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i am only a person i don't know shit nothing is happening that's about it
Hello. I'm a visual artist. Dark Fairy. I also make music (as a hobby) ^_^
I'm hiding in the corners; I don't work or pay rent. Touch my web so I know that you're there.
It's okay if you haven't figured it out. Think of it not as a constant battle but a perennial adventure. Don't forget to be kind to yourself and others.
23.10.2020 <img src="https://d2w9rnfcy7mm78.cloudfront.net/9233906/large_7ca056c499a5081a1150c1a7ac75ccf4.jpg?1603449152?bc=0" width="500"> Went for a morning walk, dropped off a roll of film to be developed and sat at the old train station that is now an elevated park / Rotterdam's version of NY's High Line, listening to Hiroshi Yoshimura. These days I got both him and Justin Bieber (yes) on repeat. 🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱 01.10.2020 <img src="https://d2w9rnfcy7mm78.cloudfront.net/8961359/large_52c0fbce66dea7782a242abc6087c673.jpg?1601752644?bc=0" width="500"> Desksitting my housemate's desk while he's back home in the UK. Realising how much I need a proper one and not sit on my (floorless) bedroom floor with all my music gear. 🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱 07.09.2020 <img src="https://d2w9rnfcy7mm78.cloudfront.net/8961358/large_28d69c69700645b8de0ea696aa4d739d.jpg?1601752638?bc=0" width="500"> Wet Buoys Swim Club got back into the water this morning. Really cold. Really good. 🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱 20.07.2020 I’m writing this from the table in the living room. Minutes ago I found myself doubting where I would sit down for work. One of my housemates is video calling in the studio space, which is on the other side of half a wall. A few weeks ago we knocked down a piece of wall to connect our two houses. My two neighbours then became my housemates, a more fitting label as we’ve been sharing households since COVID-19 hit the Netherlands. We now have a big house with two kitchens and plenty of places to sit. My housemate’s girlfriend is on a video call in the small kitchen, which we like to call the cafe. From the empty laptop case and charger I can tell she was sitting at the living room table before on my usual spot and moved to the kitchen for some quiet and privacy, but will be back. I didn’t want to sit in the chair in the corner, because it’s my reading spot in the morning. I started dragging the extension cord with my charger to the spot on the wooden platform. This is a big plywood box that hides our tools and other junk and functions as another seating area. It’s nice to have a more elevated level in the house, like a low (85.5 cm high) sort of mezzanine. It literally changes my point of view and somehow often also figuratively. Perhaps it feels like a break from the usual level at which I do things, which is sitting down on average chair height of 45-50 cm or standing with my 178 cm height (eye level at 165.5 cm). I do also have a standing desk in my bedroom, which I only use for short periods of time because I start feeling physically fatigued quite fast. I’ve decided that in my future house(s) I will try to create many different sitting nooks. A friend of mine has a beautiful apartment with several desks and seats. The other day I saw the book we are reading with our book club on the tiny old scholarly desk she inherited from her grandpa. I can imagine her deliberately sitting there to dedicate time to this book. I really like the idea of designating places and spaces to specific activities. It helps to commit (especially when you’re a freelancer with blurry or non-existent schedules). In the end I figured the platform nook is too linked to leisure time and took my seat on the other side of the table. With my back to the rest of room it felt sort of uncomfortable having people walk behind me and potentially see what I’m writing to myself. Maybe I won’t keep it to myself though. Maybe I will put it in a slightly hidden little nook of my website instead of storing it away in my digital drawers. Or maybe on special.fish. So it can breathe a little. In that case, great you are here reading this right now. A song that was being played on NTS while writing this: Ya Farhe Beek by Ahmed Fakroun (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=22rioaBln3I) <img src="https://d2w9rnfcy7mm78.cloudfront.net/8961356/large_f2e26217ef3c6db17897433f7bb8b4da.jpg?1601752633?bc=0" width="500"> 🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱
7/23/2020 - it feels good to work on something. as a manager, i could be better about recognizing my strengths and using the strengths of others. 5/21/2020 - wrote up some work on "random" apps - http://alcatraz.work/when-where.html 5/18/2020 - working on an app after talking with @good.sine about a link from his special fish drop me a line ffff@berkeley.edu ~ FOR MOM five morning glories i feel you in the way they move FOR DAD sun on skin one's own garden
