*------------* | November | *------------* It is supposed to snow tomorrow. We'll see... (RESULT: IT ☐SNOWED ☐DIDNT SNOW) Something about this time of the year makes me feel nice about my life. I'm not actually doing anything different but it's like i get to feel the good kind of SNS mental instability I used to live with in high school again... micegirls, lolita headdresses, overwhelming amount of drawings, fish-insect empathy, proper nouns that are somewhat abstract concepts but can still be linked to concrete things, ...Cold Visions... I've been playing a visual novel for the first time (白衣性恋愛症候群) Objectively speaking, it's not that good; but I've still gotten so invested in the story that I sometimes end up arguing out loud all alone like the characters were there. (recorded example @ gabriel.reisen/sakai.wav) Relationships sure are tough aye. I need to submit an application to do a student exchange program. It's very scary. I'm lost. I was reading comedian 亀亀's blog yesterday so I really feel like writing a lot (I'm very influenceable); but I don't have such an active lifestyle that I have plenty of things to write about. This 2 shall pass dove emoji Oh no wait talking about using the number 2 to mean to I re-listened to i just dont wanna name it anything with "beach" in the title and it was as good as the first time i did in 10th grade. i think that, back then, I underestimated how lifechanging it and hello kitty skates to the fuckin CEMETARY were. They're really really good. *-----------* | October | *-----------* Thank you @sneek for @-ing me (and so thoroughly visiting my website) ! its the first time im @-ed on here.... Bladee is building bridges - I went through midterms! It went alright. I have the TOEFL next saturday. I went to the miku concert! It was amazing. I got a kandi bracelet from a stranger ;v; I translated a Kyuu sketch (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ojWJ9D49rCY). I'm very weak to funny screaming. - Fall has been great. Maybe it’s because I live in places with very fall-centered agricultural cycles, but everything has been feeling so seasonal… Homemade applesauce, Sweet potatoes, Chestnuts, Tea, Cold weather, Rain, The leaves changing colors… It’s very nice. *-------------* | September | *-------------* Isn't it kind of sad how human interactions are basically entirely encompassed within explicit dialogue ? Especially on the internet / Without actual co-presence, the only way to "be" in a social exchange with another is to talk / communicate. Human connections need a tertiary, potentially abstract mutually understood subject Without which nothing can happen or something like that idk *----------* | August | *----------* I have 48 minutes of august left now. I worked and watched youtube a lot. Repeated stupid quotes to myself lots*. Submitted a letter to a podcast and felt stressed about it. Tried coding my website anew but I think i'll have to restart from scratch. Summer wasnt at all productive but being alive is great and everybody is nice. *Examples: "人類の歴史を見たフット後藤「学ばんねや」" "お抹茶にハマっちゃえ〜" "人間って凄い〜♪人間って凄い〜♪" (youtu.be/Fs0HalmM0hY?t=97) "大森じゃ！" (youtu.be/Ewh1tF6k-7M?t=564) "痰がすごいな" "ななななーななななー" ／ "何だこいつ〜〜〜!!" "いや俺、俺っ小峠英二、小峠英二！小峠英二！小峠英二！" "Twitterの人かお前" *--------* | July | *--------* I went to my first con and bought my first anime figure last week so now i necessarily have to enter a reflective phase, as an adult man… owning that kind of thing raises some issues… Even though it’s very "adult man" like, which is one of the issues --- I rewatched Machikado Mazoku Season 1 and for some reason I can't explain I couldn't stop my eyes from watering everytime the opening played Embarrassing... The first time I watched Machikado Mazoku, the context in which I heard of it urged me to think back on the relationships between the characters. I spent time reflecting on archetypes, daydreaming about further facts... I feel like I couldn't do that now, I lost that capacity to age. But they're still good memories *--------* | June | *--------* --- I played "your wings my wings" (Visual Novel) It was good... very pretty... ...I feel like everytime I engage with this kind of art, ...I feel an immediate drive to appropriate part of it ...as a mirror or a representation of my own experience, ...Or who I am or who could I be ......Because I would be so beautiful ......And It would be so simple...... In my way I just have to boss through it with the conviction that it is not my heart, it's the only cure... I'm going to a rave tonight (normally) I hope it'll be fun --- I made a castella cake and ate it whole in two days → Consequence: i put on weight.................. *-------* | May | *-------* --- I've been checking out Kirara freebies on seiga as I procrastinate. Here are my thoughts about some of them! " You're gross so I like you. " The title had me intrigued... Now I get it... I feel a little bad about it, but I kept wanting to know what happens next. There are more twists than one would expect, so it gets very entertaining. It's supposed to be a subversion of the genre so I can't really get mad over how weird it gets. It gets pretty weird though! " This Gender-Ambiguous Assassin Is Too Cute! " The title explains everything. It's just a classic Kirara comic about things being cute. It's absolutely harmless, so much so that I didn't even feel That bad finding it nice (which is rare). " Nullmeta: Archetype " Nullmeta... For years I've been stuck in the process of admitting I like this manga. Some things in it are indefensible. I have no excuse. It crosses the line multiple times. Liking it probably makes me a bad person. And yet, and yet... If you want me to explain why I like nullmeta In details just ask me, I'll do it. I'll do it. --- [List of Cold Visions Lyrics] *-------* | April | *-------* I went to a big park today (Parc des Sceaux) to see the cherry blossoms which were mostly gone, because it's been cold and rainy But i still saw a lot of people cosplaying, which I always find nice I mean I don't go to cons or things like that but having a group that goes normal person, normal person, hu tao, normal person carry out daily life activities is very amusing to me I've been... cataloguing... on are.na/esther-ciq1mpwzmfi/lucky-star-jiewicygl0q Sometimes I think about how cool it would be if those clothes were real but its a pain to put into production l countryside - White flowers bloom - Drop rain grass - Cows ducks unconcerned I, sheep encouragingly baaed I truly simple the world. felt an giving voice dsi Nichijou. Normal *-------* | March | *-------* Birds in rain, Fish in heaven Sitting in the parc because it is sunny outside like a normal person… yup nothing strange here… this a normal thing to do i am enjoying the ground in a normal way The weather affects us more than we would like to admit