魂在前面飞，人在后面追 我嘴粘着杯，喝着香咖啡 --- [19 Nov 2024] "tenses situate events relative to their closeness or their distance from the speaker. rules of grammar give the empty space of human speech some shape." - chris kaus --- [18 Nov 2024] a vampire visits me every weekend. he doesn't suck blood from my neck, no, but just enough for my skin to flush a tinge of blue. he begs for me to touch him, to embrace him, and i oblige; i beg for him to do the same, and he obliges too. he whispers sweet-loving words into my ears then he disappears from my arms before the morning sun comes. sometimes i don't even know if he is real, but his scent and warmth still lingers from between my sheets; maybe he isn't real but i can still feel my fingers running through his dark curls; i think he is not real, i think he is a ghost because i only see him in the dead of night. i dance with the vampire every weekend. --- [10 Nov 2024] ”说话要算话“ --- [5 Nov 2024] during the hungry ghost festival where we burn paper money effigies offering to beings that aren't here it's the beginning of november still my eyes sting from smoke still i burn even if you aren't here --- [4 Nov 2024] our wills and fates do so contrary run. --- [3 Nov 2024] every second every minute hour and day it slips through my fingers like fine gold sand in a desert storm i can't see your face in my mind's eye ---