¸...¸`:· ¸.·´ ¸ `·.¸.·´) : © ):´; ¸ { `·.¸ `· ¸.·´\`·¸) `\\´´\¸.·´ 3.14.2026 this is a pre-spring post, pre-spring is such a strange emotional world. i was planning to make a spring post, but it seems to be a far-away event for now. we had one-two days of no jacket-only sweatshirts weather, the sun was warm and even the defrosting grass seemed to have a green tinge at its edges. but it was fast fleeting, its snow-stormed and then poured and icy winded yesterday, so i can safely assume spring is coming in its own time. house plants are mostly flourishing with the warmer weather, some need repotting this is a spring-summer to-do list job. i need to stop making, or make better to-do lists. now that graduation is in sight, my school work and projects seem to have an immediate urgency and an exhausted disinterest in them. i cant explain it but i know that i am TIRED of constantly, at any moment in time, feel like i need to be doing something, making something, learning something, finishing something. i told a friend, i am comparing myself to a better me, one who gets everything done without any emotional toil, any meltdowns. BUT for now i have forced myself to make 'loose' lists with projects i am looking at/working on this month, without definitive deadlines, and whatever is left-over will simply transfer over to next months lists without any self- guilt/stress/anxiety. i was also on my period this last week, and while usually i am able to chip off a day or two to keep my body resting in a nest-bed of comfy blankets and hot water-bottles, while my uterus tries to exit through my legs in the most painful ways imaginable, i COUDNT take any days off. i had to go to school and work because there were deadlines, and group projects and i was simply too far in, too committed to plans and things. plus i drank a spicy soup on my second day, which killed me i think. i have a faint memory of my partner caressing my hair, while i dissociate in the Big Pain, in a haze of CBD gummies and painkillers, and i remember thinking "aw man, he is so nice. i should remember this moment because i am clearly about to die." anyways, made it through, this has BEEN happening, i went to the clinic a couple of weeks back and they gave me new pain meds(i hate it), obgyn appointment soon hopefully! i was watching sherlock for a week or so but it gave me nightmares T_T, im listening to the new EP released by Operelly ––> https://operelly.bandcamp.com/, i really wanna go see her!! my personal goals are to be easy on myself, do my morning yoga, eat good and healthy foods that dont hurt my stomach, take my vitamins and water! i think my mental health should improve a little if my body feels a bit taken care of <3 yay! happy almost spring!!! i hope you see a bunny or a robin to greet you in this new cycle. ˚ ༘ .˚🌱୭ ˚. [tomorrow, and for the entire semester, i wish to be calm, even when things are beyond my control. a stillness within is part of a cared-for body. the mind and the body are long-time friends.] if this is helpful:) https://sanchariiii.github.io/meditativespaces/home.html