Time waits for no one. ↑(　ﾟдﾟ)ハｧ？ 2025-2-13: I don’t like him after all. Happy valentines! — Sex ed is a little awkward, I’ll admit. I’m s’posed to be mature but I’m giggling like I’m 6. — So we can mention other users now? Cool! I don’t think I’ll use it though… you know how it is, “surrounded by everyone, yet utterly alone.” I’m not 14 yet, so I’ve got NO CLUE why I’m acting so deep and misunderstood. I mean I shop at Hot Topic already. That has to count towards something. But you listen to Vocaloid and Touhou Doujins…! — I had my username changed to HolixontheShore instead. You know… to reference Kafka on the Shore. — “I need to bleach my ears.” I know I almost fainted reading Kafka on the Shore. But please grow up. 2025-2-6: Keychains entered production on the 4th. Grandpa’s birthday is on the 9th. Draw something for him. I’m going to write a summary of Kafka on the Shore, from where I am now. I hope it helps me with the project. The project is in the 24th. Aim to finish my the 20th? Your birthday is days away. Huh, I forgot that… 2025-2-4: I wrote it. I just don’t remember where he sat. What am I gonna tell the teacher? “Do you know where… um… I think his name was Van, sits?” PERFECT. You got this, Ax. — I’m always imagining my truer-to-life persona having a boyfriend named Apollo. And every time he’s been an introverted bookworm with glasses and a tendency to ruffle her hair. What could this mean! I’m hopelessWho said that. Must’ve been the wind. It was a really unlikely move on my end but I ended up imagining Apollo as Korean. I don’t really even have an interest in anything Korean… How did I get the log length limit from that? — I’m too scared for any of that. I’ll probably back out. I mean… it’s already too late! I failed. — Never trying that again. I mean I still have it. I just. Won’t do that again. I feel sicker than when the thoughts were still fresh. 2025-2-3: I’m gonna write him a little note. And hope that on Tuesday when I get there early as usual, he doesn’t suspect I put the note on the desk. Anyways. I read ahead of my English class— I finished Flowers for Algernon. Algernon died. Charlie would put flowers on the mouse’s grave every week. Algernon… maybe he was just a mouse. But that mouse was his mouse. Algernon was a friend… Charlie regressed back to square one. The humiliation was too much so he decided to move to New York. It was melancholic but not too much to where I’d cry. He’s not a real person but I wish him the best, of course. 2025-2-1: I keep thinking of the boy who’s used to sit next to me in English before the seating chart was reshuffled. I don’t really know much about him other than the fact he seems to like to go snowboarding. But I think he’s cute or something? He’s blonde and definitely taller than me. I’m trying not to think of him but it’s starting to get like my video game character scenarios. I’m trying my hardest not to think of myself with this boy as I talk to him about things he probably wouldn’t know or give a fuck about. He seemed nice for the time we sat next to each other… I don’t know why I’m thinking of him specifically, but I’m pretty sure I don’t have a crush on him. I hope the feeling goes away, this is really embarrassing… I considered writing him a letter, more like a note… and it was gonna be like “Don’t take this the wrong way but I think you’re cool… I hope it genuinely doesn’t go farther than that but I thought I’d feel better if I got it off my chest.” I kinda wanna write it… ah, we thought you were over boys for now, Angela. You… need to stop. Axel, Tel, I’m so sorry— I don’t really know either, it’s weird… 2025-1-30: My memory’s a little hazy all the time, so I don’t even remember if Tam’s birthday was yesterday, or the 28th. So… Kafka’s dad is. Dead. Um… maybe Nakata did it? No, maybe not… I can’t remember if him waking up bloodied came BEFORE or AFTER the cat-killer shenanigans. Regardless, Mr. Tamura’s dead??? Maybe Kafka really DID do it. But the question’s HOW…? Oshima’s confusing me a lot. So he’s biologically female and he’s um… he presents masculine right? He has female organs, but his chest never really developed n he doesn’t get periods. Is he transitioning??? Glad for him, you know. I’m just confused. He didn’t say it outright, but that’s what I’ll guess. GO OSHIMA!!! Log limit. Here— actually, I’ll move the archive link down. OHHH guys? They released a new brawler. He’s a MYTHIC WHAT I think he’s cute lol. I think he’d get along well with Brock. I love being a shitty Brock main <3 You think I could call this my live diary? I think I’d have two at once then: my blog, which I fill out at the end of the day when I want to… and this log, which I fill out during classes. It’s like when I used to use a physical diary. A big notebook I wrote in all during class. It’s extremely, extremely personal in there. Some dirty stuff. Like sexual thoughts. So I won’t ever drop it on the net, ew… 7th grade me was a freak. Log limit again! Whaaat. 