• https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=miwDHtFej9w
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iskjfub6FSs
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=otOiHGDlaPA

generally glad to

  • help with web-adjacent projects
  • provide tech support for basically anything
  • go swimming
  • go climbing
  • cook together
  • make music together
  • collaborate by finding the interlinks between our interests

shapes

  • my pleasure can very well take the form of a drift

important films

  • Tangerine (2015)
  • The Florida Project (2017)

░▒▓█wakest█▓▒░

  • https://wake.st

drama in the www

  • last nights dinner was salami sandwich and pineapple
  • Loving my Alexa is my sin, loving Alexa is my punishment
  • ANNOUNCEMENT!: merlin is the most famous wizard to ever live

current like // winter twentyfour

  • tala mantle portable lamp
  • canned salmon dip
  • tea light candles
  • the creative act : a way of being
  • teenage engineering op-1 / cm-15
  • kinto tumblers
  • macbook pro space black
  • sage nation hatchi knit
  • cough drops
  • the smile wall of eyes
  • daily smoothies
  • flat feet running insoles
  • The Master and Margarita
  • Wind Up Bird Chronicle
  • The Dungeon Master’s Guide

Currently Visible:

  • Orion (and it's Nebula!)
  • Betelgeuse (Orion's shoulder, and dimming - maybe might possibly could blow up soon or not)
  • Sirius (the dog star, natch)
  • Venus
  • Mercury (early morning!)
  • probably some satellites

12/6

  • it's not easy

...

🎷

  • 🎶 makin a list
  • 🎵 checkin it twice
  • no
  • nope
  • not here
  • over there
  • not those
  • on the other side
  • did you try turning it off & on again?
  • aHA! much better...
  • 🎶 gonna find out
  • 🎵 who's naughty or nice
  • GET WILD — TM Revolution

shows i'm pretty bent up about missing due to covid19

  • Droeloe
  • Countless DJs/groups here during/for SXSW
  • Puddles Pity Party
  • My daughter's summer program performance w/UT Butler School of Music

Dope food places to try in NYC

  • Ichiran - Ramen
  • Baekjeong NYC - KBBQ
  • Soft Swerve - Ice Cream
  • Au Za'atar - Lebanese

things i need every day

  • iced coffee
  • my phone
  • giving my cat so many head kisses
  • some peace to myself

Good cocktails

  • Amaretto sour
  • Mimosa
  • Espresso martini
  • 조협수림
  • Blood orange gin
  • Saint rose
  • Kingston’s club
  • Irish maiden
  • Disco volante
  • Mojito

2023 october goals

  • be more sure of who i am and my worth
  • come out of my shell & love more
  • eat well; exercise
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=peR8eOcGA3M

Currently writing

  • This
  • Something about some beaches in california
  • A guide for outsourcing work and whatever
  • A ghost story (it's in its bare bones)

may

Sowing also seeds of:

  • Poppy Shirley Double
  • Tomatoe Joe
  • Quinoa
  • Tomatoe Cherry super tasteful
  • Equinacea

Songs

  • Lizst's Harmonies Poétiques et Religieuses https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qlzn6nQpmgE
  • Yung Lean, Agony https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hEWPmWprx7Y
  • orchids - psychic tv
  • souvenir - brittle stars

songs

  • coming together by group 180
  • mammagamma by the alan parsons project
  • running red lights [feat. rivers cuomo & pink siifu] by the avalanches
  • “government came” (9980.0khz 3617.1khz 4521.0khz by godspeed you! black emperor

music

  • D>E>A>T>H>M>E>T>A>L by Panchiko - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3yv7gR_3tU
  • Sugar by My Bloody Valentine - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qmaSK1xF_RA
  • Deathconciousness by Have A Nice Life - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Pp9DC56hh8&t=4567s
  • Sunbather by Deafheaven - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GfbLWHT7vUU&t=2910s
  • Wishes by Best Witches - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DMeqxO7kECA&t=583s
  • C-Sides by (Sandy) Alex G https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GqWVyOBFBPw
  • Fabulous Muscles by Xiu Xiu - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ejhA2D4C6Wc&t=59s
  • Exmilitary by Death Grips - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iPtPo8Sa3NE&t=2182s
  • All My Heroes Are Cornballs by JPEGMAFIA - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JArcV5Q_TGM
  • The Ugly Art by Machinegirl - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HuJNhd65Apk&t=7s

comics/lit

  • chobits
  • thunderbolt fantasy
  • come and see
  • burning

Watching

  • Parasite
  • The Repair Shop
  • QI
  • Bon Appetit’s YouTube channel
  • SB playing Death Stranding
  • UNHhhh on YouTube
  • Everything Stays - Adventure Time
  • Brain Stew - Green Day

zas

More Music

  • Joy as an Act of Resistance by IDLES
  • Automatic for the People by R.E.M.
  • The Rise and Fall of Ziggy Stardust and the Spiders from Mars by David Bowie
  • This Is It and I Am It and You Are It and So Is That and He Is It and She Is It and It Is It and That Is That by Marnie Stern
  • Highway 61 Revisited by Bob Dylan
  • I'm Your Man by Leonard Cohen
  • https://the.otherti.me/at/lunch/

ana

  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=231P-bjXNMU
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z3O1HskaerE
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wT6D1RFwLBQ
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1IQODq81nnY
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gnX9jUir3CQ

