Archive (i ran out of character limit)

• [110820] Last night I finished watching The Good Place. I cried so much for those left behind, but I don't think there's anything I would change...I know the feeling of complete peace they described as the final place.
• After all, once you live that long, you're not afraid of running out of time and you just want to be at rest. The wave returns to the ocean, but the water remains, always. I would too.
• 、
• [090920] how can i say I love you in a way you understand?
• 、
• [080120] At midnight my cramps returned so I went to the kitchen to drink warm lemon water. As I sat there I thought: I’ve been reborn, transformed, after what happened. It doesn’t feel good. I feel a stranger to the things I used to care about.
• I feel like a stranger in my skin. I used to say I wanted to be happy but really I was looking to deserve happiness. I don’t feel that way now, not since. I just want to be happy. be myself. be happy.
• 、
• [072620] alone in an open / room in a place full of / other people. where / i think of being another / person.
• last night, i watched myself / as i walked towards / death's welcoming arms. / i felt the taste of peace / almost, almost to the brim / i woke up / i was only dreaming. / and i did / walk that / path, but i never / reached it.
• to be stopped while walking / i can't go on anymore. / i tried for a long time. i really can't. / in the end, i was sorry i lived.

embody

• seclusion

tamping(s)

• soil around plants
• tobacco into a pipe
• clay, sand, or dirt into a drill hole (above explosives)
• ground coffee into the portafilter
• soil to be built on or near
• gunpowder in a cannon's throat, actually
• see also: other violent acts of care
• every parentheses, most brackets
• a handshake's inhale, which Doc Warman, every day, said I had the best in the world

n'importe

• double quote " single quote ''

Sites I want to remember!!!!!!

• https://hel-looks.com/archive/#20240120_08
• https://vangoghletters.org/vg/
• https://tadoku.org/japanese/en/
• https://artblart.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/04/jindr%CC%8Cich-s%CC%8Ctreit-arnoltice-1985-web.jpg
• https://tilde.town/~kc/snow/
• https://99gifshop.neocities.org/
• https://ita.toys/

me

• https://www.instagram.com/xynree/
• https://xinrui.work/

music for nice people:

• (upbeat, new releases, 90s alternative) -- current work in progress summer playlist - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0WylwQWI8pKAvd3tZEaCFe?si=gVTt4hCVR-OplljDQTw6eg
• (world music, warm, calm) , groovy) -- papa schaef's songs to make your plants grow tall and your dreams come true -- open.spotify.com/playlist/7kEKGmZ5Zof0mkv6zcdRB3?si=TosHmSrGTtGA18bEkHS2Sw
• (deep cuts, genre exploration, taste expansion) -- slug growth potion -- open.spotify.com/playlist/3sE3aPxlXsSGjwHWl25B22?si=nUhwM1R0RIq5LrRYiy5Ecw
• (hip-hop, current, upbeat, smooth) -- slug ashtray mix -- https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1OxzFAh9z1VDWTZfxfJyaO?si=rwPdOeaXRZy-ftXVoITzgw
• (toronto) -- local-ish bands -- open.spotify.com/playlist/4xWVYqP3EkSEcrrgixw2Zh?si=rcJoYeqWShWyFBUWl3BLwA
• (french, italian, portuguese, spanish) -- music from the homeland -- open.spotify.com/playlist/4SdL1BB8lanEMocZhFOq4U?si=iAX7qHEiRWyB76KzochqNw
• (for witches) -- witch music for witches -- https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3583dg2ZPikLhSgAbyGrBm?si=UD6OyN9uRP21t-_a1Skkmg
• & more on spoofy for you to explore if you want to be my friend

thinkin about

• grapes

• https://www.mixcloud.com/Gardener/

It’s

• been

Awesome Gemini

• gemini://feeds.drewdevault.com
• gemini://glv.one
• gemini://geminispace.info

search / discover

• https://search.marginalia.nu/
• https://ooh.directory/
• https://searchmysite.net/
• https://wiby.me/
• https://oldavista.com/

Some Books That I Have Read During 2022

• The Alchemist, Paolo Coelho
• Dr. Futurity, Philip K. Dick
• Fair Warning, Michael Connelly
• Ubik, Philip K. Dick
• The Octopus on my Head, Jim Nisbet
• Killing Commendatore, Haruki Murakami
• The Blue Dragon, Ronald Tierney
• The Largesse of the Sea Maiden, Denis Johnson
• Annihilation, Jeff VanderMeer
• Authority, Jeff VanderMeer
• Gilgamesh: A New English Version, Stephen Mitchell
• Paradise Ain't Paradise, Kahri Blackman

• http://staggeringbeauty.com
• https://omfgdogs.com

good florida birds

• glossy ibis
• purple gallinule
• black-necked stilt
• florida scrub jay
• northern crested caracara

i thought this was cute

• libra sun
• scorpio rising
• cancer moon

• winter evening

Alternative interfaces for popular sites

• https://bibliogram.art/
• https://invidio.us/
• https://nitter.net/
• https://github.com/SimonBrazell/privacy-redirect

Questions for reflection

• How am I showing the people that I love that I love them?
• When do I feel most loved by the people that love me?
• At what moments does my body feel most peaceful?
• When was the last time I talked to my mom?
• When was the last time I checked in on a long-distance friend?
• What has been making me feel inspired?
• What has been making me feel happy?

