⋆.ೃ࿔*:･𓏲𝄢𓍢ִ✧˚.¹¹¹⊹ ࣪ ˖⟡ 2.22.26 life is incredibly sweet. 2.15.26 i'm only watching movies from 1996 which is the last time saturn was in aries. 2.12.26 i will never understand the desire to be correct over the desire to be kind. these do not need to be mutually exclusive. this album is beautiful https://devinmaxwell.bandcamp.com/album/megadrought-2 2.11.26 today is my late grandmother's birthday. happy birthday. i enjoyed this playlist very much: https://wfmu.org/playlists/shows/161110 (skip the first 2 songs). also, i will buy a bottle of wild roses perfume from aftel archive. i feel as though this is a very unique rose. it is mature. i don't feel like lolita wearing this rose. and it lasts all day. i also like the idea of buying from a small perfumer instead of a larger company, or private equity backed company. it's amazing what social media will convince us is quality these days. the rain has made everything smell beautiful. i love california. i love earth. it's hard to believe how hard i fight myself when all the universe wants is for me to live comfortably. 2.10.26 i'm thinking about that bladee song that's about not wanting to hang out. a guy cold DMing me months after meeting. i don't know. it's just not something i would do. unless it was asking a new gf to get coffee or do something fun together. i have never guarded my time so carefully. it's doing wonders. one of my close friends finalized her divorce today. i love women. i'm baking a sweet potato. smells lovely. 2.8.2026 today was also beautiful. i went to the codex book arts fair. it was an existential experience. i realized that i could make very beautiful books with better materials. my binding technique is actually quite good. i could begin making paper; i don't know. i might prefer only to buy nice papers. making paper is interesting, though. i could take a class to see if i like it. i'm more interested in learning how i can turn this hobby into a proper business. the current book is very cute and playful but i'd like to make something more refined and natural. i bought some beautiful washi and silk threads. i'm only wondering what to bind. there were many sellers that had bound public domain, 17th or 18th century found texts. that seems easy enough but i don't know how meaningful it feels. i think i should bind my own writing. letterpress is interesting. it seems very time consuming, however. perhaps this is not a bad thing. i also really love printing on riso. so perhaps there is an in-between phase. also, should i move to the woods and get a dog? i made a hinge profile today. i'm not very excited about it. 2.7.2026 today was a beautiful day. i channeled my rage into my run, and soothed it with activities i enjoy. i took myself to lunch at chez panisse. the best thing about this restaurant is that when making a reservation for one, they do not provide a second chair. this simple act. the luxury cannot be understated. i often dine alone. typically, there is a second chair even though no one will occupy it. it leaves me with a visual suggestion that someone is missing. in this case, i was able to truly enjoy my view, my food, my coffees and dessert, watch the kitchen, marvel at the building, all without the view of an empty chair in front of me. it was divine. the strangest thing: the building shakes. at first i thought i was having a mental breakdown, but no. i noticed not only was the silverware shaking but the water as well. not only mine, but every table was slightly shaking. there was no earthquake. afterwards i walked around berkeley and then went to the aftel archive of curious scents. it was wonderful. then, i came home and went on a 6.5 mile run. i'd like to watch a greek movie tonight. i've been listening to a lot of greek music. it feels really good. 2.6.2026 i woke up full of feminine rage. very little soothed it. i picked up a gorgeous bag i bought and made a new young friend who worked at the shop. he was kind. the sun and warmth today helped. the air smells wonderful here all the time. i was able to get groceries on lunch. i learned more about what's going on at work. it's a time of change. i fixed several issues that i bound beneath my standards. learning the paper over time has helped but i'm afraid the weight is too heavy. it's a tradeoff; either the embossing is too light or the paper folds poorly. i am thinking of the scrapbook binding and how this approach was very smart. i hope i can come up with a binding technique as original and beautiful. i will visit los angeles at the end of the month, and see friends that i haven't seen in a few months. i love living in california. i feel very lucky to know what i want and to be able to have it. 2.5.2026 i'm testing out this feature for the first time. i really like how this website is organized. i hadn't considered the anchor of a site being its members and not its discussion board. i also feel like this is a quiet space where i can think with an illusion of solitude (+). today i ran four miles and realized that my runna half marathon training plan was set to the most challenging settings. i am grateful for the app support for pointing this out to me and for the ability to update the settings. i watched season 2 episode 7 of my brilliant friend. i have read the entire neapolitan novel series, some of the books twice. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣤⣤⣤⣤⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢠⣿⠋⠀⠀⠙⢿⣦⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣸⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠙⢿⣦⡀⠀⠀⢀⣀⣀⣠⣤⣀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⠇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠙⠿⠿⠟⠛⠛⠋⠉⠉⠛⣷⡄ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢠⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡇ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⣀⣤⣶⠿⠋⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢠⡿⠃ ⠀⣠⣶⠿⠛⠉⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣠⡿⠃⠀ ⢸⡟⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢠⡿⠁⠀⠀ ⢸⣧⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠘⣷⡀⠀⠀ ⠀⠙⠿⣶⣤⣀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠘⣷⡄⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠛⠿⣶⣄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠘⣿⡄ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠘⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡇ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⡆⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣠⣶⣶⣦⣤⣤⣄⣀⣀⣤⡿⠃ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢹⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣠⣾⠏⠀⠀⠀⠈⠉⠉⠙⠛⠉⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠘⣿⣄⠀⠀⣠⣾⠟⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠛⠛⠛⠛⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