it's a friday night and i started making japanese curry at 9:45pm. i've been sitting at my computer all day and i don't remember what it was like to not have a computer and to not be on the computer. i've been thinking about the internet lately... which, i mean at this point in time, aren't we all? i'm currently in disbelief that it exists, and simultaneously exhausted by its existence. i read something lately about how the internet isn't dying, but the capitalist back/foreground of it is. i'm not sure if it will become rip deceased, but i do think it will shift and experience some kind of decay. decay, not as in, dying.. but a wilting sort of transformation. // it's friday night and i'm alone making japanese curry at 9:45pm. i notice that i don't text very many people anymore and sometimes that scares me. am i isolating so hard? i've been thinking about friends lately... i ask myself, "what is a friend?" they've said it before, but i guess when you get older, the idea of friendship and the quality of friendships can change. i wonder if i'm happier now or if i was happier before -- y'know, when i had a lot of friends? i think maybe the same... or maybe less happy? i'm not sure. i think it was a good distraction from everything else.