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Everywhere Yet Nowhere

hello universe manifesting into the void: - i trust myself and my feelings - i am worthy, capable, and welcoming of new experiences and feelings - i deserve to feel happy and loved - i create my own destiny and with that comes power and purpose - although i don't know where the future leads, i trust that i am headed in the right direction - i am so thankful for all that i have been given/blessed by/created and will continue to feel grateful for everything that comes my way i never thought i would make it this far -- typing that makes me want to cry, but it is the truth -- and that means i want to appreciate all good that comes my way sometimes life feels hopeless and this is to remind myself that i have so much to look forward to and appreciate in my life these are things i need to work on: - my sense of self - what do i need and what do i want -> the ability to differentiate the two - focus on making myself better, not others worse - that might only make sense in my head but basically i need to stop being such a gemini - i guess im only saying all this to keep myself accountable also, maybe someone else in the void has similar experiences i am not alone

gratitude -- a (gentle) reminder for myself

  • i am alive and have free will
  • i have a support system made up of people who love and care about me
  • i have a brother who pushes me to think in different ways
  • i have a father who would do anything for me
  • i have a mother whose creativity has no match
  • i can be alone and not be lonely
  • i have been educated, challenged, pushed to the limit yet i havent broken
  • i am able to grow from my experiences
  • i am capable of making connections with people

i feel so alone

  • and empty
  • confused about who i am
  • and who i want to be -
  • future tense.
  • -
  • took some time to reflect
  • maybe its bpd maybe its life
  • either way
  • ive got to learn to be more grateful
  • of all that i have
  • im only 25
  • i dont need to have life all figured out yet