This is where I post recipes for S*an 04/09/20 mapo tofu (from memory, adapted from fuchsia dunlop) ingredients: 1 block of tofu (silken preferred) .5–.75 lb of ground beef 2 tbsp. of cooking oil 5 cloves of garlic, minced 1 inch knob of ginger, miced 1 big leek, horse-eared handful of dried red peppers 1.5 cups of stock (chicken or dashi) 2-3 tbsp. of hot chili bean paste (doubanjiang) 2 tbsp. of shaoxing rice wine (or sake) 2 tbsp. fermented black beans, soaked and drained 2 tbsp. soy sauce 3 tbsp. of chili oil (mala preferred) corn starch slurry, about 2 tbsp. big pinch of salt, to taste small dusting of sugar directions: 1. gently cut tofu into one inch cubes. in a medium pot, bring water to a boil. when it comes to a boil, salt it, then turn heat down to a bare simmer. very carefully, slide cubed tofu into the pot and let simmer for about a minute. use a mesh strainer or slotted spoon to take tofu out of the water, very delicately. rest on paper towel. this step helps draw out some excess moisture so it doesn't water down the flavors of the dish. 2. heat cooking oil in a large enamel pot, or well seasoned wok preferred. drop in ground beef and break it up into crumbles as it cooks, rendering the fat. once the beef has browned nicely, use a slotted spoon to transfer onto a dish. reserve the fat at the bottom of the pot. 3. on medium high heat, add minced garlic, ginger to the pot and stir-fry until fragrant. then add dried red peppers and black beans, tossing around for about a minute. then add hot chili bean paste, stir-fry until fragrant. follow with sugar, soy sauce, and rice wine. gently stir to loosen bits from the bottom of the pot. 4. add stock to the pot, bring it to a boil, then reduce heat to medium. very gently slide in the cooked tofu, making sure not to pour in any excess water. gently nudge the tofu around so they're evenly distributed. let simmer on medium for roughly 15 minutes, undisturbed. 5. after 15 minutes, add the browned ground beef in. gently fold it in, pushing from the sides of the pot into the center, so as not to break up the tofu. taste the sauce to make sure it's seasoned correctly. then add leeks in and simmer again for 5 minutes until lightly cooked (i like my leeks al dente). 6. mix up the starch slurry and add it to the pot. gently mix it in using the same method above, pushing in from the sides. once thickened, transfer to a dish, top with chili oil and serve with rice! white pepper, mala pepper, scallions, and cilantro as garnish could be nice if you have on hand.
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September 22 2020: I am procrastinating!!!! ----------- July 3 2020: Was just late to an interview because I'm in a different timezone and mixed things up. Feels like a time travelers dilemma. &hearts; ---------- July 2 2020: Found this place and made a few lists. It's noon but I haven't eaten yet and I'm feeling hungry. I have to work on a deck and it's annoying... one of those days. Spoke with someone I admire very much before starting the annoying part of my day. It was an incredible conversation. Sometimes I think I talk too much or that I treat conversations like interviews. I like treating conversations like interviews... but I'd like to learn to talk less and listen more.</span>
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i spend time... ~ lamenting (my contributions to a dying planet) ~ scrolling (endlessly) ~ doodling (a bee that is none too happy)
Conifers from the 50s Juniper by the fence They match the rust And compliment the aluminum I go on suburban walks
¨̮ Survival Mode Recipe Ingredients: 1 heaping spoonful of chia seed 1 heaping spoonful of flax seed 1 cup almond milk 1 heaping handful of quick oats 3-4 dashes of cinnamon 3 shakes of sesame seeds 1/2 cup bran or hearty (not sugary) cereal 12-15 raisins (I prefer yellow) 1 tablespoon of manuka honey (or preferred h0ney) Preparations: before a.m.: - pour chia and flax seeds into a lidded jar with almond milk. close lid & shake. let sit overnight in fridge. in a.m.: - pour chia, flax, and almond milk mix into a large bowl - mix in quick oats, cinnamon, sesame seeds, bran, raisins, and honey Perfect your consistency and sweetness levels ✨
going for a short walk going to cook something fun
theory from home
HEY I'm mikki, a digiverse-trawler & onlinester. I'm currently based on the couch, where I'm writing this sentence. Previously, I was at the table, and before that, in bed. Anyway, it's been great running into you here. _______________ OBSERVATORY ETC 08.22 the world is mutable and malleable &, with slowness, can be adapted or adapted to. food 4 action 08.18 seeking book recs thinking about renegotiating the terms of daily existence towards a more open way of being. rider list: used-up microns, propagation (literally and figuratively), tickets to telluride, the will to exercise. thinking, also, about making some overtures on here in search of pen pals & recs & recipes 08.14 seeking poetry recs seeking recs for practicing relational artists seeking internet pals seeking used bicycle, drop handles seeking not seeking
Have a home and invite everyone to it
trynna rot into that vainilla life...