2025-1-29: HAPPPY BIRTHDAY TAM!!!! I stayed up all night until 12AM for her to open my birthday gift and she loved it so much she set it as her PFP. Living. I have to make some kinda AR game/app concept and mine is just Tetris IRL LOL. Uhhh I’m working with two others I don’t think they’ll be much help but that’s okay. If I need to do all the work I will. They’re cool anyways. I’m really happy with the menu sketches. Hit limit. Again. Apparently some guy killed his wife and is now running off with his two kids to Mexico. So um… shit. Lightning doesn’t strike twice (okay maybe it does on the 3DS EShop) but HERE? If a third bad thing happens around school I’m gonna be too scared to… um… do things. We went on secure campus for a brief moment but I’m still scared, okay? Like. I bike home and to school. I’m fucked. iPad’s at 36%. Gotta go! Save my battery for English… mmp… 2025-1-28: “‘I wonder if I’ve heard that song.’” “‘Do you listen to the radio much?’” “I shake my head. I hardly listen to the radio.” “‘You probably haven’t heard it, then. Unless it’s on some oldies station, chances are you haven’t. But it’s a wonderful song. I hate it on a CD and listen to it every once in a while. When Miss Saeki’s not around, of course.’” “‘What’s the name of the song?’” “‘Kafka on the Shore,’ Oshima says.” -A snippet of conversation between Oshima and Kafka Tamura, ‘Kafka on the Shore’ (Haruki Murakami) YOU’RE SO FUCKING FUNNY, NO REALLY IM SERIOUS. THIS WAS SUCH A JOY TO READ. I grinned actually, shook my head, and laughed. So you’re telling me. You’re telling me… that not only is the book probably named after the old photo of Kafka and his sister on the ocean shore… but a song? A song Miss Saeki wrote no less. Dude that’s… okay, I thought he was kinda slick there. GOD. — Dude, am I gonna get deported? I rather not think about it, honestly. I got the habit of shutting out every bad thing, planning to deal with it when the time comes. This is Trump’s fault, right? I don’t want to go to the Philippines… I’ve never been, but I’ll assume that’s where they’re putting me. And my whole family. I’d have to leave so much behind, and that’s too much to leave. So many sketchbooks. Figures. Things I thought I lost. But that’s not it, I’d leave familiarity entirely. Forget this area where I live, summers and springs will never be the same, for one. School days, before and after… weekends? And not just that— like… how are they gonna do it? Because I know they won’t be humane. Hey, Axel, can we stop? Sorry, Tel. Sorry. — Mmp. It’s been a few days since I ordered my custom keychains. 100mm, a pair of keychains with golden star hooks. My sister had the idea for that type. They resembled Starr Drops. The keychains are um… I drew em? They’re Buster and Fang. Hey, wait, that’s funny. Is his name Buster, as in… BlockBUSTER? I’m going insane. Wait, “log might be too long?” I’ll put old ones into a link later, but I saved the oldest one somewhere else. Aaaah… nooooo… Can’t you believe I wrote enough to hit the character limit? I started on about November, and even if I was really, really, inconsistent… I hit that limit today. That… it does make me feel a little vacant because well- it confirmed I won’t be able to have a BIIIIIIG scroller of a page, but that’s okay. I’m thinking of redoing my whole blog page on my site, and adding this page as an embed on there. That’d be cool, huh! I want to use the classic, non-iframe version of a blog page, just because I think it’s easier. But then again, no more Lightnet, huh. I’ll incorporate it easy, I think. Just watch me! I HIT THE LIMIT AGAIN. SHOOT. You sure have a lot to write about, huh Angela? Shoot, yeah, sorry Axel. I think I just have a ton on my mind, or maybe it’s just my mind wandering? I just got a bunch of free time. We should work on blueprints for the site, right? I mean the index’s getting boring. I can’t believe it though! We were so proud of it, right Tel? Yeah, we really were, but it doesn’t fit standard anymore… gah. Nee, there’s a LIST LIMIT TOO?! — Kehe. Got my right AirPod on in history. I don’t know if he can see it. I hope he doesn’t. Music’s cool. I AM A FISH AND THE WORLD IS MY AQUARIUM. WAAAAH. lol sounds like my version of that one image mine went like “BORN TO DIE☆RASPBERRY IS A HEAVEN☆Strike Em All 2014☆I am the Messiah☆410,757,864,530 DEAD COPS” — HOLIX_OntheRocks would’ve been my Brawl Stars username if it fit the S AT THE END WHAT THE HECK MAN Archive: https://docs.google.com/document/d/11KjPvu1tXQSQ21hocMK2k3IKghZE7wb_87QNl9awU5o/edit