capslock
11/12/2020
I think I'm just wired to feel this way. I think instead of fighting it or letting it control me, I have to learn to lean into the turns and to exploit it to my advantage. I think awareness is the first step of beginning to improve yourself; the first step and often the hardest hurdle to get over. How can you become aware of that which you're not aware of? I guess in my case, you have to get lucky. I'm usually good at connecting the dots but boy these dots sure were difficult to work with.
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5/29/20
I'm not really sure what I'm feeling. It feels a bit like boredom, but I'm not bored. There's things that I want to do but I feel like I don't have time to do them. There's pressure to do other things but I feel like I need a break from them. I think I need some time alone, but I am alone. I want to spend some time with people, but I can't. I want to just be free for a while, like I've been trapped here for too long.
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I mean, we all have to start somewhere I guess.
pages that i've looked at recently
- https://cs.stanford.edu/~kach/words.txt
- https://pysdr.org/index.html
- https://www.thepullrequest.com/p/the-prophet-of-the-revolt
- https://gist.github.com/jart/b73868081a5e1a1c5cf0
recently watched tv (chronological order)
- the great british bake off
- the bureau
- jojo's bizarre adventure
- one punch man