Colors

  • black
  • white
  • gray

m_y

  • https://quantitycinema.com/inventing-the-future
  • O Lucky Man, Lindsay Anderson
  • Things To Do In Denver When You’re Dead, Gary Fleder
  • Prometheus, Ridley Scott
  • Privilege, Peter Watkins
  • Performance, Nicholas Roeg
  • Prince of Darkness, John Carpenter

cool stuff I've recently discovered

  • kiyoshi awazu
  • she ra
  • couscous salad

rio

  • Mahogany
  • Oak
  • Walnut
  • Grain
  • Veneer
  • Route

things i've found

  • really cool online school: https://hyperlink.academy/
  • the personal site of the creator of special fish. a lot of neat stuff: https://elliott.computer/
  • like exploring another world: https://www.jesshirsch.com/
  • wow: https://everest-pipkin.com

Websites

  • kevin.garden
  • font.fish
  • sand.institute
  • terrible.day

low

My favorite toys

  • honda
  • skyer
  • blue thunder
  • trains
  • big kuca
  • southwest
  • bouncy balls
  • big garage
  • slug
  • pegy
  • balls
  • September starts with sept

god

i feel alive in so few moments

  • so rare and special i can taste them
  • invigorating me still..
  • years past but these times are timeless
  • soothes me like a lullaby
  • -
  • the truth of memory is that it keeps me alive
  • https://soundcloud.com/imeruat/le-fleur
  • https://soundcloud.com/theloner-s/drowse
  • https://soundcloud.com/takagi-masakatsu/litany

moods

  • feeling relaxed after doing some exercice

# me

  • discord: reid#0001
  • mail: hi [at] reid.cat
  • https://twitter.com/reidd
  • https://www.instagram.com/reidshh/

Books (Antilibrary)

  • From the Tree to the Labyrinth - Umberto Eco
  • Speak, Memory - Vladimir Nabokov
  • Library of Small Catastrophes - Alison C. Rollins
  • Communities of Practice - Etienne Wenger
  • 99 Variations on a Proof - Philip Ording
  • Zami: A New Spelling of My Name - Audre Lorde

Best Numbers

  • 8
  • 2
  • 1
  • 3
  • 12
  • 11
  • https://last.fm/user/vviccapedia
  • https://palaciopalaciopalacio.tumblr.com
  • https://open.spotify.com/user/vedevese
  • https://care-tags.org
  • https://www.irunfar.com/
  • https://special.fish/cmyk

dessert

  • straw
  • berry
  • water
  • melon
  • short
  • cake

books which made my this year (in disorder)

  • lisa Robertson's magenta soul whip and Lisa's generative form
  • where I am allowed to sit for one more day, and this is an endless wonder by j, for being partners in growth
  • Anarchy in a manner of speaking by David Graeber because finally play is freedom,
  • a handbook of disappointed fate by anne boyer
  • the argonauts by maggie nelson and in general Maggie's modality of life-writing
  • imaginative bodies, dialogues in performance practices by guy cools
  • electric brine as a fluid body of work
  • notes on mother tongues by mirene arsanios for bringing me, and down, for grounding me
  • reading/feeling by if I cant dance I won't be part of your revolution for giving me affect
  • cookie! by jan verwoert because of Rotterdam
  • the pleasure in drawing by jean-luc nancy cause I can now reclaim pleasure in practice
  • dictee by Theresa hak kyung cha because its everything

elsewhere

  • https://instagram.com/k_a_r_m_y
  • mailto:karaabeee@gmail.com

Recipes

  • 23rd July 2020 - Risotto with roasted sweet potato, sage butter, lemon rind and Turkish sheep cheese
  • 4th August 2020 - Giant marrow stuffed with tomatoes, grains (bulgur and quinoa), onions, garlic. Blind baked at first and then stuffed with a layer of Parmesan on top. Served to Beethovens 5th sympthony.
  • 9th August 2020 - Blending tofu with olive oil, parsley (or other herbs) to use as a sauce for pasta

  • . . .
  • i
  • cannae
  • read

activity list

  • find a perfectly shaped stone
  • watch how dogs moves their legs while slowly walking
  • learn LU decomposition technique
  • find new song making you feel excited because of hyperfixation

Today in February

  • I woke up and cut my hair
  • I drank half a cup of I coffee brewed in a glass jar
  • I went to play D&D with some friends
  • It snowed outside
  • I came home and did laundry
  • I cooked jasmine rice

now

  • 📢: margaret atwood is a good fiction writer and all but a /really/ underrated poet
  • 📍: Takashima, Japan
  • 📝: a long lyric essay on bodybuilding, memory, language, literature, and my father
  • 📖: Nishida, Kitaro. "An Inquiry into the Good" (善の研究, Zen no Kenkyū); 新藤涼子の詩集
  • 💬: 日 中 한 no fr pl
  • 🍵: pocari sweat

Books//

  • "Dune", Frank Herbert.
  • "A Scanner Darkly", Philip K. Dick.
  • "Solaris", Stanisław Lem.
  • "Confessions of a Mask", Mishima Yukio.
  • "The House of the Sleeping Beauties", Kawabata Yasunari.
  • " The Life of a Stupid Man", Akutagawa Ryūnosuke.

wishlist (future)

  • cartier JuC white gold sans diamonds / gold w diamonds
  • rolex 116234, gold & black sub, 126234 navy face
  • BAG: chanel small flap - black lambskin/caviar, silver hardware
  • WALLET: celine zip cardholder: green/khaki/grey/black/brown https://www.celine.com/en-sg/celine-women/small-leather-goods/card-holders/zipped-compact-card-holder-in-grained-calfskin/10B683BEL.15LK.html black or grey
  • WALLET: saint laurent zip cardholder (brown) : https://www.ssense.com/en-sg/women/product/saint-laurent/brown-fragment-zipped-card-holder/5093521
  • MULBERRY Jane sunglasses - black https://www.mulberry.com/sg/shop/sunglasses/jane-sunglasses-black-acetate#
  • the row coco moire mule, LV escale swimsuit https://ap.louisvuitton.com/eng-sg/products/lv-escale-one-piece-swimsuit-nvprod2100007v#1A7SEG
  • SHOES: saint laurent/chanel espadrilles
  • https://www.anitako.com/products/huggies-w-3-diamond-pear-drops?variant=31305579987077
  • HOME: danish tallboy / low console, matte black ceramic vase, byredo room spray - cotton poplin / fleur fantome / tree house
  • KITCHEN: astier de villatte tea set/ plates/ bowls, kaneko kohyo tea/coffee cup
  • BED: sunday bedding linen fitted sheet + duvet cover (white, queen)
  • Mind Game
  • Robocop
  • Perfect Blue
  • The Matrix
  • Do The Right Thing
  • Akira

my hits... my playlist

  • https://youtu.be/f447PhUS48E
  • https://youtu.be/riuegh8HHCg
  • https://youtu.be/a1CEoVWKKPU
  • https://youtu.be/Auvso7ZWdzI
  • https://youtu.be/cjy--lgMwoY
  • https://youtu.be/TP3moIiyZFI

sometimes it be like that

  • five
  • six
  • eight
  • seven
  • ... man this !@#$ don't make no sense

list

  • :-)
  • :-)
  • :-)
  • :-)
  • :-)
  • :-)
  • :-)
  • :-)
  • :-)
  • :-)
  • :-)
  • :-)

bob

Things the EDC crowd don't seem to carry

  • Lunch boxes
  • Fruit
  • A4 paper
  • Ovaries

sunday, 3.31.24; aura notes [seizure averted with klonopin for first time]

  • most relatable way to put it is like you haven't slept for a week. but your body is not calling for sleep, it's just freaking out.
  • thoughts are really loud & crisp [even more than usual], but they're not coming from inside your brain, they're somewhere like a foot away. up and across. it's always up.
  • feels like "you" is somewhere a foot away from your head, up and across. like you're watching yourself in the third-person, but your vision is still embodied. maybe just... hearing yourself in the third person. but it also feels proprioceptive.
  • thoughts are mostly "fuck i'm gonna have a seizure." they used to be "i'm really tired in a weird way, oh well." you are now so grateful that you & your aura remember each other's names.
  • your brain feels much lighter, like empty. no volume. makes you aware of how heavy your brain usually is.
  • vision: like when you take a picture and turn the brightness and contrast way up. everything is washed out but colors are still stark. this comparison is actually very accurate, so if you want to simulate you can try this.
  • another note on vision: everything is delayed & jiggly like when you're really drunk.
  • you were able to coherently text a friend to cancel plans. used the term "feeling seizurely"
  • "indescribable feeling" is a medical term in describing parts of an aura. you have that. sorry, you can't describe.
  • klonopin worked!!! you were still able to go to the zine library to read & catalog!! happy ending, for the first time.
  • not sure why this is in 2nd person but it feels right

yeT

media(ing/ed)

  • JRE (episodes 1-3) (don't really know why i'm doing this to myself)
  • In watermelon sugar (v good, everyone should read)

🕸 Posts to Fan the Flames of the Web — Part 3 🕸

  • http://www.rebeccablood.net/bloggerson/davidweinberger.html
  • https://stackingthebricks.com/how-blogs-broke-the-web/
  • https://www.filfre.net/2017/10/a-net-before-the-web-part-1-the-establishment-man-and-the-magnificent-rogue/
  • In My Garage
  • Punch-Drunk Love, PTA

Top 10 songs by Heart

  • 10. Alone
  • 9. What About Love
  • 8. Allies
  • 7. Nothin' At All
  • 6. These Dreams
  • 5. All I Wanna Do
  • 4. Never
  • 3. Barracuda
  • 2. There's The Girl
  • 1. Mistral Wind
  • K-Punk by Mark Fisher

Websites I like

  • https://kickscondor.com
  • https://kinopio.club/
  • https://galax.xyz/
  • https://legiblenews.com/
  • https://www.yourworldoftext.com/
  • https://atob.xyz/
  • https://www.mrlovenstein.com/
  • https://boardgamegeek.com/