03/11/2024

• my name is noelle
• today i feel like a delirious sky guiding in the manifesto
• sometimes i am a bluet
• sometimes i am a better half
• but always i am sanguine
• I ask the world, “how did you know you were in love?”
• and the answer is, a delirious sky guiding into the manifesto

this man will send you a poster of his favorite coffee shops

• https://arielrubinstein.tau.ac.il/

what i like to put in my scrambled eggs

• garlic
• red onion
• yellow bell pepper
• heavy cream (a drop of it)
• spoonful of sour cream
• feta cheese
• parmesan
• fried on olive oil and butter
• slowly on low heat
• topped with paprika

✚

• cathexis                 apostasy            chthonic                   stricture
• samizdat                gestell              tautology                   gambit
• monad                  anomie             hypostatize                 fata morgana
• apophatic theology         webring            speedcore                  pyrrhonic
• anastrophism             philosoma           temple grandin              apoplectic
• gelassenheit              ron athey           reification

likes

• Hatha and Ashtanga Yoga
• Cooking
• Visiting Art Book Venues
• Movies of David Lynch, Wim Wenders and Jim Jarmusch
• Spring
• Summer
• Fall

fixations

• navy blue
• hi-5 the australian group
• thin rings
• silver (although someone said it makes my eyes look dead)
• red eared sliders
• supermarkets
• folding potstickers
• earthenware mugs

times

• 11:47
• 3:39
• 0:05
• 1:00
• 8:49

Favorite writers

• Petco
• Icee1
• Cafe20
• J Kid
• Lot 29
• Surf BKF

thinking about

• time is a flat circle
• art references in the apeshh*t music vid by the carters
• what dogs dream about
• kewpie mayo dominating all mayonnaise

you come ashore

• dream on the sand https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c6xwQSX742s

i'm also here

• http://soundcloud.com/alo-sound
• http://plug.dj/arritmia

🚥 necessary software

• microsoft onenote
• mozilla firefox
• mozilla thunderbird
• are.na
• spotify
• xournal++
• upscayl
• anytype

Current Rotation

• Born Confused - Porridge Radio
• yumiwomiyou
• Crumb
• See You Again - Tyler The Creator
• Swimming - Deb Never

• june
• coniferous trees
• film over swamp
• i break all of my promises and lie everyday

watch this

• https://strangenegotiationsfilm.com/
• https://www.netflix.com/title/80100172

• Duty-Free Art, Hito Steyerl
• My Brilliant Friend (trilogy), Elena Ferrante
• Testo Junkie, Paul Preciado

• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnJfY8qbqPg

sing song la la la

• King of Rock & Roll ~ Prefab Sprout
• Bandlulu Lover ~ ICYTWAT
• Arcadia ~ Stefan Tischler
• M.A.Y. IN THE BACKYARD ~ Ryuichi Sakamoto
• The Grinch ~ Trippie Redd
• Hey, Who Really Cares ~ Linda Perhacs

plan(t)s

• catus
• fridgey

rituals

• meditation
• mantra
• movement
• cold exposure
• journaling/planning
• collecting
• reading

• Queen Bitch

I'm here

• https://www.instagram.com/val_espinos.z.a/

Login Info

• https://pastebin.com/BGBfqJ6g
• https://pastebin.com/MYxKTDrw

• three body problem, series

noted

• if you don't chew big red then fuck you

♪

• https://open.spotify.com/track/04bAIuS7IUB2tGY69O5tUG?si=8CfXzBNGS1CVDDhfqSwSfw
• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hjxuboutnkc

• https://care-tags.org
• https://www.irunfar.com/
• https://special.fish/cmyk

things that often appear in my dreams

• insects in my room
• big insects
• insects forming patterns together

• Every month is beautiful

pavel

• stop making sense
• email me! frolikov@ucdavis.edu

• The death of Stalin

things i sort of kind of really like

• ✿ home videos
• ✿ the moon
• ✿ the number 4
• ✿ how you never know the last snowfall is the last while it's happening
• ✿ oral history archives
• ✿ hands
• ✿ when eyes are browsing something and they kinda linger but then move slightly
• ✿ shadows
• ✿ photos of 1970s dinner party food
• ✿ detective boards
• ✿ seeing someone's room for the first time
• ✿ lists

links

• http://tiana.computer/
• http://volvoxvault.com/articles/elliottandlaurel.html
• https://www.yourworldoftext.com/~kuromi/
• https://www.are.na/tiana-dueck
• http://tiana.computer/blog.html

last wine

• massa vecchia berace rosso di toscana / ★★★★ / 😗

• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hf61K6ZKu_4
• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7EexjQdT0s

a few songs i like right now

• John Glacier - Nevasure
• Bronze Nazareth - Fanta 6
• Dokkeytino - Pochop Ma
• DJ Arana - Montagem Phonk Brasileiro
• John Glacier - TELESCOPE
• Rafael Garaj - 4
• D'Angelo - Playa Playa
• Harto Falión - paranoid_2_outside_the_party
• Tom Petty - Yer So Bad
• Milan Lasica - Vyletek vták...
• The Hirs Collective - We're Still Here
• DJmegan23 - Shaking My Ass Up In Heaven

homeware to buy/make

• https://www.earthandherflower.com/shop/ceramics-handmade OR https://mimiceramics.com/ OR https://www.summerschoolshop.com/shop
• https://www.dceramics.com/ready-to-ship/palo-santo-insence-holder
• https://objectandtotem.bigcartel.com/product/ko-soap-dish
• https://www.shopyowie.com/collections/all
• https://prismseattle.com/collections/puzzles/products/forbidden-fruit-puzzle
• https://shopnanin.com/collections/candles/products/bath-candle-available-in-white-terracotta
• https://www.thirddrawerdown.us/products/heroin-cocaine-salt-and-pepper-shakers-x-david-shrigley
• https://shop-passenger.com/collections/home/products/stone-white-incense-dish
• kinto, hasami porcelain, astier, ami like miami
• https://sophieloujacobsen.com/Ripple-Cup-Clear
• https://www.endclothing.com/sg/ferm-living-bon-accessories-large-container-ferm-110228101.html
• https://www.summerschoolshop.com/shop: Toni / Cordage mug (cream/white)

