a spec of dust hiding among the clouds. a collection of nonsense, straight out of my head nice to meet you, everyone ⋆｡°✩ ‧˚₊꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒦꒷‧₊˚⊹‧˚₊꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒦꒷‧₊˚⊹‧˚₊꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒦꒷‧₊˚⊹ love it when things break the physical boundaries of their medium. an animated character jumping out of the screen to explore a different dimension, a painting spilling out of its canvas. hopefully i'll be able to create something like that soon. how can i bring the feeling of losing yourself in an imagined world to this dimension in a way that doesn't feel incomplete or pretentious... making your thoughts a reality and sharing them with others is really hard ⊹₊ ˚‧︵‿₊୨୧₊‿︵‧ ˚ ₊⊹⊹₊ ˚‧︵‿₊୨୧₊‿︵‧ ˚ ₊⊹⊹₊ ˚‧︵‿₊୨୧₊‿︵‧ ˚ ₊⊹⊹₊ ˚‧︵‿₊୨୧₊‿︵‧ ˚ ₊⊹ 03.01.2025 the quiet of the start of a new year has me thinking about all sorts of stuff again. like sitting in the grass while feeling the cool morning air. a very desaturated but pleasant light blue been really missing the feeling of tuning into a radio station and hearing people talk. i love online radio but most places specialize in playing just music. would love to find a little talk show that only happens at a certain hour and is just people talking about random things, sort of like waking up early at a sleepover and talking with a friend quietly to not wake anyone else up maybe i'm watching too much anime ⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ finally got back to reading Tove Jansson's "Fair Play" after ages of not picking up a book and it's making me dream about having a little secluded studio to retreat to with a special partner, sharing ideas and working together. no rush, to stress, just enjoying toe process of creation together and sharing many cups of tea in quiet evenings something else that i'm noticing and liking a lot is the way she sort of combines the narration with the characters' inner dialogue. you start a paragraph reading the narration and it slowly transitions into a first person inner monologue in a nice gradient. i like it a lot! wondering how i could incorporate that sort of thing into a visual medium...having many such thoughts, of things that sound weird or lowkey impossible in theory but that'd be so interesting in practice if only i had this laundtry list of things with me this is slowly turning into Arca's Little Box of Ramblings. apologies(?) ... you delve further into the Box and find a bunch of scattered notes. messy lines covering what might once have been coherent text. i listened to a recording of my voice and my face for a little too long and fell into one of my spirals, ten times stronger than usual. still coming out of it a day later. it reminded me of how i wanted to create that little radio station that only turns on at certain hours of the day (read the previous log for deets). how....how would i do that if i have such a visceral reaction to a recording of my own voice? i could ask someone else to speak instead but that thought makes me a little sad for some reason. do you think it'd be really bad if i just never checked my recordings and never archived them? ｡ﾟ•·₊⊹ ︶ ͝ ˖⟢𓈒⟢˖ ͝ ︶ ͝ ། ·₊⊹• ｡ﾟ｡ﾟ•·₊⊹ ︶ ͝ ˖⟢𓈒⟢˖ ͝ ︶ ͝ ། ·₊⊹• ｡ﾟ｡ﾟ•·₊⊹ ︶ ͝ ˖⟢𓈒⟢˖ ͝ ︶ ͝ ། ·₊⊹• ｡ﾟ A fun quote from Fair Play that had me thinking about things last night: "My film is my sketchbook". a "sketchbook film" sounds like a fun concept, like maybe it's just a mix of different doodles and concept art, and different story ideas. maybe sometimes you'd have a shot with a bunch of different frames of how one scene could go. it *could* be a narrative about making a film or a piece of art, but this sort of thing lends itself really well to non-narrative. fun stuff! currently looking for people to collaborate on a thing and it's been real hard lol. i'm slowly being pushed from all directions to learn how to properly put myself out there...which is harder than you'd expect when you're a tiny spec of dust random thought, but should i reorganize this page so that recent updates are on top? i've gotten attached to this layout(?) but i've been thinking... •• ━━━━━ ••●•• ━━━━━ •••• ━━━━━ ••●•• ━━━━━ •••• ━━━━━ ••●•• ━━━━━ •••• ━━━━━ ••●•• ━━━━━ 🎧 6 Studies in English Folksong haven't been feeling too great recently, folks too many thoughts to function and too much identity/work related stress. arca's having a hard time, friends. trying to take it easy but i can't really do that right now sadly