11/18 i know what makes me giddy and blissfully serene overwhelming harmony undeniable, unattainable, unrepeatable, yours in a moment a unique waveform a transient never quantifiable a hertz that comes and goes like fever i get giddy during a fever when i know my delirium is grounded in a viral culture and will flush out the sickly miasmas i know the dream will come sort of anti climatic but never drab i secretly long for these at times to pull me out of my stagnant hold into a waltz through syrup and flour coughing rhythm into shape again and rise the next morning rested and tender 12/22 so far away, compressed to a seat watching snow fall on ground i don’t get to touch i’ve packed many things recently and im planning to pack more for the journey back the shirts, strings, tape and things and i cant forget my to do list when they let me out of here oh and don’t forget that thing your great aunt is dying maybe grandma wasn’t very particular and don’t forget that thought make a decision on it yea and don’t forget to visit me! you can’t miss everyone in a shooting gallery and if you can manage it yea, fix your health and while your at it i see dark in your eyes get some more sleep will ya and when you return i expect your work you will feel bad when the others did more you will feel lost when your friends are living other lives you will feel small when the final ‘ok’ is tossed to your precious sketches you will feel it and i’m learning to love feeling everything i think it’ll be all we have pretty soon ❀❀❀ ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{}{}{}{}{}{]{][}[]{}[]}{}{]{}{}{][}{}][}}[{}{}{[][}{}{[][{}{}[]{}{}{{}] listening to: (favs - ❀) la bruja - victor martinez ❀ amante bandido - Miguel Bosé The Lady Has No Heart - St. Elmo’s Fire ❀ rain when possible enjoying the silence (but like fr tho…)