Awesome hardware

• Pine64 https://pine64.com/
• Purism https://puri.sm/

words i spell wrong the most

• psycho
• restaurant
• nausea

tunes

• https://blastingcompany.bandcamp.com/track/candy
• https://theyellnats.bandcamp.com/album/social-distancing-a-compilation
• https://mypetflamingo.bandcamp.com/album/miami-virtual
• https://www.lowergrandradio.com/
• https://tamping.bandcamp.com/album/let-the-toddlers-play-with-hammers

Albums

• Darkness on the Edge of Town by Bruce Springsteen
• Kaputt by Destroyer
• The Bedlam in Goliath by The Mars Volta
• Splendor and Misery by Clipping
• Twin Fantasy by Car Seat Headrest
• Einstein on the Beach by Philip Glass

voice drafts

• https://soundcloud.com/dogcloud/gioco-del-sasso-magnetico
• https://soundcloud.com/dogcloud/reading-things-out-loud-in-szs-room-for-matt

favorite brain rots

• please pack me like your stanley for your hot girl walk :-(((((((((((((((
• tornadoes. reed timmer. the dominators.

brands i like

• helmut lang
• vince
• theory
• rag & bone
• isabel marant
• everlane

• Tom Wolfe — The Kingdom of Speech
• Marshall McLuhan & Quentin Fiore — The Medium Is The Massage
• Mark Z. Danielewski — House of Leaves

ᵐᵒᵛⁱᵉˢ

• Guns of the Trees
• Gently Down the Stream
• La Ville Louvre
• Work
• Fugazi - Instrument
• Go fish
• By Hook or By Crook

• tropic of cancer, henry miller
• lysistrata, aristophanes
• eve's hollywood, eve babitz
• against interpretation, susan sontag

• http://www.botany.hawaii.edu/faculty/carr/ofp/ofp_index.htm
• https://oscov.asn.au/vooty-gallery/
• https://digitalcollections.lib.washington.edu/digital/collection/dp/search

• i found "city girl" on youtube recently
• and lemon dope, i think is the name
• sims 2 in the background w Juno Birch lol
• these are my current sounds

Email me at myctophidae@protonmail.com

• Something flickered.
• Neon butterfly.
• Torn wings.
• ---
• Place the quote and I'll give you emotional capital

What to do

• Rive gauche
• Rive droite
• Ailleurs

what

• is
• this

internet story

• my first girlfriend wrote me endless love letters on http://letterstocrushes.com/
• — and i still treasure them —
• we were fourteen; it was sweet.
• after we broke up, we stopped talking, harbored hard feelings. one night from an ambiguous facebook post i got wind that she was dating someone new,
• someone i had long admired,
• and i confirmed it, i confirmed it for myself, by reading all the new love letters she had written.

yisel fanclub membership application

• https://forms.gle/bxgnB4pyPB73ynY99

Books I loved - 2019 edition

• New Dark Age
• How to do Nothing
• Energy at the End of the World
• 1Q84
• On Earth We Are Briefly Gorgeous
• The Carrier Bag Theory of Fiction

games

• pikmin
• fire emblem
• touhou
• pikmin
• ?

✉️

• cadencecadence@gmail.com

• killer of sheep
• nostalghia
• american graffiti

things to do this month

• feminist film project (get started bcs u dont have much time)
• 100m sticker/print/zine design for odays
• Student Union zine design
• CnC engagement//notes (keep up the points every week)
• reading group readings
• Organization for SU position
• put books on hold//and then pick them up (tpl)
• PORTFOLIO WEBSITE PLS
• personal blog site (help)
• redo room setup

• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2CE9Olvu54

• I am living / I remember you

• The party never ends

The Original vs. The Sequel

• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Da_CDPRG2j0
• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WkqecpHcIPw

• https://www.flickr.com/photos/uofglibrary/
• https://jekyllrb.com/tutorials/convert-site-to-jekyll/
• https://docs.google.com/document/d/1QY09lB7_KmEVJ1tYhjgqahWKEcikvuIKCnMe1Xz8uyE/mobilebasic

things i've ordered online during quarantine that just made sense

• satin photoalbum from victorian era
• vintage puff box
• chanel 18 rouge noir nail polish
• a deck of tarot cards
• another deck of tarot cards

these filmmakers

• denis villeneuve
• celine song
• wes anderson
• sofia coppola
• guillermo del toro
• lars von trier
• bong joon-ho
• hayao miyazaki
• greta gerwig
• derek cianfrance
• alejandro gonázalez iñárritu
• jim jarmusch

Computer

• Click
• Tap
• Scroll
• Tag
• Delete
• Undo
• Upload
• Download
• Save

Beverages of this week

• Hot coffee with almond milk
• Topo Chico (unflavored)
• Water

Trax

• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVvDnvRM4-A
• https://aex-series.bandcamp.com/track/rubyralis
• https://soundcloud.com/16315/karenn-id-boiler-room-london
• https://soundcloud.com/brendonmoeller/brendon-moeller-merry-go-round
• https://soundcloud.com/yg_swe/my-stomach-is-a-lion
• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SXabicgC-dk

