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Feeling: listless
September 21
Even when I get what I want, I still feel
like there's something missing. Maybe
because **this** is what I will get the most
approval from. It is safe, but it does not
come from me.
What a lovely thought, to only pursue things
that come from me...
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Feeling: calm
December 1
It feels like I am running out of time to
figure out who I want to be
choices
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easy hard
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waste comfort ??? fulfillment
What would you do?
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Feeling: weird
March 14th
Wow I feel so strange, it's been a year or
so since I've logged on. It might sound
weird but this community was the only group
of friends I had for a while, even though
I didn't directly communicate with anyone.
I've missed you
I want to go to Paris, alone this year. Am I
being impulsive or am I returning to who I
was before all the sadness came?
Mostly I want to be alone. For a while.
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what I really want right now
- 4/12: A good lemon cake recipe
- 4/13: To sleep before midnight
- 4/14: To be like the average person my age
- 4/15: To make deadlines & follow through
- 5/1: To make myself proud
- 5/2: To sleep before midnight
- 10/7: A TI-84 calculator
- 1/20: To fall asleep right now
- 2/6: Cheese pizza, pineapples, abe's mini chocolate chip muffins, heart rate under 65
- 3/14/22: To sleep for a long time
- 12/1/22: To feel things deeply again
- 9/21/23: To live in an uncluttered space, to live alone
why we should be friends
- I have a calm spirit
- I give good advice
- I am generous
- I make others feel safe
- I am smart