Dear community,

Special Fish needs your support now.

For the entire month of February, I'm asking the community to help keep Special Fish running. I run this site entirely on my own as a working artist, living off my work.

Special Fish depends on users like you for hosting, maintenance, and keeping the site running. Every user costs the site money. If you use Special Fish regularly or just don't want to see it go away, please consider supporting it. A yearly contribution of $40 is suggested (that comes out to $3.33 per month). Supporters pay for users who don't have the means to support the site.

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~ Elliott

This message is temporary and will be removed at the end of February. Thank you for reading :)

tentative @tentative

Virginia

✿ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ Feeling: free Feb 1st 2024 what I was afraid of happening the most what I have been trying to avoid happened I lost everything again And yet I am okay Once again I learn that the avoidance of pain can be more painful than pain itself I'm ready to start again ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑ ⁂ ⁎ ⁑
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what I really want right now

  • 4/12: A good lemon cake recipe
  • 4/13: To sleep before midnight
  • 4/14: To be like the average person my age
  • 4/15: To make deadlines & follow through
  • 5/1: To make myself proud
  • 5/2: To sleep before midnight
  • 10/7: A TI-84 calculator
  • 1/20: To fall asleep right now
  • 2/6: Cheese pizza, pineapples, abe's mini chocolate chip muffins, heart rate under 65
  • 3/14/22: To sleep for a long time
  • 12/1/22: To feel things deeply again
  • 9/21/23: To live in an uncluttered space, to live alone

...continued

  • 1/17/24: being an infp is so tragic/beautiful. i want to change, but i should just accept it
  • 1/28/24: to go home. i am overstimulated at his place — and i don't feel comfortable
  • 5/11/24: to stop wanting him, please realize it's an illusion. he doesn't want you and you don't want him you want to escape yourself
  • 6/25/24: to be honest, a woman of my word
  • 2/1/25: a job