this year I didn't want to celebrate my birthday as a matter of fact I never wanted to celebrate my birthday but since it's considered strange to opt out of joyous things I always did it, reluctantly & small ~~r u depressed~~ anyway I'm old now and don't mind being seen as strange two of my friends gave me a card with an ostrich and two pebbles in an envelope --- fantasy barges in crushing every attempt to truly see and equally be seen --- isn't a two-way mirror really just a window --- accumulated lethargy it's laconic woman summer baby