Special Fish

  • A Thief’s Journal - Jean Genet
  • The Seducer’s Diary - Kierkegaard
  • The Fascination of the Pool - Virginia Woolf
  • Hogg - Samuel Delany
  • The Lover - Marguerite Duras

Current Height

  • 68”
  • look for love - cerrone
  • ajetreo - pelada
  • turn music on - labium

Visual

  • Spirited Away, Hayao Miyazaki
  • The End of Evangelion, Hideaki Anno
  • La La Land, Damien Chazelle

links

  • • feb 12: seal cam! https://youtu.be/3A1Wi3sOy7g
  • • feb 16: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1i0Z73mhwLyG9R8RKvLFm6NUSsdZeL8LVcOh3I0arWjA this essay, via http://celiahollander.com (i thought of this as i was listening to secret by moa pillar but paulstretched to 10x its length)
  • • mar 24: https://madronalabs.com/products/aalto screwed around with demo version of this (w savihost as vst host), understood almost nothing (on may 16th i noodled with this a bit more)
  • • apr 9: https://ischialisteningtocsh.glitch.me/ omg this link by @chia, i could do smth similar with me and moa pillar.. (june 3: i did! https://ispirllisteningtomp.glitch.me/)
  • • apr 29: http://theradio.tk some sort of radioesque thing, or 'multiverse project' as an ig mutual of mine (the DARK selection is his) referred to it
  • • may 29: https://emptyday.today/readings/how-to-live/ yeah
  • • ..

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  • fish skin example... there is more in the shop
  • ways of seeing - john berger
  • mau tempo no canal - vitorino nemésio
  • influence, the psychology of persuasion - robert b. cialdini
  • How to Run a City Like Amazon and Other Fables
  • Speculative Everything
  • The Politics of Design

Fiction

  • The Telling, Ursula K. LeGuin
  • True Names, Vernor Vinge
  • Le Guerilleres, Monique Wittig
  • Peace War, Vernor Vinge

Fun Websites

  • https://everything2.com/
  • http://phrontistery.info/
  • http://longnow.org/
  • https://fo.am/
  • https://aworkinglibrary.com/
  • http://worrydream.com/

Books that are worth rereading

  • Close to the Knives, David Wojnarowicz
  • Gravity and Grace, Simone Weil
  • The Passion According to GH, Clarice Lispector
  • The Invention of Morel, Adolfo Bioy Casares
  • Middlemarch, George Eliot
  • Berg, Ann Quin
  • It's go in horizontal, Leslie Scalapino
  • The Collected Poems of, Wallace Stevens

m_y

  • https://soundcloud.com/yikii/angel-heart

ans

  • vein - untitled
  • blooodhound - delirium
  • deadvoss - serpentine
  • william crooks - waterboy/ghostdog
  • show me the body - madonna rocket
  • turnstile - real thing

jpg

  • jpg.xyz

ray

🎞 pure art

  • parasite (2019)
  • pride and prejudice (2005)
  • o auto da compadecida (2000)
  • June
  • December

Q

  • Business
  • Numbers
  • Communication
  • Entertainment
  • I keep on breathing. I don’t know why
  • Computer world
  • https://docs.google.com/document/d/1dl6H18kwP73OtFL9P4dYVor7wqtX3FzKMlagko-wrqg/edit?usp=sharing
  • https://d-av-a.tumblr.com/
  • https://twitter.com/lucidarian

And

  • Yet
  • I
  • Know
  • I
  • Will
  • Tomorrow

WIP Playlist

  • He's Going to Die - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2GfnhiCGeOPIBGDKdtGnyD?si=Bq7RAmPoT52Gb6Z5epPmzg
  • First/Second Gen Asian Indie - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4ZwOAUJ5TQt4rzYMUB8Qiy?si=nr9BP0K1SlqM-NZVSO6l9A
  • if you're already crying - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0tbPqVa0BhdrWrrJFMcl6M?si=MA1pbhvWR4mzcHdFlL6X9w

