✿ 24 feb 2020
thnx 𝐛𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐚_𝟐 for the Music of today (youtu.be/cJIc8a-t5HA). wish i knew how modular synths work.
7:23 pm. thinking if my profile is too long. worrying that no one's reading it but what did i expect. hate that i worry about this. i've been poisoned by social media's engagement drug. tired of being "vulnerable"! want to be a careless, tough, muscular, intimidating person.
7:34 pm. beautiful sounds of stuff rattling and whistling in the wind. looks like further away, on the building near my apartment building, some outside wall light is broken and is doing a strobe light effect. pretty cute situation if you ask me! made me think of this song youtu.be/3eU5OSM-cNo
7:38 pm. my special.fish presence is just a bunch of youtube links.
✿ 23 feb 2020
sleepy, but online.
wanted to say how cool 𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐱𝐭𝐨𝐧's profile looks now that they have 2 columns of text, it's also much easier to read than full width text. and i like that calendar they created too.
also, admiring 𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐟𝐚𝐫𝐞's easter egg. don't really understand how it works so i'm just clicking on random profiles, watching it change, but the music is beautiful. i want to check out more of 𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐟𝐚𝐫𝐞's melodies (jollo.org/LNT/home/fanfare/au/).
✿ 22 feb 2020
very interested in all this alternative web stuff, but it's too hard for me to understand. or maybe i'm just too lazy to read about it, as per usual. i am a slow learner, i keep forgetting that. gotta consume information in small portions. also gotta calm down, a little bit.
✿ 21 feb 2020
don't have the energy/don't feel patient enough to read profiles/click links attentively today. this doesn't feel good. still, updated my own lists, which maybe isn't fair, bc i only want to share and don't want to "listen" to what others have to say? lately i've been feeling like time is slipping away from me!
✿ 20 feb 2020
20/02/2020 OR 02/20/2020 today. pretty cool.
thanks 𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐥 and 𝐜𝐡𝐞 for your kind words about HiPHANTOMWiFi and fone film! ♡
7:13 pm. about to explore some special fish and then read an email. one hand on the laptop, other one playing with my cat using a bead lizard keychain on a string. okay she just left. @ 𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐥: listened to the 𝚐𝚘𝚕𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚢𝚎 𝟶𝟶𝟽 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚗𝟼𝟺 𝙾𝚂𝚃 (youtu.be/Q2S5Hvcm-gI) and some of it did remind me of the song i linked in the music section today (youtu.be/8kVHuAlrX9s). also i think special fish is pretty nice without built-in feedback features. i like looking at fish profiles/pages every day and noticing these little feedback notes people write to each other. it does take a lot of time, but that's the fun of it. i'm trying to recover the patience that i've lost because of spending too much time on "traditional" social media lol.
7:57 pm. discovered 𝐬𝐨𝐩𝐡𝟏𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞's music through 𝐬𝐤𝐰𝐚𝐤. really enjoying the song 𝙼𝚊𝚛𝚌𝚑 𝚁𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚙𝚎 (soupgrl1996.bandcamp.com/track/march-recipe).
8:13 pm. enjoying 𝚂𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚑 & 𝙰𝚗𝚗𝚊'𝚜 𝚂𝚝𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝙲𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 (seasons-guide.ltd/collection/) from the website featured in 𝐬𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐡's links section. i used to have a couple of notebooks with pages like that as a kid, some of them had locks with these tiny keys attached to them. makes me want to buy one of these again. maybe i should, maybe i have something to write in an irl notebook. although i've always been bad at irl journaling.
8:30 pm. i like 𝐧𝐚𝐳𝐥𝐢's 𝚜𝚔𝚢 𝚊𝚛𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚟𝚎 (nazli-ercan.com/sky).
8:40 pm. i found a way to use favs (for now). i'm just going to fav all of the fishes i've talked about in today's entry :-) anyways. brb!
✿ 18 feb 2020
good morning (2 pm)... today i'm thinking how cool this website is. still figuring out how to use it and what to do with the favs, but it's fun.
found out the best time for me to explore special.fish is in the morning. (not the 2 pm kind of morning but, like, the 8-9 am kind of morning. my sleep schedule is so wrong!!)
just accidentally typed a cyrillic character and was surprised how lightweight it is:
look at that. цікаво
(⇧ upd: i typed that from my phone, and rn i'm on my laptop and the thicknesses of these two letters look the same here!!)
✿ 16 feb 2020
i am burnt out after watching too many videos of eastern european pop. today i have tried to figure out my relationship with eastern european pop. i think i've failed, and it can mostly be described as "ugh", but sometimes as "huh"
yesterday i was thinking about quick time event videogames. and was trying to make background music for youtube videos. feeling a little bit of dread about that bc i'm bad at making it. that kinda gets in the way. whatever!!
anyway, cool thing is that i found out one of the popular normie bands from russia used to make amazing techno/cute queer music videos in the 90s. that shocked me in a good way, wish all local pop was like that forever.
Music of today (24 feb 2020)
Food cooked today (24 feb 2020)
- none, i'm eating leftovers
Best words heard this month (feb 2020)