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✿ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ Feeling: listless September 21 Even when I get what I want, I still feel like there's something missing. Maybe because **this** is what I will get the most approval from. It is safe, but it does not come from me. What a lovely thought, to only pursue things that come from me... ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ Feeling: calm December 1 It feels like I am running out of time to figure out who I want to be choices / \ easy hard / \ / \ waste comfort ??? fulfillment What would you do? ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ Feeling: weird March 14th Wow I feel so strange, it's been a year or so since I've logged on. It might sound weird but this community was the only group of friends I had for a while, even though I didn't directly communicate with anyone. I've missed you I want to go to Paris, alone this year. Am I being impulsive or am I returning to who I was before all the sadness came? Mostly I want to be alone. For a while. ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑

what I really want right now

  • 4/12: A good lemon cake recipe
  • 4/13: To sleep before midnight
  • 4/14: To be like the average person my age
  • 4/15: To make deadlines & follow through
  • 5/1: To make myself proud
  • 5/2: To sleep before midnight
  • 10/7: A TI-84 calculator
  • 1/20: To fall asleep right now
  • 2/6: Cheese pizza, pineapples, abe's mini chocolate chip muffins, heart rate under 65
  • 3/14/22: To sleep for a long time
  • 12/1/22: To feel things deeply again
  • 9/21/23: To live in an uncluttered space, to live alone

why we should be friends

  • I have a calm spirit
  • I give good advice
  • I am generous
  • I make others feel safe
  • I am smart