5/24 last night i couldn't fall asleep because i started to feel so scared about where i will be in the next few months. i feel like i am riding on a comet hurdling towards the earth and it feels like disaster is coming. but i also know that once it makes contact eventually there will just be quiet. 5/14 remembering why i am here and that i can stand up for myself 5/11 listened to someone talk about the desperation that comes with hunger and the emptiness that fundamentally changes you. 5/10 i've been calling out to you for days have you thought of me? have you dreamt of me as i've dreamt of you? 5/8 wishing to be a flâneur i have known what it is to be in communion with god