4.14.2026 i just started the second week of my new job and second week of being in la. I went to the bass pro shops pyramid, drove halfway across the country, stopped to see the grand canyon, and now I'm living for a month in a beautiful house in the musician lionmilk's room. I signed a lease for an apartment in pasadena last week. i'm still feeling really overwhelmed and anxious about everything going on right now and everything feeling uncertain but I think I'm having more good days than bad. the first few weeks of my job have been a lot less stressful than I imagined. I wrote a song for the first time in a while. I'm a bit less fearful of becoming unemployed again. I'm finally getting my autism diagnosis back from my psychologist and my ex and I talked for almost three hours today. a close friend invited me to play in an ensemble by the river next week. we won't be able to practice and normally I would turn something like this down but I'm going to try to make it happen because I really want all my friends to come so I can see them. I hope a. comes. I'm trying to get better at reaching out to people and not feeling like I'm being too much. my ex said that everyone is allowed to be a little bitch. I think she's right. ๑ï 3.22.2026 i noticed that my website was on the homepage of special.fish so i decided to make a special.fish <・)))><< my favorite special fish are moray eels. right now I'm procrastinating on a freelance gig, working on a point-and-click adventure game about my memories, recording some adventures on my childhood miniDV camera, playing through steins;gate, and slowly learning how to write for string quartet next week I'm starting a new job and moving to la. I'm trying to make more friends on the west coast (/any coast) who are into permacomputing and net art. I know a couple of you but I feel like I'm on the outside peering into another little group of friends 🔍 feel free to say hello here or send me a mail and-cs@pm.me