• Punch-Drunk Love, PTA

songs

• https://youtu.be/KOumIlqJOUk
• https://youtu.be/ZSLgNIXP4Bo
• https://youtu.be/1DDXbaSn9qQ
• https://youtu.be/I4KMKm4IzFQ
• https://youtu.be/ViQXzv841pE
• https://youtu.be/-d3v1AsBKxA

read

• Parle-leur de batailles, de rois et d'éléphants by Mathias Enard
• L'écume des jours by Boris Vian
• Frappe-toi le cœur by Amélie Nothomb
• The Accidental by Ali Smith
• De la part de la princess morte by Kénizé Mourad

Ishmael is:

• sturdy | "of a broad-shouldered make" (XVI)
• at least in his late-20s | "I had been four voyages in the merchant [service]—” (XVI)
• suicidal | "This is my substitute for pistol and ball. With a philosophical flourish Cato throws himself upon his sword; I quietly take to the ship." (I)
• practical | " I always go to sea as a sailor, because they make a point of paying me for my trouble." (I)
• a dreamer | "I — being left completely to myself at such a thought-engendering altitude" (XXXV)
• a journeyman | "been a stone-mason... a great digger of ditches, canals, and wells, and wine-vaults, cellars, and cisterns of all sorts" (CIV)
• an educator | "The transition is a keen one, I assure you, from a schoolmaster to a sailor, and requires a strong decoction of Seneca and the Stoics to enable you to grin and bear it." (1)
• death-aware | "I thought I might as well go below and make a rough draft of my will... This was the fourth time in my nautical life that I had done the same thing." (XLVI)
• a liar | "I know it to be true; it happened on this ball; I trod the ship; I knew the crew; I have seen and talked with Steelkilt since the death of Radney.'" (LIV)
• unwed to women | "but there is no place like a bed for confidential disclosures between friends. Man and wife, they say, there open the very bottoms of their souls..." (X)
• married to a man | "he pressed his forehead against mine, clasped me round the waist, and said that henceforth we were married" (X)
• seeking | "I am tormented with an everlasting itch for things remote. I love to sail forbidden seas, and land on barbarous coasts. Not ignoring what is good, I am quick to perceive a horror, and could still be social with it" (I)

• http://pdschatz.com
• http://netart.website

+++ books+films+texts+zines +++

• Eva & Franco Mattes, Dear imaginary audiences,
• John Frankenheimer, Ronin
• Martin Page, Je suis un tremblement de terre
• Michel Aurnague, Qu’est-ce qu’un verbe de déplacement ? : critères spatiaux pour une classification des verbes de déplacement intransitifs du français
• Hackers & Designers, Network Imaginaries
• Marguerite Audoux, Marie-Claire
• Nicolas Baudoin, la galaxie gutenberg 528 caractères
• Simon Juquois, l'expression d'une volonté
• Diane Kurys, Diabolo menthe
• Adrien Yeung, Power Bâtisseurs
• Sergueï Paradjanov, Sayat Nova
• Jean-Pierre Cahier, Bases sémiotiques pour le Web des expériences

cups

• water
• water
• water
• wine
• water

sunday, 3.31.24; aura notes [seizure averted with klonopin for first time]

• most relatable way to put it is like you haven't slept for a week. but your body is not calling for sleep, it's just freaking out.
• thoughts are really loud & crisp [even more than usual], but they're not coming from inside your brain, they're somewhere like a foot away. up and across. it's always up.
• feels like "you" is somewhere a foot away from your head, up and across. like you're watching yourself in the third-person, but your vision is still embodied. maybe just... hearing yourself in the third person. but it also feels proprioceptive.
• thoughts are mostly "fuck i'm gonna have a seizure." they used to be "i'm really tired in a weird way, oh well." you are now so grateful that you & your aura remember each other's names.
• your brain feels much lighter, like empty. no volume. makes you aware of how heavy your brain usually is.
• vision: like when you take a picture and turn the brightness and contrast way up. everything is washed out but colors are still stark. this comparison is actually very accurate, so if you want to simulate you can try this.
• another note on vision: everything is delayed & jiggly like when you're really drunk.
• you were able to coherently text a friend to cancel plans. used the term "feeling seizurely"
• "indescribable feeling" is a medical term in describing parts of an aura. you have that. sorry, you can't describe.
• klonopin worked!!! you were still able to go to the zine library to read & catalog!! happy ending, for the first time.
• not sure why this is in 2nd person but it feels right

• 02

my favorite book

• bernstin bears
• one minuet artist
• how to play slither.io
• how to plant a apricot

• november
• october
• february
• april
• july
• december

books

• stoner by john william
• the book of hopi by frank waters
• the loser by thomas bernhard
• Neuromancer by william gibson

