trying my best
24 / she / utc+2
its nice to still have something (someone,) that can still make me excitedly buzz a bit inside in this otherwise awfully stagnant state of being
oh to probably be one of the probably few longerterm And more intense fans (if not like sort of the only? or maybe there r a couple besides me.) of the certain big fav hahaha
i had an un-re-finished fuzzy hat from around a year ago, it sat weird on my head the first time i sewed the inside and outside together, but finished it now and now it seems to be fine. ready for the couple of chillier days coming up, my ears will thank me (forecast says itll be around -13c at 10am tmr when i need to go to unemployment services consultant, that's not beanie temperature, and rn its saying itll be below -20c on sunday evening so if i were to want to go on walk then, then im now prepared for that too)
@ dec 2: i still havent
shoulder's starting to feel better. it was feeling rlly weak and sore earlier when i woke from this napful sleep.
having a human body is fucking stupid i just want my shoulder not to be hurting Or sore i just want to sleep when its fuckin dark.
jan 2 '21:
happy new happy new. my shoulder's been hurty for a few days, but it was holidays n then now weekend so still gotta wait til i can contact my gp to get the stuff checked. got a hot/cold compress pack today, it is waiting in freezer rn, or perhaps it has waited enough by now
small kids left the other day, peace restored. the dreaded time of month is here, trying out reusable pads this time (in combo w cup, which ive used for longer)
small child yelling noises from living room, not a fan as usual. not quite suffering yet as i had the best sleep ive had in a while (i guess partial thx to earplugs) but it's still early
first contact w the unemployment services person (who will apparently also be my new consultant there) went well actually. hell YES
gingerbread dough making time.
wonder if by next xmas ill have some place where i wont have to tolerate presence of small kids (i just dont like the, idk, expectations on me to interact w the niblings at least a wee bit. dont want to.)
could make lists of pros n cons of moving to my own place, in the spirit of @wesleyac 's taiwan pro/con lists
why is time so slippery
<a href="https://riquiqui.arca1000000.com">riquiqui by arca but endless!</a> apparently its this that the qr cover of the 100 instances of riquiqui recent drop should b leading to (my phone didnt pick up the qr)
a bit of money would be nice, then i could get closer to moving out which could be one way of solving some of the problems
'a website as an altar' hmm (<a href="https://www.are.na/ian-mcdonald/an-idea-for-a-website">x</a>)
thought prompt: if you could take 3-5 webpages to an webless island/place what would they be
<a href="https://billwurtz.com/anagrams/anagrams.html">this might b one of my choices</a>
the snow's melted for now
now the jobseeky course has ended, i ought to add the coursemates in fb i think, to keep contact
last day of nov... mildly snowy outside.
total amount of emails on my pmail: