• mood ring nailpolish chippin'
• chickens in the (our) back yard?
• the strokes
• i only had a small idea of the asshole that is ryan adams
• have i always scowled this much
• JW Francis — i want a poem that will remind me what to do with myself
• the angels that i love bicker over cod guts and snapper spines
• cooking in an infrared box off williams for a small payment of 30 dollars for 45 minutes
• outside it is blooming, it's spring, it really really is.

C, V.

• “I have wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but somehow I am still in love with life.
• This ridiculous weakness is perhaps one of our more stupid melancholy propensities,
• for is there anything more stupid than to be eager to go on carrying a burden which one
• which one would gladly throw away, to loathe one’s very being and yet to hold it fast,
• to fondle the snake that devours us until it has eaten our hearts away?”
• _____
• “But for what purpose was the earth formed?" asked Candide. "To drive us mad," replied Martin.”

Arts recommend by KL

• My Brilliant Friend
• An interview with Michelle Devereaux, author of ‘The Stillness of Solitude: Romanticism and Contemporary American Independent Film’
• https://euppublishingblog.com/2019/10/04/an-interview-with-michelle-devereaux-author-of-the-stillness-of-solitude-romanticism-and-contemporary-american-independent-film/
• Slavoj Zizkek
• Song of the Achilles // Madeline Miller
• I dated a guy who wrote a beautiful song called albarino wine lol
• Phillip Weinrobe
• Tinhouse workshops
• Vienna
• The Doll's Alphabet by Camilla Grudova
• The Magic Toyshop
• Angela Carter: Far from the fairytale

i do sometimes know how to read

• I'm Glad My Mother Died // Jeanette McCurdy
• Magnificient Rbels // Andrea Wulf
• Ripe // Sarah Rose Etter
• In Memoriam // Alice Winn
• Lapvona // Ottessa Moshfegh

The Lamb // WB

• Little lamb, who made thee?
• Dost thou know who made thee, Gave thee life, and bid thee feed
• By the stream and o'er the mead; Gave thee clothing of delight, Gave thee clothing of delight,
• Softest clothing, woolly, bright; Gave thee such a tender voice, Gave thee such a tender voice,
• Making all the vales rejoice? Little lamb, who made thee?
• Dost thou know who made thee?
• Little lamb, I'll tell thee; Little lamb, I'll tell thee:
• He is called by thy name, For He calls Himself a Lamb.
• He is meek, and He is mild, He became a little child.
• I a child, and thou a lamb, We are called by His name.
• Little lamb, God bless thee!
• Little lamb, God bless thee!