2/?? i am currently having a hard time. i might not be able to see friends for a few weeks. i hope my friends will be patient and not misunderstand me. the two things i really hate are unnecessary pressure and feeling misunderstood. – 2/23 and i also know that hate is really just a form of's true, i do fear those things. i am still unable to see my friends or even spend time with myself in a nourishing way, but i can see some peace and rest coming on the horizon. ...i'm almost there!




  • Journal of a Solitude, May Sarton
  • Desert Solitaire, Edward Abbey
  • The Book of Disquiet, Fernando Pessoa


  • so painful to be always at the starting point...
  • ...I hate to be so self-conscious...I don't care if it's lousy. The only way to learn to write is to write....
  • The most precious thing is vitality...just the will + the energy + appetite to do what one wants to do + not be "sunk" by disappointments...
  • Aristotle is right:
  • happiness is not to be aimed at, it is a by-product of activity aimed at—
  • –Sontag

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