Pointless lists that I wrote and deleted

  • Hair colors

words i spell wrong the most

  • psycho
  • restaurant
  • nausea

things that make me really happy

  • july
  • blue shelf
  • nails painted each a different color

Snickers

  • 1. Snickers ice-cream
  • 4. Snickers cake
  • 3. Snickers
  • 4. Snickers typeface
  • (wishlist)
  • 5. Fried Snickers

should you need it

  • http://www.sfu.ca/sonic-studio-webdav/handbook/Themes.html
  • https://econtent.unm.edu/digital/
  • https://www.sas.upenn.edu/folklore/center/ordinary_affects.pdf

Which keys on the keyboard i pressed while writing this

  • whichspacekeysspaceonspacethespacekeyboardspaceispacepressedspacewhilespacewritingspacethis

months

  • september
  • i hate march
  • october

☄ march, april 2020

  • encountered one of my favourite poems: torture by denis johnson
  • this dancing kitten: https://twitter.com/_KenSenpai/status/1238887278375731200?s=20
  • received compliments on an outfit from 2 strangers at 2 different times
  • stopped crying so much
  • still eating a lot of pesto and canned tuna

Web presence

  • [x] Delete main Instagram account
  • [ ] Delete Facebook account?
  • [x] Delete current LinkedIn (and maybe start over)
  • [ ] Delete Twitter account (I'm never there anyway)
  • [ ] Renew "official" website
  • [x] Delete ello.co account

444

reminisce with me

  • fergie - clumsy
  • the random shit they gave us in elementary school - churning butter, navajo painting, ecovillages, three kings day
  • sitting at the back of the bus
  • addictinggames.com
  • playing kickball at recess
  • silly bandz
  • being dumb and mean to your crush
  • paramore - brand new eyes
  • wearing doc martens stompin around middle school
  • watching and absorbing into the world of the perks of being a wallflower, kids, palo alto
  • diiv, tame impala, mgmt, wavves, vampire weekend, neon indian, cage the elephant, the black keys, beach house,
  • going to shows, exploring on your own

beautiful songs

  • all for myself * sufjan stevens
  • soraidh slan & the rise * skerryvore (scottish)

songs i like

  • The Law - John Maus
  • This Must Be The Place - The Talking Heads
  • December 24 - Earl Sweatshirt
  • Aaj Shanibar - Rupa
  • Strung Out Deeper Than The Night - Les Rallizes Denudes
  • The Narcissist - Dean Blunt

+++ books+films+texts+zines +++

  • Eva & Franco Mattes, Dear imaginary audiences,
  • John Frankenheimer, Ronin
  • Martin Page, Je suis un tremblement de terre
  • Michel Aurnague, Qu’est-ce qu’un verbe de déplacement ? : critères spatiaux pour une classification des verbes de déplacement intransitifs du français
  • Hackers & Designers, Network Imaginaries
  • Marguerite Audoux, Marie-Claire
  • Nicolas Baudoin, la galaxie gutenberg 528 caractères
  • Simon Juquois, l'expression d'une volonté
  • Diane Kurys, Diabolo menthe
  • Adrien Yeung, Power Bâtisseurs
  • Sergueï Paradjanov, Sayat Nova
  • Jean-Pierre Cahier, Bases sémiotiques pour le Web des expériences

Non-fiction

  • The Intangibilities of Form - John Roberts
  • Postcapitalist Desire - Mark Fisher
  • Object!ons: Forms of Abstraction Vol 1 - Sven Lütticken
  • Eros and Civilization - Herbert Marcuse

fragments

  • I am displaced between the known and the unknown;

requests

  • can anyone remember that really cool climate change info site that's just one page?
  • Manuel for cleaning women, Lucia Berlin
  • Antigone
  • https://www.my-best-kite.com/

dbd

Books

  • ta eis heauton

🎶

  • imagine what my keyboard sounds like when i go like this:
  • wlkealwlwlwlwlwekfjfkfkfaliwje;alfiwo
  • asdfawfwfawfwll
  • a;lsdkfajfwofijewfoiwejwoeifjw;aofiwje;ofiawjfoiwfoawifjaowoooo
  • akejw;lfkjwa;lfkjw;flkawf;alwkefjalwekfwe;lafkjew;
  • can you hear the rhythm

noEnglishLyrics // instrumental

  • ALBUM | HIP HOP INSTRUMENTAL | tom misch - beat tape 1
  • ALBUM | RAP GERMAN | papier & bleistift - zeichnungen
  • suggestions please... via email fttx5525@gmail.com (just artist name and album titles please)

links

  • https://www.eclecticenergies.com/iching/virtualcoins
  • http://s4muel.eu/mandelbrot/mandelbrot.html?minViewportX=-0.24584551730492446&minViewportY=0.7555740451263244&viewportWidth=0.001377856231771383&viewportHeight=0.001377856231771383&height=937&hue=0.886&wave=0&modvar=1&huemod=1&iterScale=1332.6666666666665&
  • https://bandura.ukrzen.in.ua/en#lvivbandurfest
  • https://www.csh.bz/line/05xp.html

