'`°*•☆ --- [feb 21] [late evening] been just some creature, vaguely, on this week's workbreak. [feb 09] [evening] yknow - i think the event catching balanced my head out about things more as well, being the first one i caught since the Off-Balancing. feeling less out of place now in these circuits... its always nice to feel like i belong somewhere, in whatever strangely earnest sort of way it might be. [feb 07] [morning] met a couple of friends at a music event, in berlin, against all odds [snip!] [evening] one of my friends just hitting me with the "stop thinking about him so much" at smth i said loooooooooooooooooooooooool but i mean she's right - and hand on my heart i rationally know how to be with this, i guess it's just that i need to vent some bit still sometimes? hmmmmm [feb 04] [late evening] > [scar] I loved reading every bit of your streams of thoughts. I see you! + > [lunch] i think love is always a brave act. :) and i think we should embrace our feelings no matter what. just wanted you to know someone saw what you wrote, both here and there, and hope you can sit with it all tenderly. + > [a friend offsite] Yes it’s always better if someone fully accepts who you are tho at the end right? If it’s not meant to be it’s not meant to be <3 got a big heart, of course i'm gonna care about some people, despite everything, despite some of them not caring back or being weirded tf out by it (and that's ok too) - *and* got to shield the softness a little sometimes too. softly but solidly... *and* maybe got to work on my stubbornness a little, or the not fully being aware of when to call something quits, i think. [snip] it's a delicate balance, and a little tricky to sit with it all considering the circumstances, but it'll even out for sure... even while some things in my head may settle a bit differently going forward, but that's okay too. [feb 02] [late evening] ദ്ദി૮꒰✿ ߹ ︿ ߹ ✿ ꒱ა i built this kaomoji as per @lunch lists - stuff still heavy on my heart [snip] eh, idk. it's a struggle to exist in this overwhelming world [jan 22] [evening] the main established estonian word for screenshot is kuvatõmmis - kuva is one of the words for screen, and the primary meaning of tõmmis in my mind, and probably the same for most people i know, is brew/infusion. something poetic about that to me. screen brew... [jan 19] [afternoon] holding lightly onto the shoulder of the memories... sun out softly, want to go on a walk at the lake (can't figure out if to take my phone for pics/music or not, probs not), and then get groceries. then put away the dry laundry. then see what next [jan 02 2026] [at work] @lunch is the train stop on your own site... ok wait looks like it is - your site mediumkey brought tears into my eyes in a good "oh Wowwwwww" type of way upon first explorations :,] --- [paper planes] @scar "what was the very first website your ever visited? And what is your oldest digital footprint?": 1) not sure which one was the first one i casually visited, but the very first website i frequented - mängukoobas (play/game cave it translates to) which was centered around flash games but also had many social n creative aspects. pretty much grew up on that site 2) the wayback machine snapshots of that site would probs have the oldest intact digital footprints of mine at this point, between an early-on shared-computer drive fault and my own digital self-cleanups