• email paintcanpothole@gmail.com (send me phone recordings!)
• instagram paintcan_pothole

dreams

• june 2 i had so many but remember nothing
• june 3 i was at a dance shop buying pointe shoes
• june 5 i was giving a presentation at school but i wasnt sure what the presentation was about so i kept giggling into the microphone while several people brought me flowers
• june 7 nightmare
• june 9 i was in space trying to hold my breath but i was breathing in cosmic poisons
• june 11 melatonin freak dreams
• november 10 no dreams bc i had to pee TWICE in the night
• november 11 pete davidson wanted to get matching calico critters with me

games i have enjoyed recently

• sekiro
• minecraft
• hearthstone
• factorio
• cave story
• slay the spire

Birds

• Belted Kingfisher
• American Woodcock
• Oystercatcher
• American Kestrel
• Common Yellowthroat
• Brown Thrasher

ergodic literature i know already [if i understand Espen J Aarseth correctly; not sure i do]

• that one "life" app game that i used to get ads and tiktoks for all the time. i wonder where that went. never played it--even from the happy ads it seemed very morbid.
• "Building Stories" by Chris Ware; maybe why i like ergodic lit but don't like this academized writing about it, because the book is so accessible; there's apparently a lot of scholarly work about Building Stories.
• "Norman vs. America" comic by Charles Platt. [https://archive.org/details/quark40000edsa p.65]. i got the happy ending my first try which was kind of disappointing. it was also a gross definition of "happy."
• www.isfdb.org is awesome. not where i found that comic but it helped me track it down online.
• "The Garden of Forking Paths" by Borges; Jun's writing about it and "A Tale for the Time Being" by Ruth Ozeki was really good. i should return to it [Jun is a friend].
• also that one Borges story about the encyclopedia i can't remember the title of
• made this: https://ergodic-morrison-memory.glitch.me/

• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iRX1qGOl0W8

🕸 Posts to Fan the Flames of the Web — Part 2 🕸

• • https://neustadt.fr/essays/the-small-web/
• • https://jarredsumner.com/codeblog/
• • https://thewebthatwas.net/
• • https://e.elliott.computer/exploring-the-vastness-of-a-website/
• • https://web.archive.org/web/20190701041639/https://dominik.net/reviving-ye-olde-personal-home-page.html
• • https://cathieleblanc.com/2019/03/24/alternative-to-the-corporate-web/
• • http://www.roughtype.com/?p=8591
• • http://anildash.com/2012/12/13/the_web_we_lost/
• • https://ar.al/notes/how-web-2-0-killed-the-internet/
• • https://flowerhack.dreamwidth.org/3230.html
• • https://www.filfre.net/2017/10/a-net-before-the-web-part-1-the-establishment-man-and-the-magnificent-rogue/
• • https://motherboard.vice.com/en_us/article/vbanny/we-should-replace-facebook-with-personal-websites

• https://d2w9rnfcy7mm78.cloudfront.net/5723167/original_b8772e7b48e34d28418a7ce6aeb3c107.jpg?1576431325?bc=0

Films//

• "Voskhozhdenie" (The Ascent), Larisa Shepitko.
• "Zerkalo" (Mirror), Andrei Tarkovsky.
• "Dai-bosatsu tôge" (Sword of Doom), Kihachi Okamoto.
• "Údolí vcel" (The Valley of the Bees), Frantisek Vlácil.
• "Mishima: A Life in Four Chapters", Paul Schrader.
• "HyperNormalisation", Adam Curtis.

𝒻𝓊𝓃𝓀𝓎 – 16.05

• https://youtu.be/TYMwPkq5-q0

• https://www.are.na/cory-arcangel/now-listening

• The best month is October

Links

• https://reallifemag.com

nice journals

• https://special.fish/pirl
• https://special.fish/bubbles
• https://special.fish/skwak
• https://special.fish/natalie

• rocket man

buffering

• http://duskjacket.com/static/html/
• http://duskjacket.com/static/fireflies.html
• http://duskjacket.com/static/fav-fish/
• https://duskjacket.com/static/culture-care/
• https://chrome.google.com/webstore/detail/wind-chimes/dadehopbkliipikkhepkaoifjjbmogge
• https://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/firefox/addon/wind-chimes/

video and film

• early 2010s videos with barely any views

@

• spiderfairy@protonmail.com
• benevolent_gargoyle

Music

• https://open.spotify.com/track/6GepmTyFqXevZKz73GGKtA?si=EwEohcu3RRSzTktMe03yyA
• https://open.spotify.com/track/0jXmjcOI4hG6vF2KL67uKW?si=0jGq1hUZRBKUOlDbkucz5w
• https://youtu.be/rWzE5Mf7Pm0
• https://youtu.be/x2MUpflIkKM

+ books+films+text +

• Tim Ingold, Une brève histoire des lignes
• Silvio Lorusso, Entreprecariat
• Françoise Sagan, Des bleus à l'âme
• Rainer Werner Fassbinder, Roulette chinoise
• Jonathan Bourguignon, Internet, année zéro : De la Silicon Valley à la Chine, naissance et mutations du réseau
• Bruno Bachimont, Max Bonhomme, Loup Cellard, Anthony Masure, Kevin Donnot, Pierre-Damien Huyghe, Indra Kupferschmid, Jean-Noël Lafargue, Vivien Philizot, Fabrice Sabatier, Nicolas Thély, Technique & design graphique. Outils, médias, savoirs
• Claudia de la Torre, Questions Library Catalogue
• Takeshi Kitano, Sonatine
• Julien Gracq, La Maison
• Anthony Masure, Le design des programmes, des façons de faire du numérique
• Antoine Jobard, Atelier Panique
• Aki Kaurismäki, La fille aux allumettes

♥️

• HAIM "The Steps" https://open.spotify.com/album/3dKYxScP9wStrKkPmcTGoG?si=6OPSk1qYTYyT0c9IGOjafg
• Pihlap.uud "Võõras" https://open.spotify.com/album/24z5IxPRlXwFVqHuKNS4Zy?si=eFzR1YtjRq6ApP0_AyjSVA

cooking things

• jamaican ginger cake
• soft milk bread
• bagel + honey butter
• cinnamon buns

music im listening to on the bed time of (now) 5.8.24. today I cried alot but now im peaceful.