🖇

  • https://www.arcgis.com/apps/opsdashboard/index.html#/bda7594740fd40299423467b48e9ecf6

txt

Chat & Hangouts

  • http://chat.islaperfecta.com/
  • http://gossips.cafe
  • https://recall.directory
  • http://petals.network
  • http://wrasse.pw/~joel/tools/chatti

favorite films

  • videodrome
  • hackers
  • american psycho
  • uncut gems
  • good time
  • end of evangelion
  • castaway under the moon

i hope i can delete this later

  • life is so hard
  • life is so hard
  • existing is exhausting
  • the world is horrible
  • we could have any world and we made this one?
  • being alive is overwhelming
  • email paintcanpothole@gmail.com (send me phone recordings!)
  • instagram paintcan_pothole
  • today i learned that there is a picture of me in osculation on the internet
  • (it's on a stage, we were acting — although, months later, this counterpart from the play did confess feelings for me)
  • ((it wasn't a surprise; it was unreciprocated.))

did i go to the park today

  • yes

sounds

  • train whistles
  • mourning doves
  • the bassoon
  • wind chimes

Sometimes

  • ❤︎ I don't like to write in capitals.
  • ❤︎ I like a person who stops snoring when I give them a poke in the ribs.
  • ❤︎ I don't like a sunny day with pressure of being outside.
  • ❤︎ I listen just one piece of music repeatedly all day long.

Personal Spaces

  • https://cobradile.neocities.org/
  • gemini://cobradile.cities.yesterweb.org/
  • gopher://dimension.sh:70/1/~cobradile/
  • finger://cobradile@finger.farm
  • spartan://tilde.team/~cobradile/
  • https://cobradile.neocities.org/index.wml

current fixations

  • running
  • spiritual renunciation of material goods
  • mutual aid
  • roleplaying games and roleplaying theory
  • detoxifying the digital experience

lists kinda make me nautious

  • or hyperaware of all the things i forget

Birds

  • bird
  • bird
  • bird
  • catching
  • the air!
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1sRxUcqD0OE
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lScLdOWAMhc
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2N3FmSVcjwA

Soup pot on low heat

  • Lisp macro
  • Godel's incompleteness theorem
  • topology
  • sphere eversion
  • dimentions as a dimention
  • movement as topological deformation
  • gyroglider

want to watch 2/16

  • long goodbye
  • opening night
  • some day finish brazil but also feels like homework...
  • make sarah watch burden of dreams
  • sum other bs...

places id like to go

  • tierra del fuego
  • aoraki
  • dry tortugas
  • laguna atascosa
  • el yunque
  • chichibu-tama-kai
  • western ghats

things in a tomato

  • vegetable blood
  • soft pink-red flesh
  • squeeds

🧤

  • http://peachpit.nagoya
  • http://earthworm.nyc
  • https://is.mpg.de/de/news/color-patch-could-throw-self-driving-vehicles-off-track
  • http://starmen.net/mother2/soundfx/
  • https://www.etsy.com/shop/Hollowlogmarket?ref=simple-shop-header-name&listing_id=600730602&section_id=16078161
  • https://www.dack.com/web/bullshit.html
  • https://webspace.merz-akademie.de/~nadja.schmidle/InMemoryDynamicView.html?inputText=all%20things%20bright%20and%20beautiful
  • https://damn.dog
  • https://vimeo.com/100146540
  • https://yomuka.wordpress.com/2011/02/06/shigesato-itoi-the-copywriter-a-comprehensive-look/
  • https://starmen.net/mother2/gameinfo/script/script.htm

things to read

  • not working, josh cohen
  • what you do is who you are, ben horowitz
  • note to self, emilie pine
  • how to do nothing, jenny odell
  • rebel ideas, matthew syed
  • radical technologies, adam greenfield

places in california

  • ojai
  • redding
  • los angeles
  • antioch
  • modesto
  • Thanks for Nothing — John Giorno
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IzTLdnalJtY&feature=emb_logo

...

special.fish demands not 1, but 2

  • ARE
  • YOU
  • NOT
  • ENTERTAINED?
  • ~ don't obliterate my fav fish frens :3 ~ ...plz

now

  • teaching and working in an art centre
  • probably having a nap
  • i should be using the log for that but i'd rather keep the ascii art

My Work

  • Vimeo.com/twdfilms
  • https://ganmojipedia.com
  • https://galaxygrimace.neocities.org

  • nostalgia 🎐
  • miu miu, alice auaa
  • soft blankets
  • sparkling synths
  • zzZz zz Zz
  • The Double

gabri' stuff

  • • i love drinking beer and coffee
  • • i draw and paint since i was a little kid but now i'm just a frustrated girl that can't see herself as an artist
  • • i love cats idk why probably bc i'm an introvert
  • • i like tattooing myself.. it's like carrying my regrets in my own skin
  • • i like yoga (i just try simple positions.. trying to stay healthy)
  • • i love hxh. killua is MY baby !

