11/9/24 -- Slow walk, brought on by hunger. Lit a Chunghwa and didn't get very far before I was stopped and asked for assistance. A thirty minute odyssey not knowing how to help. At the corner of Lincoln and Nevada, just a block away from where I started. She noticed my Chinese cigarettes and laughed a little. I explained how they were brought back for me by my friend and how I liked their plum smell. On the phone with redirections and holds. No sense of urgency in these faceless spaces. I was almost at the finish line when my efforts were rendered obsolete. Another resident coming home. In the end it was only my presence and willingness that helped at all. I was thanked and received some Lays "Italian red meat" potato chips and some coconut milk as gifts, both delicious. I continued on my way, as the hunger had not subsided, carrying my spoils in my arms and feeling grateful. 11/12/24 -- short walk. one I make often, and deciding to take a more circuitous route I instead turn right. Haven't noticed this apartment building before, somehow it feels different from the rest. There is a certain kind, the mid-century flaccid apartment buildings that line Lincoln on the border of a clear zoning restriction. Perhaps it was the tree and perhaps the time of year. An unusual tree for this neighborhood. It's needles sprinkled the ground, encroaching down the ramp to the half-basement parking ever so prevalent. A deep auburn, it being November. they somehow made it beautiful. I was tired and trudged along, allowing that to be the only thing I really noticed. 11/26/24 -- one of those drawn out ones that has no real intention other than some sort of distraction or deliberation. The cold makes these more difficult and I still haven't gotten some gloves I really like. haven't had a lot of alone time lately but everyone's gone right now. a pretty typical meandering loop, finding myself automatically directed to familiar locations, my partner's house despite its emptiness and other haunts i frequent. really haunted now. 12/5/24 -- I will walk for you, to get for you that which you desire. to the corner store. brisk trot, i'm cold but it's her birthday. face is down and mind empty. I only notice my hands loosing feeling and my lack of proper clothing. my only goal in this is it's brevity. this is not so thoughtful as the others. dammit! closed at 7. turn around, do again.