My music projects

  • vally.bandcamp.com [beats] - done for now
  • insomnolent.bandcamp.com [ambient]

world wide web

  • instagram.com/kaganin
  • https://t.me/kaganin

Today in February

  • I woke up and cut my hair
  • I drank half a cup of I coffee brewed in a glass jar
  • I went to play D&D with some friends
  • It snowed outside
  • I came home and did laundry
  • I cooked jasmine rice
  • mount analogue, rené daumal
  • https://www.instagram.com/your_park__
  • July

Fav artists of all time

  • Nam June Paik
  • John Baldessari (only bc of "teaching a plant the alphabet")
  • Sol LeWitt
  • Ronan Barrot
  • Vera Molnar
  • texty text
  • Saturday Morning Doze by Ernest Hood
  • The Sea of Tranquility by The Music Tapes
  • Var Har Du Varit by Dungen
  • Tomay Hridmajhare Rakhbo - Laxamandas Baul
  • Activist - Gucci Mane
  • Sketch for Summer - The Durutti Column
  • i am happier
  • with who i am
  • with you

Projects under consideration

  • a web ring
  • 3D render of honey mushrooms
  • crash: https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0375679/
  • September starts with sept
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hf61K6ZKu_4
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7EexjQdT0s

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dffdfdfdddd

  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_zCY43ri0Fg
  • https://i.ibb.co/VS2XKTv/Screenshot-15.png
  • https://i.ibb.co/bBJP1y0/R-1366402-1213313460-jpeg.jpg
  • https://www.are.na/cory-arcangel/now-listening

currently open ebooks & pdfs

  • Architecture in Abjection, Zuzana Kovar
  • Cruel Optimism, Lauren Berlant
  • My Brilliant Friend, Elena Ferrante
  • On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous, Ocean Vuong
  • Forensic Architecture, Eyal Weizman

"most used phrases"

  • fuck
  • ah! fuck, shit my bad
  • you have got to be fucking my uncle right now
  • just kidding
  • FUCK
  • yea, no
  • Musashi, Yoshikawa Eiji

fav webpages

  • https://park.org/Radio/Fair/Apples/
  • http://www.arngren.net/tjome.html
  • http://sock.chat

should you need it

  • http://www.sfu.ca/sonic-studio-webdav/handbook/Themes.html
  • https://econtent.unm.edu/digital/
  • https://www.sas.upenn.edu/folklore/center/ordinary_affects.pdf
  • 2020, things to get rid of
  • 🚮 parking
  • 🚮 lawns
  • 🚮 golf
  • 🚮 grids
  • 🚮 low battery

  • cathexis                 apostasy            chthonic                   stricture
  • samizdat                gestell              tautology                   gambit
  • monad                  anomie             hypostatize                 fata morgana
  • apophatic theology         webring            speedcore                  pyrrhonic
  • anastrophism             philosoma           temple grandin              apoplectic
  • gelassenheit              ron athey           reification

some of my favorite songs updated 04/27

  • https://youtu.be/MtHifoG2kgM (american pleasure club - this is heaven & id die for it)
  • https://youtu.be/48xXvAEtRpc (laura les - darkest part of day)
  • https://youtu.be/53vw9miqxAk (bo en - sometimes)
  • https://youtu.be/BgeOlgbJ2AU (for your health - keres)
  • https://youtu.be/y1JxhjlKHaI (deli girls - officer)
  • https://youtu.be/toVvEuNRo3Y (ecco2k - peroxide)
  • https://www.are.na/brian/_inbox-xx-0dfpbeuy

feasts for the eyes

  • Bound ~ Lana & Lilly Wachowski
  • My Own Private Idaho ~ Gus Van Sant
  • Moonstruck ~ Norman Jewison
  • ¡Átame! ~ Pedro Almodovar

mim

  • aegean sea ~ haruomi hosono
  • 僕は一寸 ~ haruomi hosono
  • we celebrate New Year's Eve on the last day of the year, then say "Happy New Year" at midnight. Please join me in celebrating Old Year's Eve on the last day of June, and saying "Happy Old Year" at midnight when the year is older than it is new
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rvNqNgHAEys
  • https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=peR8eOcGA3M