'`°*•☆ jul 27 2am: at best friend's (parents') place again for a nite. got very rained on on our way back from a quick grocery run and i had no spare sets of clothing w me haha so ive been wearin some random shirt n pants from hereabouts. plenty foodmaking jul 13 12:30am: been going in on writing lists on here as of late :-D & 10:30pm: and once again lightheartedly seething over the paper crane i gave to oli xl in march '22 directly having got to touch a cd copy of oli's debut full-length album (as per the pic he sent me of the crane then), cd-s of which never did officially drop. SO CLOSE YET SO FAR!!! jul 1 9pm: i went on a really long nighttime walk the other night (wee hours of 28th, some 12:30am to 4:00am), still thinking of the 2:30am hot dog and peppermint hot chocolate i got from the 24h gas station at the edge of town. maybe ive been in this really prune-y/subtractive mood with mostly my online existence cos of some part of me being tired from being stagnant in some areas of my life? (mostly really the living w my parents, but for the sake of my senior cat and this config being best for her people-availability-wise i'll truck on til she won't, might be a longer while yet) jun 30 2am: 2-week workbreak... i got a floor stand fan the other day. it has sleeptimer and a remote, convenient. will see how to be during the break, gonna have to put in some effort for it to be fulfilling and not entirely nothingness... ive been listening a lot toooo... some shit i shouldn't even fucking Have actually but also been going thru my sp*tify liked songs, which have mostly accumulated thru collab playlists of a server im in. taking stock, pruning, pruning. i've gone from i think 1.4k? down to 500-odd right now, with approx 400 songs to listen thru more thoroughly maybe... i did a similar thing in sept 2021 except i listened thru each and every one of the then 1.2k-odd songs, as opposed to much more of skimming these days, life's too short and overwhelming and i'm far too artist/album-oriented for shuffling shit and im fine having no music on if theres no sensory bullshit to escape from. (on the other hand i also have a backlog playlist on there which also has a whole load of shit, ~750 trax of mostly whole albums loaded into the list) jun 9 11pm: all of this is absurd + again at the cartoon-smile-heart-warmth point of evening. time to sleep jun 8 1am: were i to try compress a certain kinda gratitude in few enough words.. |~~☆~~~☆~☆~~~~~~☆~~☆~~ | uve touched the minds & | hearts of many with what | u do, & i hope u remember | that from time to time & | never forget 4 too long |~~~☆~~~☆~~~~☆~~~☆~~♡~ most wildly radiant 'neurodivergent special interest on a music artist' arc ive ever had. ive had them be increasingly radiant one after the other thruout the past... 15 years. i dont know what would even be next, i dont think it can get more radiant than this, would have to be some paradigm shift in how my brain latches to things to mainline-special-interest degree. but in the meantime it's silly fun, aside from the endless roast from the album wait, and the endless gratitude for particularly cartoon smile almost searing me from within sometimes... need to pour that into a purely-physical zinelike thing. for my own self for heartfelt documenting purposes... itll be so over for me if the album touches my heart even 20% as much as 'smile has jun 2: 8pm, sunny i proceeded to have a whole 3-hour or so nap after that previous blurb... sleepyhead sunday. sometimes i may be stupid -- 3pm, rainy :-) trying to do things (maybe) or perhaps rest & also last night i fell asleep to cartoon smile, ended up sleeping 10-11 hours low on milk so have to head out for that sometime (how absurd) may 28: for some reason felt really out of service and sad yesterday evening. i need to set a bit of time aside to meal plan, starting to struggle with that a lot which might not be a good sign. at least it's sunny. i think i'll manage. ought to buy some fresh stuff from the grocery store after work. may 16: manual kick scooter befriending log: lowkey ate shit downhill (chickened out but was already going TOO FAST TO TRULY STOP), now both my knees and one of my palms are scratched up :-D but all cleaned n wound-dressed up so it's all good. the knees are still stinging even though it was like 1.5 hours ago now i think. bless grocery stores with free-of-charge toilets may 10: listening to certain things (well, cartoon smile anyway) on the ol' mp3 player feels special. even having it on pause hoverin over the stuff feels special, theres this little hiss it emits thru the earbuds. sometimes i dont want to listen to stuff thru my phone, feels too proverbially-heavy with i'm not even sure what. (plus the fact i use lastfm smh haha, maybe mainly feels proverbially-heavy for that reason. smth smth become untraceable) may 07: [snip] also what the hell welcome to special fish @coyburn haha (what-the-hell in a pleasant surprise of a familiar face way) also, re @ altmilan writing about rechargeable batteries - making me think about how i have both a battery tester (takes energy for displaying the voltage from the tested battery which is nice) and reliable access to a discard battery bin (working at a shop that has one). 2nd-hand batteries a fun thing to dabble in cos a decent few have enough charge left in them (though i have a shy few rechargeable AA + AAA ones, 4 + 4) (got the battery tester idea after i had a couple customers come in one day a longer while back w/ a request of if they can rummage thru the bin a bit w a tester to salvage a few. i, being the way i am, and that day, having been unlikely to have much customer-activity, said yeah why not, while mentally taking note) i have this old old mp3 player that runs off a single AAA battery and its such a charming little thing. apacer au231. 1 gb (w/ sd card slot i dont use). simple. lightweight. had it dormant for years but started using it more from 2022 onward. i've been thinking of crafting a little bespoke carrycase for it w/ pockets for spare batteries may 03 '24: weather been nice, even tho wind chilly. been in a rly subtractive mood online lately --- little relic from earlier feb 23 '22: currently half to 3am, listening thru a mix (2nd in an instalment of like 3 (well, or more if i look into the others by the artist aahahaha) but ill have to leave the rest for later fr) --- feb 27 '24 addition: this was such a time. i was on workbreak, was supposed to see drain gang in warsaw that week but they postponed it (again -.-) and i got the full kindling of the oli xl special interest instead..