• finally, I will know myself - Arthur
• carry the zero - built to spill
• ww - other nothing
• brown 69 - Vincent Gallo
• Johnny cash hurt type beat - dean blunt
• mindmap- john glacier, surf gang
• ben's my friend - sun kil moon
• beautiful moon - Kim deal
• jam after school- dry cleaning
• pretty - lil yahty

• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IqgFbQEnbGI
• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vNUHo85IezM&list=LLJiW1fu84ct8uf8LjI9Zf9g&index=99
• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pBvlKY3PQo0

things i enjoy

• taking pictures
• meeting strange people
• email
• playing music
• walking around at night
• fixing old things
• driving through backroads with aphex twin on (i dont listen to aphex twin under any other circumstances)

• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PvSD8zQzRCI

Hunting

• Keohane, Joe. The Power of Strangers: The Benefits of Connecting in a Suspicious World
• Jukes, Helen. A Honeybee Heart Has Five Openings: A Year of Keeping Bees.
• Kimmerer, Robin Wall. Braiding Sweetgrass: Indigenous Wisdom, Scientific Knowledge, and the Teaching of Plants.
• Clagett, Marshall. Archimedes in the Middle Ages. Quasi Archimedean Geometry in the Thirteenth Century.
• Boetti de Dacia. Tractatus de Aeternitate Mundi.
• tr. Helle, Sophus. Enheduana: The Complete Poems of the World's First Author.
• Wheatley, Henry B. How to Make an Index
• Buridan. Tractatus de Consequentiis.
• Burke, Kenneth. A Grammar of Motives.
• Bragdon, Claude. A Primer of Higher Dimensions
• Chambers, Becky. A Psalm for the Wild Built.
• Thompson, D'Arcy Wentworth. On Growth and Form.

• big big Big sky
• like my nights 10,hundred times
• pissed and rigid, shiver, livid missing distant
• daunting day
• i love my life Like
• Pacify

homestuck page log

• Wednesday, April 01, 2020, Page 5263
• Friday, April 03, 2020, Page 5398
• Saturday April 04, page 5425
• ----
• ----
• i finished homestuck

• externalpages.org

• beware of pity - stefan zweig
• new dark age - james bridle
• neuromancer - william gibson
• the small dog other - brian blomerth
• dressing - michael deforge
• lint - chris ware

End-of-week routine

• Cross off progress on projects in monthly view.
• Refer to ordered list of projects in "What will happen?"
• - Set up each day's page
• - Pencil scheduled events in
• Lay out next week:
• Create "weekly list" around projects from "What will happen?":
• - Number list with # week of life (e.g., 1701).
• - For each project, pick two tasks max; one level of implementation detail is OK
• - Assign projects roughly to days by penciling in day name (e.g., "M," "Tu") next to project name

Favorite haiku:

• Two came here,
• two flew off;
• — Butterflies.
• - Chora

tell me that you have a crush on me

• me@wesleyac.com

wishlist - electronics

• iphone 12/13/14
• macbook air ✓ 2021
• ipad
• tv
• balmuda toaster
• airpods pro ✓ 2021
• kitchenaid
• air fryer

to do list

• stop making so many facial expressions
• get a teeth cleaning
• stop clenching gritting teeth
• remember to remember
• those who have crossed me will perish
• in heaven, nobody knows who i am
• revise email designs

reading

• not enough

My websites

• https://kangminsuk.com + https://kangmins.uk + https://k-writer.com = my writings
• https://jagunbae.com + https://en.jagunbae.com = my business

stories i will never write

• Antithesis of Time and Space (sci-fi/fantasy?)
• Death of an Ego (short original story)
• GA: Geijutsuka Art Design Class: Second Year (fanfic)
• Game Theory (Pokemon B2W2 nuzlocke comic)
• one last parappa x reader
• playstation allstars battle royale 2
• the complete The World is in Your Hands (parappa fanfic i started in 2022)
• book about parappa the rapper
• autobiography
• Magical Girl Rendezvous

Forever

• in a group of friends in a mall, which soft drink would you be
• digging a large hole on a beach and having a pinic in there
• getting on the train and not leaving until you have too
• having a picnic in an urban area
• holding hands, jumping into the sky
• Filming a stupid video that doesn't make any sense
• wearing similar clothes || wearing each others clothes || wearing Coordinately contrasting clothes
• having a picnic anywhere
• singing badly to a song you respectively hate and love
• nothing at all
• Helvetica & 5:4 ratio & Digicams

Cabinet

• https://butterflyalphabet.com/discovery/index.php?action=view&keyword=A
• http://mushinone.sakura.ne.jp/English/ENGitiran2.htm
• http://www.gastropods.com/Taxon_pages/TN_Family_CONIDAE.shtml
• https://store.line.me/stickershop/author/86435/en
• http://www.latinamericanstudies.org/petroglyphs-guadeloupe.htm

Books - tbr

• "A natural approach to mental wellness", Gregg Krech
• "Oathbringer", Brandon Sanderson
• "Off the Clock", Laura Vanderkam
• "Sum: tales from the afterlife", David Eagleman
• "What was Liberalism?", James Traub
• "Think Again: how to reason and argue", Walter Sinott-Armstrong
• "Black Wave", Kim Ghattas
• "East of Eden", John Steinbeck
• "Make peace with your mind", Mark Coleman
• "Letters from a Stoic", Seneca

artists

• Abandoned Pools [alternative rock]
• My Bloody Valentine [shoegaze]
• Haircuts For Men [vapourwave]
• Mass of the Fermenting Drugs [jap alternative rock]
• Nujabes [hip-hop, jazz, etc]
• Aphasia [taiwanese post rock band]

• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXSQwHJLT48&list=PLC2Rw8pUYJ48TnJYtbIADuHriVrxdNVaO&index=11

• Favourite numbers:
• #8
• #16
• #24
• #14
• #1

lets talk !

