+=🀰=+=🀰=+=🀰=+=🀰=+=🀰=+=🀰=+ + email: ohofnpc@gmail.com + +=🀰=+=🀰=+=🀰=+=🀰=+=🀰=+=🀰=+ 10/8/24 - Almost passed out today at the health clinic. Got the largest and most painful injection in my life, but I think that I am taking it well. General discomfort is always, always, always better than general illness. Except that extreme pain I experienced last week at that hangout. Had to leave without a proper goodbye, but my goodbyes are always awkward and prolonged anyways. 10/5/24 - Been missing assignments. I forgot to hit "submit" on an in-class assignment twice. I turned in the wrong paper when I already submitted it past the deadline is extremely frustrating. Something that I spent countless hours on that would've gotten a 90% is now going to be marked at a 40%, simply because my mistake went unnoticed for almost a full week. I tell myself not to get too bogged down with the points game. Grades certainly don't define my character, but like these silly things I used to be so on top of are now slipping through. 9/28/24 - Coffee https://ohnpc.neocities.org/writings/9-28-24-coffee 9/24/24 - Unease a general sense of unease has crept in. hesitation is held to describe emotions that i don't fully understand. oversimplifying complex behaviors and habits that i hold, while overcomplicating simple emotions and feelings that aren't entirely unique to my experiences. the internal rhythm beats and drives me forward. but as i stick to the pulse, i feel that i have lost grasp of the music that has guided me through. maybe i need to find more comfort in silence, or maybe i need to seek out a new sound. gray and neon noise has deafened my into disinterest. 9/19/24 - Organs going to see six organs of admittance with some friends today. i went to a record shop years ago and picked out his album because it had a cool drawing of a bird on the cover.