[26 february 2024 · 00:02] _ . , . . * / \_ * / \_ _ * * /\'__ * / \ / \, (( . _/ / \ *'. . /\/\ /\/ :' __ \_ ` _^/ ^/ `--. / \/ \ _/ \-'\ * /.' ^_ \_ .'\ * /\ .- `. \/ \ /==~=-=~=-=-;. _/ \ -. `_/ \ / `-.__ ^ / .-'.--\ =-=~_=-=~=^/ _ `--./ .-' `- /jgs `. / / `.~-^=-=~=^=.-' '-._ `._ comfortable silence in starlit darkness. inhale, exhale. my lungs fill and then deflate. i see my trembling hands, blooming white rose splattered with red ink, and the flickering of my apparition. i am partially alive, half-awake and half-asleep, torn between two places. i waver upon the fence of life and death. spirits in the dark are waiting amidst forest green. the wind goes quietly, swaying leaves gracefully, soft susurrus sounding like a cool pillow against my skin. i smile, a hopeful undertone. a shadow tilts its head at me. today, i lived. i am alive. _ __ _ __ _ __ _ __ (_|_ '. (_|_ '. (_|_ '. (_|_ '. '-' '-' '-' '-' _ _.-. _ _.-. _ _.-. _ _.-. jgs (_|__.' (_|__.' (_|__.' (_|__.' [11 march 2024 · 01:07] take a breath now. take another. feel air in your lungs. let your limbs return. yes, move your fingers. have a body again, under gravity, in air. respawn in the long dream. there you are. your body touching the universe again at every point. return to the long dream. unplug your headphones. look outside your window, dream of sunlight and trees, of night and clouds. breathe deeper and realise you are alive. look now, through your skin and your eyes. be present again. you are a new human, never alive before. a new story, never told before, written in letters of DNA. when was the last time you were aware of yourself? how much time had passed? will you sit and stare and scroll as time slips by? or will you return to the long dream? everything you need is within you. you are stronger than you know. the darkness you fight is within you. the light you seek is within you. you are not alone. you are not seperate from every other thing. return to the long dream. wake up.