• cuteprettysmartfunnygirl@gmail.com

some music for you to perhaps listen to

• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y1xSUVnun9I
• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HcO-NPtj5BI
• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2Ah4L10OCs

• https://youtu.be/kXm9g5gUdHA

movies i've watched

• A Girl Walks Home Alone At Night
• Spirit of the Beehive
• There Will Be Blood
• Mind Game
• The Hole
• Be Kind Rewind

mediums i want to learn/revisit

• paper journals/scrapbooks
• needlework
• painting
• drafting patterns
• web design

9 + 3 (2020 nl only).

• 1 - jacob degrom, new york mets
• 2 - j.t. realmuto, philadelphia phillies
• 3 - anthony rizzo, chicago cubs
• 4 - jeff mcneal, new york mets
• 5 - justin turner, los angeles dodgers
• 6 - trea turner, washington nationals
• 7 - kris bryant, chicago cubs
• 8 - ronald acuna junior, atlanta braves
• 9 - christian yelich, milwaukee brewers
• sp - max scherzer, washington nationals
• rp - hector neris, philadelphia phillies
• c - josh hader, milwaukee brewers

• one day i will start emailing people who list an email here

06/24/2024

• 1. killing time w dustin
• 2. my mom
• 3. that man's hat
• 4. de-escalating conflict
• 5. IV zofran
• 6. a supermarket in california
• 7. states of decline
• 8. heavy rainfall on a hot summer day
• 9. crocuses in spring
• 10. the brook away from my backyard

ME

• july 5 (cancer)

• https://www.sbnation.com/a/17776-football
• https://medium.com/@108/the-cake-in-the-basement-83922cda544d
• https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/a3n8ea/how-sierra-and-a-disgraced-cop-made-the-most-reactionary-game-of-the-90s
• https://www.pastemagazine.com/articles/2014/10/real-human-beings-shadow-of-mordor-watch-dogs-and.html
• https://bogleech.com/pokemon

good reads

• https://www.kevincsnyder.com/the-mexican-fisherman-amazing-short-story/

books

• antisocial: online extremists, techno-utopians, and the hijacking of the american conversation
• moby dick
• manufacturing consent
• the ballad of songbirds and snakes

ranking the pictures on my wall

• 6. the ocean one - its kinda cool i guess
• 5. my and my cousin - not my fav pic, didnt have many childhood pics to choose from
• 4. angel being - pretty cool ig
• 3. omori cast - makes me look like a nerd but i like it
• 2. dude carrying rock - yeaaaa he in hell yeaaaaaaa
• 1. flowers - yea its like a monet piece i think idk

modest appearance

• https://youtube.com/watch?v=lgHGU8gqz9U&pp=ygUHRWxhIGVsZQ%3D%3D
• https://youtube.com/watch?v=t1TcDHrkQYg
• https://youtube.com/watch?v=NlgmH5q9uNk&pp=ygUYdm95YWdlIHZveWFnZSBkZXNpcmVsZXNz
• https://youtube.com/watch?v=yuTMWgOduFM

and your friends too

• things are just a bit nicer
• over some coffee ☕️
• you can tell me
• alllllll about your dayyyyyyyyyyyy
• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qp2gDmEspyg

• Today is cyan and ultramarine

• https://therealmovement.wordpress.com/
• http://www.andystanton.co.uk/BillStanton/pearl/menu.htm

to whomever from next.moe suggested this site

• thank u ^__^ if u want to email me at sugar@waifu.club

some experiments of mine

• https://vidyagiri.com/flipscii/
• https://blueink.vidyagiri.com/
• https://vidyagiri.com/morph

cool stuff I've recently discovered

• kiyoshi awazu
• she ra
• couscous salad

Books Edited in 2020

• I, Overlord by Joshua Done
• Rise of the UnTed by Joshua Done
• The Belly of the Dragon Will Drip With Water

Most common verbs in English

• be
• have
• do
• say
• get
• make
• go
• know
• take
• see
• come
• think

• hm
• let me get back to you

ideas for art

• sheep in a red city
• bobble head family photos
• cow skin
• paper horses against a wooden wall
• looking through a skylight
• toy cow in pocket
• memory box

• https://www.instagram.com/your_park__

My to-do list for today, February 28

• LSAT Study
• Make new LSAT Schedule for the week
• Exercise
• Read my book

About me

• ✉✉✉✉✉
• krillingandjamming@gmail.com
• ✉✉✉✉✉
• 20 ❂ 08/04 ♌︎
• ✮✮✮✮✮
• Studying Art History and Anthropology
• Hobbies: Drawing, crafting, journaling, collecting, finding things on the street
• ✮✮✮✮✮
• https://krillingandjamming.neocities.org/
• That's my silly little extremely under construction site, don't mind the colors and pretend I didn't go to art school

