'`°*•☆ --- [outbox] @elliott "@everyone curious what we are all listening to these days. might make a special fish mix for spring" [march 07] ive only been able to hold mostly either dj mixes or singular tracks as of recent. in a weird place with music as listener (been so for a year or two really, more or less). latestmost singular track: time is away theme by memotone - heard an extended edit via nts radio start of january. comforting. whole album was nice too but been falling asleep to specifically this some of the past few days [march 10] okay, and vangelic by willem feltzer is another - or really one of the main others - of the recentmore ones. re-entered my active orbit today, from today's radiomix livestream from [a person i know] i tuned in to while at work. funnily enough i picked it up cos of having revisited the first ep of their radioshow the other time (accidental stumble-upon in my older yt likes)... @dduan [early march] i see the oli and malibu and special guest dj etc etc in your special music kinopio chart... looks like a very very nice chart in general, tossed a couple things in the backlog from it (funnily enough got a friend who lives in/near naarm. they follow the altarspace insta. small worlds in this big world. on top of me bein one of the hugest oli xl fans outwardly lmao) --- [mar 10] feeling pretty alright these days, i think. more able to sit with it all, to hold it all. spring has sprung. and tranceparty weekender soon, again. final tp in corsica-studios-in-its-current-form. looking forward to it :o) and a couple of sidequests while in london as well this time around. folding small origami cranes in anticipation. [ . . . ] [feb 04] [late evening] > [scar] I loved reading every bit of your streams of thoughts. I see you! + > [lunch] i think love is always a brave act. :) and i think we should embrace our feelings no matter what. just wanted you to know someone saw what you wrote, both here and there, and hope you can sit with it all tenderly. + > [a friend offsite] Yes it’s always better if someone fully accepts who you are tho at the end right? If it’s not meant to be it’s not meant to be <3 got a big heart, of course i'm gonna care about some people, despite everything, despite some of them not caring back or being weirded tf out by it (and that's ok too) - *and* got to shield the softness a little sometimes too. softly but solidly... *and* maybe got to work on my stubbornness a little, or the not fully being aware of when to call something quits, i think. [snip] it's a delicate balance, and a little tricky to sit with it all considering the circumstances, but it'll even out for sure... even while some things in my head may settle a bit differently going forward, but that's okay too. [feb 02] [late evening] ദ്ദി૮꒰✿ ߹ ︿ ߹ ✿ ꒱ა i built this kaomoji as per @lunch lists - stuff still heavy on my heart [snip] eh, idk. it's a struggle to exist in this overwhelming world [jan 22] [evening] the main established estonian word for screenshot is kuvatõmmis - kuva is one of the words for screen, and the primary meaning of tõmmis in my mind, and probably the same for most people i know, is brew/infusion. something poetic about that to me. screen brew... [jan 19] [afternoon] holding lightly onto the shoulder of the memories... sun out softly, want to go on a walk at the lake (can't figure out if to take my phone for pics/music or not, probs not), and then get groceries. then put away the dry laundry. then see what next [jan 02 2026] [at work] @ lunch is the train stop on your own site... ok wait looks like it is - your site mediumkey brought tears into my eyes in a good "oh Wowwwwww" type of way upon first explorations :,] --- [ol' outbox] @ scar "what was the very first website your ever visited? And what is your oldest digital footprint?": 1) not sure which one was the first one i casually visited, but the very first website i frequented - mängukoobas (play/game cave it translates to) which was centered around flash games but also had many social n creative aspects. pretty much grew up on that site 2) the wayback machine snapshots of that site would probs have the oldest intact digital footprints of mine at this point, between an early-on shared-computer drive fault and my own digital self-cleanups