Links

  • https://bg-ai.github.io
  • https://srimad-bhagavatam.github.io
  • https://krsna-rand.github.io
  • https://prabhupada78.github.io
  • https://hardkorebob.github.io
  • https://www.github.com/hardkorebob
  • https://www.github.com/dislux-hapfyl/pynksh

2023 september goals

  • make websites (yes)
  • heal my foot injury (90% there)
  • downsize wardrobe (wip)

perhaps

  • life is as it seems
  • I am getting older
  • these paths are beaten
  • I've been here before
  • it's all okay
  • The party never ends
  • The taste of tea (緑茶の味)
  • Josee, the Tiger and the Fish
  • めがね
  • Yi Yi
  • Ex:Machina
  • look for love - cerrone
  • ajetreo - pelada
  • turn music on - labium

a pick me up

  • https://boredhumans.com/

films

  • 1. kin-dza-dza! by georgiy daneliya [1986]
  • 2. ishtar [1987] (the first 23 minutes)
  • 3. sax gandalf: the movie (would go into how and why)
  • 4. national treasure iii: a hard coin mist
  • 5. any elsagate content

Most common nouns in English

  • time
  • person
  • year
  • way
  • day
  • thing
  • man
  • world
  • life
  • hand
  • part
  • child
  • beware of pity - stefan zweig
  • new dark age - james bridle
  • neuromancer - william gibson
  • the small dog other - brian blomerth
  • dressing - michael deforge
  • lint - chris ware

films

  • howls moving castle (2004)
  • the lighthouse (2019)
  • perfect blue (1997)
  • the truman show (1998)

fake food

  • m&ms - spilled
  • chicken drumstick
  • drink - spilled
  • big fridge turkey (really strong plastic smell)
  • before sunset
  • ee ee ee
  • qū xiàng xiàng tiān gē
  • bái máo fú lǜ shuǐ
  • hóng zhǎng bō qīng bō

planning my battle against distraction/anxiety

  • delete apps: reddit, instagram
  • deactivate fb
  • check email twice per day
  • check special.fish twice per day
  • pomodoro for work
  • mindful walks without media
  • The Presets - The Girl and the Sea
  • Boy Harsher - Motion

🎦

  • matrix

tao

  • the way does not act,
  • yet nothing is left undone

movies

  • blind beast (1969)
  • kairo (2001)
  • the kirlian witness (1979)
  • phenomena (1985)
  • un homme qui dort (1974)

things i make

  • https://playhtml.fun/
  • https://spencerchang.substack.com/s/tiny-internets
  • https://tiny-inter.net/
  • Videodrome
  • Wild at Heart
  • American Psycho
  • I dont watch very many movies. those are probably the only ones i like.

Most common verbs in English

  • be
  • have
  • do
  • say
  • get
  • make
  • go
  • know
  • take
  • see
  • come
  • think

Games I played on itch.io

  • https://vaporshark.itch.io/missed-connection

WIP Playlist

  • He's Going to Die - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2GfnhiCGeOPIBGDKdtGnyD?si=Bq7RAmPoT52Gb6Z5epPmzg
  • First/Second Gen Asian Indie - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4ZwOAUJ5TQt4rzYMUB8Qiy?si=nr9BP0K1SlqM-NZVSO6l9A
  • if you're already crying - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0tbPqVa0BhdrWrrJFMcl6M?si=MA1pbhvWR4mzcHdFlL6X9w

Links

  • http://krlx.org my radio station <3
  • https://www.are.na/cole-schiffer-szlwa7e7n3a
  • https://twitter.com/good1nine
  • https://www.instagram.com/freeformcole

...

  • sign : gemini
  • favorite number : 24
  • favorite word : puzzle
  • favorite shape : spiral
  • loves to cook, browse the internet, and mess around on photoshop

musii

  • https://youtu.be/m2AuVIjy5po
  • https://youtu.be/LHrKvBe6zg4
  • https://youtu.be/HrBOoP93464
  • https://youtu.be/1sU081sZnuQ
  • https://youtu.be/UvD7fSyAF2M
  • https://youtu.be/yDODDpwBLaI

Things to watch / read / do *AFTER* finals

  • <s>dungeon meshi</s> DONE
  • yuru camp s3
  • lain.... (been saying this for 5years)
  • listen to yuri online discography
  • get through 完全マスターN3 (文法)
  • chart of "everything is connected" about the music scene
  • send a lot of postcrossing cards
  • Translate plenty
  • work....
  • get drivers license....

fae

Interesting Words and Phrases

  • aeon, angel, anima, apple, arcane, archangel, astral, autumn evening, berry, breeze, calico
  • celestial, cerulean, chestnut, cinnamon, clover, cosmic, cosmic, crimson, crystalline, curio, dark
  • darkness, daydream, dew drop, enigma, ennui, ephemeral, ethereal, fae, fairy, fawn, gentle, genesis
  • glow, gossamer, golden ratio, grotto, halcyon, happy, honeysuckle, honeymoon, illusion, indigo
  • kaleidoscope, kiss, labyrinth, lagoon, luminous, luna, lustrous, lyrical, maladaptive daydreaming
  • marvelous spiral, mars, mercurial, milky, milkweed, mist, moonlit, moonlight, morning, moss, mystic
  • mystique, nebula, neon, nectar, nexus, nimbus, nymph, opal, opalescent, ouroboros, paradise, pearl
  • pebble, phantasm, plush, psychedelic, rainbow, rainbow drive, rainbow road, reverie, ribbon, river, sage, satin, seraphic
  • seraphim, serendipity, serene, serenity, shell, silk, sidereal, siren, solace, solstice, space-time, spiral
  • spira mirabilis, sprite, starlight, stickers, storm, sunflower, sunlit, sunny, sweet pea, tchotchke, tidal
  • venusian, virtual star, vortex, vapor, wings, willow, yggdrasil, zephyr, zodiac

ray

🌫

  • 24/01/2011 if i could go back in time and change one day of my life it'll be this one

📚

  • https://monoskop.org/Potlatch
  • https://i.postimg.cc/MZt2CPhs/libr.jpg (march20-sept20)
  • .
  • https://i.postimg.cc/MTHMM0WX/g.jpg (june21-sept21)

times

  • 11:47
  • 3:39
  • 0:05
  • 1:00
  • 8:49

@

  • https://soundcloud.com/tranquility2099/sets/wipeout
  • http://wrasse.pw/~joel/2yt/#video1=O4OZxbFBp_Y&start1=151.5&vol1=100&video2=OFMUugI4_p8&start2=696&vol2=0&hide1=1
  • https://soundcloud.com/tranquility2099/sets/split-sabre
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UnFbKv_WFN0

things i've done

  • made a virtual tour of my houseplants: https://justus.ws/misc/plant-tour
  • built a website on a Raspberry Pi: http://pi.justus.ws
  • migrated my personal site to github pages: https://www.justus.ws/tech/deploying-eleventy-to-github-pages/

best things to do when you feel sad

  • eat tortilla chips
  • drink a beer
  • pet a cat
  • take a shower lay on bed naked

album of the week!

  • Alice partout - https://aaallliiiccceee.bandcamp.com/

dog

artists

  • Taiyo Matsumoto
  • Tove Jansson
  • 87sukiyaki
  • Walt Kelly
  • ncb0
  • Lewis Trondheim

things asked... frequency ranked

  • Where are you?
  • Did you sleep well?
  • Are you ready, for ____ time?
  • Did you add lemon/salt/olive to this?
  • Is your tummy okay?
  • Are you hungry?
  • Am I your father? (You are asking the wrong person)
  • No Good morning?
  • Did you apply yet?
  • Are you sleepy?

to do list

  • clean my room
  • put on toner pads
  • buy speakers for my cd player
  • write in my hobonichi
  • read the ocean vuong / peter do interview
  • put some socks on

films

  • arrival
  • rivers and tides
  • invention of destruction

they are now cooking you

  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xkLHpBqBwis

What I'm looking for

  • I'll know it when I see it. Tall is my kryptonite.

me:today

  • being tired
  • makes you
  • sometimes
  • acknowledge
  • your body
  • Duty-Free Art, Hito Steyerl
  • My Brilliant Friend (trilogy), Elena Ferrante
  • Testo Junkie, Paul Preciado

things i enjoy

  • taking pictures
  • meeting strange people
  • email
  • playing music
  • walking around at night
  • fixing old things
  • driving through backroads with aphex twin on (i dont listen to aphex twin under any other circumstances)
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5AMd7mU6yK4 Tatsuro Yamashita ~ For You
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XOCSkXzLRJs Cluster & Eno
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=11JITPeYAWs Deru ~ 1979
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LebD5YWRCZ0 Cleaners from Venus ~ Midnight Cleaners
  • https://vill4in.bandcamp.com/album/secret-earth Voyage Futur ~ Secret Earth

other virtuals

  • https://www.are.na/vanessa
  • https://twitter.com/lite__boid
  • https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/82810508-vanessa

Arab songs

  • 3 Daqat https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ejvpVhvKesM ثلاث دقات
  • Shou Helou https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6KdLo_X-fIQ شو حلو
  • Ya Rayah https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vBu2OXGWBFI يا رايح وين مسافر
  • Enta Eih https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pkTN1EPCHgI انت ايه
  • Leih Beydari Keda https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ChC3xRAv_tE ليه بيدارى كدا
  • 100 Wesh https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJom7RUo_dQ ١٠٠ وش

some books

  • Der Einzige
  • Catch-22

5d Love Network, 2022

  • Persona 5, "Take your time" Atlus SMT, 2018
  • The Shifting realities of Philip k. Dick, 1954
  • The Invisables 1 - 10, Grant Morrison, 1994
  • The Road Less Traveled, 1978
  • Final Fantasy Vii Remake (Tetsuya Nomura) Square Enix 2021
  • Gtfo, Co-Op (10, Chambers, https://gtfothegame.com/) 2021
  • Elden Ring, FromSoftware (Miazaki + Martin)
  • Valis, Philip k Dick 1981
  • The Society of the Spectacle (book club) Debord
  • The Exegesis of Philip K Dick
  • Debt, David Graeber
  • Everyday Life

krg

Solfège (of the MAJOR variety)