bix

The unsupported use case of an actually-autistic, mediocre midlife in St. Johns, Oregon—now with added global pandemic. I've quit Twitter and Instagram. I've dipped my toes back into the MeFi waters.
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Friday, August 21st Haven't Been here in a while! I'm still thinking about the New Moon, one of my friends set an *Love* intention for me before the last new moon (not the one this week) and it flourished into something that's making me feel happy.... : - 3 Was it because of their intention that I feel this way or did I manifest it for myself? Of course I don't wholeheartedly believe that someone setting an intention on a new moon is enough to make real life changes beyond one's mindset, which in turn can make changes happen in real life...Well. Not sure if that's making sense. I'm waxing poetic (No pun intended) about the moon again...No news here... I'm thinking about taking a break from alcohol for a little bit to clear my mind I'm looking for an answer in going back to school I'm trying to be more patient and more kind I'm loving this website!! I need to visit here more often... Weds April 8th I recently found out about making "moon water" from the full moon. So I made a full jar of moon water. Last night was the Super Pink Full Moon and I set out my jar. This morning I took it inside and wondered what I should do with it? I liked the idea of moon water, you just set it out and it "soaks up the energy" of the moon. I love silly superstitions and rituals, things that show time has passed, things you can add to your to-do list to structure or divide your days. I'm sitting on my bed with my gudetama plushie that I ordered. Sometimes when I'm making music, I face it towards me so I feel like I have an audience. I've been trying to do loving-kindess meditations lately, because I think the best kind of meditation is probably one where you feel like you are appreciating the love in your life. When I brush my teeth this week, I step outside and see what's going on on my street. I think that in the coming weeks, I am going to try... *To stay off my phone as much as possible *To spend more time walking around my neighborhood *To read as much as possible *To exercise compassion for myself every day *To go to bed at 10:30pm and wake up at 7:15am Loving Breathing...Loving Feeling the sun on My Face Today, I saw a balloon Disappear into the sky LOL March 10th: I am trying to convince myself I am not just Heartbroken inside, I am Usually feeling positive and like I can keep doing it and be the best I can be But just feeling like I've really hit rock bottom today. Tomorrow's a new day MARCH 1st: WOW I AM SO GLAD IT'S MARCH. MY GEMINI HOROSCOPE SAID ALL THE MAGIC ISN'T GOING TO HAPPEN FOR ME UNTIL NEXT MONTH, BUT I AM STILL GETTING MORE EXCITED. HONESTLY, NOTHING CAN BE WORSE THAN MY FEBRUARY. IT WAS THE WORST MONTH I'VE HAD IN A LONNNNG TIME. BUT I AM HAPPY IT'S OVER AND I LEARNED A LOT. I FEEL STRONGER AND MORE AMAZING ALREADY. GET READY! NEW FAVORITE COLOR HAS CHANGED TO YELLOW. LOVE Y;ALL Feb 19 : Eating a cherry blow pop----wow so good!!! In exactly 23 days I will feel AMAZING! Who will join me and celebrate? This Week I Love: Inspirational Quotes Taking an Amazing Healing Shower Taking Space For Myself Being Patient With Myself ╰( ´・ω・)つ──☆✿✿✿✿✿✿
I have no idea. None. Human Flesh Story: Donuts https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cqYGOm-A4wA (safe to watch)
