[13/1-/2024 - 02:53 PM from my seaside studio desk] There is something to be said about how there are wizards everywhere for people to see, if you are inclined to look. Also to note I continue too feel very strongly about our cousin the coelacanth. [30/08/2024 - 01:08 AM from the mole hill that is my bed] paid an extortionate amount of money to be told nothing is wrong with my teeth, think dentists would be more interesting if they made stuff out of the teeth they kept like idk castles or dice. [21/08/2024 - 12:05 AM from the international space station that is my bed] I start university officially soon which is so unbelievably scary, it’s one thing to talk about change it’s another entirely to try and process it. Everyone else in my accommodation is so cool and I’m left wondering how I got left behind, I don’t wear interesting clothes (as I feel nothing fits me), my makeup is boring (I don’t like how I look), my hair is overgrown and dull, and I continue to not truly know what I look like. I just don’t really know who I want to be yet I think and they all seem to be self-actualised already. I don’t even know why I’m doing illustration I’ve always wanted to act I did the same thing when I studied film instead, I think I am in fact my own worst critic :( Some parting words for you guys! Fleeble-snorp, grout, greemolope, and advantageous. ... [12/08/2024 - 06:04 PM from my laptop on the sofa with Top of the Pops playing] Have been trying to be more creative with my thought process and how I interact with my art. My university encouraged us to do observational drawings etc. in preparation for the start of the course, which I have not done to be honest instead opting to rewatch as much of Classic Who (currently on the third doctor) and Criminal Minds as I can. In lieu of the distinct lack of serious art going on I have been spending a lot of time staring at our fruit bowl and pointedly not drawing it, I think the apples can sense my weakness and are waiting for me to turn away to grow legs and arms to attack me or make me draw or something.... The pears are notably more friendly I find and as such I have made a little page "studying" them, I really wanted to share them with people who may stumble across this page but couldn't figure out how. I resorted to using blood, sweat, and genuine tears to HTML wizardry up a little webpage, I will probably revisit it when I need a portfolio or to start archiving writing here maybe even if I get possessed by the sudden urge to Have a website we will see. For your viewing pleasure dear wanderer: https://tweecentric.neocities.org That's all for now! ... [09/08/2024 - 07:30 PM from my laptop on the floor] Back again with some stray (but very important) thoughts, I think if I were a muppet I would be somewhere between Miss Piggy and Beaker. "But!" I hear you cry, "They're complete opposites, diametrically so!" And to that I say, you know nothing of me or the muppets get off of my page and out of my head. To those who either don't care or are willing to hear me out thank you. For Miss Piggy I too have always felt that one day I am destined for stardom, however my terribly low self esteem and fear of failure inhibits this dream (Beaker-esque some may say.) I love to entertain and would love to be able to do so in any and all forms, comedy, acting, art, late night show host, cleaning windows musically, sword fighting, you get the idea and I really respect her dedication to her craft and her utmost belief in the fact she can achieve anything she puts her mind to. For Beaker the comparisons are more obvious, I am horribly anxious and unfortunate in everyway, I may even be inclined to make high pitched meeping sounds when startled... I actually have a lot more to say on this topic more so than I previously thought, some further research may be necessary and a full analysis needed. ... [09/08/2024 - 01:41 AM from my desktop at home] Hello world! I find myself often weighed down by thoughts and stuck thunking a lot of them all the time, that is how I have ended up on this far corner of the internet to share them at will! How long I keep updating this is up to the muse, the puppeteer in my skull, or how long I can outpace the great sea based overlord before he drags me back down to the depths so we will see... Facts about me! • I am an illustration student, which means I pay extortionate amounts of money to be told I'm wasting extortionate amounts of money • I am on episode 111 of Criminal Minds (watching for the first time!) • I get new glasses Monday first time in 4 years yay! Expect to see a lot of pondering about films, art, life, how much I love my friends and how much I don't like anything with more than 4 legs (don't trust anything that scuttles guys)