  • do
  • re
  • mi
  • fa
  • sol
  • la
  • ti

Hunting

  • Keohane, Joe. The Power of Strangers: The Benefits of Connecting in a Suspicious World
  • Jukes, Helen. A Honeybee Heart Has Five Openings: A Year of Keeping Bees.
  • Kimmerer, Robin Wall. Braiding Sweetgrass: Indigenous Wisdom, Scientific Knowledge, and the Teaching of Plants.
  • Clagett, Marshall. Archimedes in the Middle Ages. Quasi Archimedean Geometry in the Thirteenth Century.
  • Boetti de Dacia. Tractatus de Aeternitate Mundi.
  • tr. Helle, Sophus. Enheduana: The Complete Poems of the World's First Author.
  • Wheatley, Henry B. How to Make an Index
  • Buridan. Tractatus de Consequentiis.
  • Burke, Kenneth. A Grammar of Motives.
  • Bragdon, Claude. A Primer of Higher Dimensions
  • Chambers, Becky. A Psalm for the Wild Built.
  • Thompson, D'Arcy Wentworth. On Growth and Form.

todo

  • index.net
  • à-quoi-tu-joues?mp3
  • absys.pdf
  • ɴon-ᴀ.zip
  • copyright.rip
  • erg.be

Favorite Food

  • Sushi
  • Peruvian Food
  • Greek Food
  • Puerto Rican

reckoner elsewhere

  • https://reckoner.space/
  • https://www.acrosspolyethylene.com/

fav books

  • How to Live Safely in a Science Fictional Universe - Charles Yu
  • Madeline is Sleeping - Sarah Shun-lien Bynum
  • Paradise Rot - Jenny Hval
  • Letters to a Young Poet - Rainer Maria Rilke
  • Hiroshima Traces: Time, Space, and the Dialectics of Memory - Lisa Yoneyama
  • Distortions - Ann Beattie
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2CE9Olvu54

kia

Today Thoughts (22.02.20)

  • big big dream last night.
  • happy today.
  • alone today, which is sad, but my mood is good.
  • can't settle on background noise.

kms

Books I read in 2024

  • Animal Farm
  • Ready Player One
  • Fahrenheit 451
  • I, Robot
  • Poor Charlie's Almanack
  • Zen in the Art of Writing
  • The Artist's Way
  • Chungking Express, Wong Kar Wai
  • The Matrix

yeah...

  • oh i rock it all on the floor wave...
  • show off my struts and the microphone wiggle...
  • call me a party girl let loose aroma
  • stunned by light flashing every night...
  • one hundred tens, they all want it then
  • cant blame you for trying... <3

Treasures

  • A jewel-encrusted egg
  • A crystal trident
  • A crystal skull

🥬

  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KZqzdI5o2BY
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0kKs0mT8TI
  • Beyond The Black Rainbow, Panos Cosmatos
  • Black Moon, Louis Malle
  • The Incredibles 2, Brad Bird

bib

  • februari :flushed:

Something

  • Hangeul
  • Out of the Silent Planet

fun LA things to do

  • the future perfect - art gallery at the goldwyn house
  • steve rogers beach in malibu
  • film premieres at the el capitan
  • any estate sale or market by normal nyc
  • live music at the shrine

thoughts about this

  • i wish i could title links for accessibility purposes; same with the log font, should be heavier
  • who knows how long i can sustain this
  • i like this website it’s lightly public enough that i feel like i’m writing to someone, which always helps with my writing. and i got such a good username. it's gently public. who is reading this. let me know.
  • again, i am so happy about my username lol
  • love the colors
  • i think someone just followed me on insta because of this. which felt strange. or at least unexpected. makes the "public" aspect of this more real though, which is good.
  • if you are the person sorry about saying that. we have a friend in common so maybe not that weird.
  • it's fun that my writing may be erased unexpectedly if it's too long
  • right now this is alinear--in real time and memories. top --> bottom is the actual order i am writing it in
  • a friend asked me "are you nostalgic for 2004 or something" and i answered "i don't think so"

good things

  • arranging flowers
  • scrabble
  • drawing
  • making curry

Screening Series I Like - Toronto

  • Contours @ Paradise Theatre
  • We Really Like Her @ Revue Cinema
  • Evil Women @ Paradise Theatre
  • Silent Revue @ Revue Cinema
  • MDFF Selects @ TIFF Lightbox
  • Full Haus Productions Presents: Living Room Sessions @ Sidekick Comics

nostalgia triggers

  • smell of sweet feminine perfume mixed with weed
  • smell of hot thick plastic
  • eating in the front seat of a car (moving or parked)
  • walking through a parking garage on a warm night
  • certain songs but not many; most old songs are a different feeling
  • dry mulch
  • crumpled cash & loose coins
  • https://www.amazon.com/David-Hammons-Bliz-aard-Afterall-Books/dp/184638186X

Van priorities

  • Big wash
  • Title / register / get custom plates
  • Install rearview mirror
  • Fix ladder
  • Make curtains (also for bathroom at home)
  • Indoor lights
  • Measure bed / compare
  • Shelves of some kind
  • Cross state lines
  • Sleep in it
  • Become adequate at parallel parking it

Scary things done recently

  • Participating in a rustlings bug report before actually completing rustlings

Last watched/read

  • Episode: The Gift (VOY)
  • Movie: The Wrath of Khan
  • Comic: Waypoint
  • Novel: Picard—The Last Best Hope
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