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2020/07/20 - Sing https://www.instagram.com/tv/CC4KjrWnBGJ/ 2020/07/04 - https://simone.computer/#/webdesktops 2020/07/02 - Stringy! http://boldport.com/stringy 2020/06/30 - Like a Star https://www.instagram.com/tv/CCEjeuAnhV1/ 2020/06/19 - Trust the process https://www.reddit.com/r/Clarinet/comments/hbpgyd/i_made_a_3d_printed_clarinet/ https://www.reddit.com/r/Clarinet/comments/hby9gt/played_kitschie_koo_to_inaugurate_voice_notes_on/
i'm starwatcher. i watch stars at night. during the day, i turn into a sunbather. when it's cloudy, i turn into a sunfollower. xo
i made it home maybe a little late today i haven't been getting calls to come home, they're less frequent i should have called to let them know i was on my way!
hello i like computers and also very old computers http://www.youtube.com/channel/UChGmdVfj20P9KGV2wTJ6zYQ
www.r-i-t-u.com always daydreaming
Hi? I'm a bloke that likes computers and writes about them. https://decryption.net.au https://thesizzle.com.au I also tweet too much https://twitter.com/decryption I like to read other Australian's blogs. Two of my favourites are https://goughlui.com/ and https://wongm.com/
//26.03.20 This is a nice place to relax. I'm exhausted. For the last few hours I've been surfing the internet without a break or a goal. Byte crystals are stuck to my body, drying up slowly. Nice to be here and find time to breathe.
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up here my eyes are green leaves, unseeing April / 7月 / 文月           August / 8月                        S M T W T F S S M T let's talk about poetry in translation, canadian literature,       |___|___|___|__1|X_2|X_3|X_4| |___|___|__ japanese literature, bodybuilding, linguistics, language |X_5|X_6|X_7|X_8|X_9|X10|X11| |__3|__4|_5 learning, using linguistics to learn languages, translation       |X12|X13|X14|X15|X16|X17|_18| |_10|_11|_1 as collaboration, learning chinese, japanese, and korean       |_19|_20|_21|_22|_23|_24|_25| |_17|_18|_1 together, psychoanalysis, religion, the anthropology and      |_26|_27|_28|_29|_30|___|___| |_24|_25|_2 psychology of religion, scandinavia, theopoetics, aesthetics,       somaesthetics, hermeneutics, the kyoto school, design, web       ¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯ design, the history of the web, the complex plane, set theory         日記                                          ↳ 日.07.17.20 ☉ VIRGO ↑ LIBRA ☽ PISCES ☿ VIRGO ♀ LIBRA ♂ CANCER         I have been away too long... How is everyone!                                                                                                                           木               林                    森        林      木        林                    木                森                   林              樹   林            木            木     木   众           木  森  林         木  木      林                     木        木                       木                          六畳での創作。         (I'm the 人; Hayley is the other. The dappled sunlight looks amazing on our skin.)

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to be known is love to be known is enough

mel

looking for the right ways to use silence
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I'm coming to understand that most of my dreams are projections of my fears, in some way or another. It's worst when they are vague because that makes them more poignant. Pointed? Poignant? Both? I have a searing headache right now and my intestines feel like they're in a blender. Anyway, if I follow this dream hypothesis, I can assume my absolute greatest deepest fear is my own indecisiveness. In hell I will certainly be locked in an endless maze of forked paths.
💎 🖤 🧠 🎨 🍫 🙀 🥑 🍙 🥦 🥥 🥬 Have you made a painting today? 🗾 🌊 🌈 ⛩️ 囲いです 🌌 ほんとに一番かわいい 🍯