Seeing Asians in the news so much is out of the ordinary for me -
Seeing Asians in the news for being hunted, attacked, killed at their places of work -
I don't know how to feel about it. It really hits too close to home.
The people getting attacked remind me of my dad, my aunt, my friends.
it's hard for my brain to conceive of such a thing
It's strange that I could feel *naive* to have ever felt safe in the place where I grew up & spent all of my life
My ethnicity honestly never came into conversation because I was/am a majority in my little pocket of land
It's only now at the overripe age of 27 that I have considered fear, for me, my friends, my family -
but also confusion, deep sadness and somehow, guilt?
steven yeun says:
“Sometimes I wonder if the Asian-American experience is what it’s like when you’re thinking about everyone else, but nobody else is thinking about you.”
just like a shallow water snail shedding its shell