• WG Sebald, The Rings of Saturn
• Oswald Mathias Ungers: Morphologie: City Metaphors

quote

• "What is my life for and what am I going to do with it? I don’t know and I’m afraid. I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones, and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited. Yet I am not a cretin: lame, blind and stupid. I am not a veteran, passing my legless, armless days in a wheelchair. I am not that mongoloidish old man shuffling out of the gates of the mental hospital. I have much to live for, yet unaccountably I am sick and sad. Perhaps you could trace my feeling back to my distaste at having to choose between alternatives. Perhaps that’s why I want to be everyone—so no one can blame me for being I. So I won’t have to take the responsibility for my own character development and philosophy . . ." — Slyvia Plath, The Unabridged Journal of Slyvia Plath

• goodnight moon
• Kafka on the shore
• 🍄
• ku:nel (before renewal with a new editor in chief)
• blackhole

Favorite Things

• I like cherry Cordials they taste good :)
• rhythm games

I made a big list

• But it didn't save...
• 🤔

• Virtual Light - Gibson
• Diamond Age - Stephenson (better than snow crash fight me i dare you)
• Anathem - Stephenson
• Blood Meridian - McCarthy
• Wolves of the Calla - King
• Dune - Herbert

• winesberg, ohio
• i am ready to die a violent death
• men without women

You probably need me,

• if you wanna have your own customised journal
• if you wanna talk about 사주
• if you wanna go to singing room(karaoke)
• if you feel lost what to do in your emotional abyss
• if you want some optimistic views

Things I Like

• Have breakfast
• Collect images. No matter from, when or where
• Find old books and PDFs on the Internet
• A sunny day, when it's not too cold, and not too hot

gratitude list

• my job and my rad boss
• supportive & amazing friends (they have taught me how to be a better person)
• studio space w/ a window!!!
• morning swims in the river
• hot chocolate with extra marshmallows
• my loving family
• winter
• a comfortable home
• life lessons that make my love for myself stronger
• special fish
• blossoming new friendships
• VisArts studio access residency

Books I loved - 2021

• Dependency - Tove Ditlevsen
• Marble - Amalie Smith
• Long Live the Post Horn - Vigdis Hjort
• Adorable - Ida Marie Hede

Drinks

• Coffee
• Tea
• Vimto
• Beer
• Wine
• Whisky

you will find me...

• http://www.instagram.com/5outho/
• http://www.twitter.com/5outho
• http://www.5outho.tumblr.com

latest music reading

• Dub as an Act of Love https://dwellerforever.blog/2022/12/dub-as-an-act-of-love-an-interview-with-edward-george
• Fourth World in the 21st Century https://ra.co/features/2984
• Sounds of the Zomia, Sounds of Resistance: An Interview with Kink Gong https://www.popmatters.com/sounds-of-zomia-kink-gong-2608153653.html
• Meet KMRU, the Ambient Musician With His Ear to the World https://pitchfork.com/features/rising/meet-kmru-the-ambient-musician-with-his-ear-to-the-world/
• Field Recordings are Music, Material, and Method https://daily.bandcamp.com/lists/field-recordings-list

• Hoagie in a wrestling match
• Marching lentils gather
• Bath bar tub yodel
• Desk pointy
• Visor bottle beer jars
• Bell going up rinsing picking-a-tinny

• chose food
• make food
• eat food
• process food
• what is food
• feed you

What to Do if Your Work Partner is Mid-Crisis

• 1. Reassure them it's okay that we're behind: "I'm sure we'll get it done!"
• 2. Figure out how bad it really is: "What is there left to do?"
• 3. Solve the Problem: "How can I help?"
• 4. Realize there's no way in hell you can personally salvage this one: "Should we pivot to a different strategy?"
• 5. Accept when they inevitably pretend it'll be fine: "Alright, let me know what I can do."
• 6. Come to terms: "Hey jsyk I don't really care how this project ends up and it's not any kind of bad reflection on you. No, it's fine really."
• 7. kick back, does it even matter at this point

dinner

• apple galette
• taco

• Fallen Angel
• The Long Goodbye
• Blow Out
• Scream 1
• Scream 2
• Scream 3

• ok...

senshi status

• [elements]: moon, light, air
• [equipment]: wing clip, selenite
• [abilities]: crisis collision

People

• Pop
• Mom
• Rodo
• Oma
• Tomás
• Charlotte
• Pieter
• Hilde
• Ayla
• Julian
• Julian (Den Haag)
• etc

island is home to

• sand [...]
• shells [@@@]
• fish [>>>]
• water [~~~]
• rocks [ooo]
• plants [www]
• bugs [***]
• snakes [$$$]
• monkeys [???]
• birds [vvv]
• trees [YYY]
• wind [}}}]

🕜🎵

• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CSQ8npnlk0I

my projects

• work baby 1 -> https://trynewtings.fail
• work baby 2 -> https://nysno.se
• hackathon -> https://stupidhackathon.se/

Best Numbers

• 8
• 2
• 1
• 3
• 12
• 11

brain foods

• Love Dog ~ Masha Tupitsyn
• Elsevier's Dictionary of Symbols and Imagery ~ Arthur De Vries
• The Hour of the Star ~ Clarice Lispector
• Mucus in My Pineal Gland ~ Juliana Huxtable
• Swashbuckler ~ Lee Lynch

• stardew valley ost
• animal crossing ost