now more than ever i have picked a bad year to get my shit together idk about the new update its chill and everything is like 1 more click away than before so not bad i think i just hate change especially now today (5/16/20) i drove back down to my student apartment to finish moving the rest of my stuff out. i basically dropped everything to go back home once on-campus classes were canceled because 2 months ago coronavirus was still new and everyone had a mom's brother's uncle's mother-in-law who worked for the pentagon saying that a lockdown was gonna happen any day now. it kind of did, but not in the Contagion martial law way, but i was also going to go completely insane sitting there alone inside all day (vs. sitting inside with my parents in a tiny rowhome, but still). next weekend i'm going to try and give it a good clean (as to get my security deposit back) and drop off my keys... it was a cool little flat even if the walls were too thin and i basically spent 2 months rent to not live there today (5/8/20) i got my macbook returned from a repair place. decided paying $600 to fix a keyboard and battery is squarely in "i should probably just consider a new laptop" category so i effectively just paid an upfront fee for a guy to tell me my laptop is fucked. it served me well for 4 years! i also moved all the old "today i" posts to an archive (https://pastebin.com/RXXScpme) so it would stop cluttering up this page and i thinik it might be cool to look back on as a journal. or not. i don't feel cool much anymore in the current time period today (5/7/20) i graduated college - via a youtube video. not even a livestream one, my university pre-recorded everything. to celebrate this milestone i did laundry and got some pizza. feels more surreal than anything but ppl are proud of me so i'm happy because they're happy

recently played

  • Døves Cry Springs Eternal - Slowly https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7JU2Ijmttvs
  • Cedric Madden - Racer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pM95iXf5WPI
  • Charli XCX - pink diamond https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FU8xyVC-tk
  • Narrow Head - Cool in Motion https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=izWVy9ae_p8
  • Yung Lean - Dogboy https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xDF9g7-dexs
  • DJ Yo-Yo Dieting - Dormant Mirrors III https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k203EXAAHd8
  • Pink Siifu - stay sane https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MzSu5zyZWHo


  • i have a portfolio site but im redoing it so if you find it somehow do not give me grief over it )
  • twitter.com/1hundredtears
  • https://soundcloud.com/theprocessof

incomplete list of skate video parts i keep going back to on youtube

  • Antwuan Dixon - Baker 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TQU10wApsBQ
  • Stefan Janoski - Subleties https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0hU6QGCf6AI
  • Ishod Wair - Told Ya https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ad5FIX1SeGU
  • BRONZE 56K - ENRON https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmQJ6_g9p4A
  • Kareem Campbell - New World Order https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iQLSEo8pV5g
  • Ryder McLaughlin - IC3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=obgMo8-Hg0U