it can be unbearable to try but not trying causes much regret inhibit invest open release january 13 26 gathering the courage to build something truly amazing january 6 26 at times it seems life has become a nightmare and i am just grateful to be alive. but i think i need to be diligent, find the beauty, pursue the pearls, make sure i am connected to what makes me feel free… december 31 25 i became suicidal after living alone without natural light thousands of miles away from anyone that really knows me. i left. it’s finally starting to dawn on me that there is hope and i don’t have to go back there december 30 25 i swear my ear was ringing so loudly last night that someone else would have been able to hear it, if someone else were around. december 23 25 there are times when i cannot find what i'm looking for