i'm glad you're here ₍ᐢ..ᐢ₎♡ leave a message in my guestbook: https://www.yourworldoftext.com/~morningdove/ #8EC5FF ⠈⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄ 3.22.2026 good morning. my window is open and i hear so many birds and a small plane. i wish i had something more uplifting or positive to share, to reflect how beautiful it is outside, but i'm so emotionally numb right now. my grandma died last week, my 2-year relationship is on pause, my car's engine is busted and it's getting towed tomorrow. i also am still waiting to hear back about the job i interviewed for. it definitely feels like i'm in a big season of change, which is incredibly painful, but i know eventually i will learn and grow and be better for it. just for right now, it kinda feels like everything sucks. at least the birds are still singing. #00008B ⠈⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄ 3.19.2026 biiiiiiig ouch. heart is in a million billion pieces ⠈⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄ 3.18.2026 it feels like it almost every week, but somehow -this- feels like the longest week of my life... i'm trying to #staypositive through it all (or at least fake it till i make it), but it just feels like i'm kinda dragging my body through life a little bit. i generally thoroughly enjoy the therapy part of my job. like so much. i've been at this place for about a month now, and while at times things have been difficult, getting to know the students' differing personalities, interests, and needs has been so enjoyable and rewarding. there are many times in the schoolday when i walk into the classroom, and multiple kiddos will approach me with a smile, eager to say hi and see what materials i have. there are also times where a student is -to put things more casually- crashing out, and it sets off other students, and then things get a little scary because the staff in the room are stretched so thin. i am grateful to be a positive and welcomed presence in the room most of the time, but then once in a while, a kid will just randomly smack me outta nowhere and then walk away laughing... like bro tf, you don't hit me and then laugh about it ..! anyyyhoo, tomorrow is thursday! and then it'll be friday! and my wonderful supervisor will be with me on friday to support me, thank god. 2-week spring break will heal me. ૮ ◞ ﻌ ◟ ა #942CB4 ⠈⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄ 3.17.2026 finally taking a moment to process and sit with my thoughts at the end of the day and my brain just feels empty. i think it's probably time for bed soon. i'm excited for my parents to come home from los angeles tomorrow. i feel so lucky to live with my family. #DC143C ⠈⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄ 3.14.2026 after being on special fish for about a week, and exploring the indie web for the first time, i've decided i'm going to make a website on neocities. https://morningdovesnest.neocities.org/ here are its beginnings; i hope to learn more and make it look nicer with time! for now, it's bare bones, just html with no css yet, but i'm proud of what i've put together so far. #9370DB ⠈⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄ 3.13.2026 i did it, i think it went well? they will let me know next week... #FF4500 ⠈⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄ 3.12.2026 job interview tomorrow, i'm mostly excited and a little nervous! #9ACD32 ⠈⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄ @teff tysm <3 ⠈⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄ 3.11.2026 4:23 PM my grandma (dad's mom) is slowly dying. she is a complicated and strong-willed woman: a little narcissistic and difficult to be around sometimes, but she's still my grandmother. my parents left the house early this morning to drive 6 hours down to los angeles to visit with her for a few days. i'm glad my dad will have that time with his mom. nothing ever stays the same forever. #4B0082 ⠈⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄ 3.10.2026 4:43 PM i feel like i've been in a constant state of exhaustion since last spring. maybe i should go to the doctor and have them poke me and scan me and see if something's wrong me. but also, when has going to the doctor for vague symptoms ever accomplished anything? they'll probably just tell me i should lose weight and send me on my way. it seems like every other ad these days either for GLP-1s or evil technology beyond my comprehension i wish i was a bird. #D15B00 ⠈⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄ 3.9.2026 5:08 PM it's never the actual day of daylight savings that feels disorienting, it's always the monday after. yeesh! fortunately, it wasn't a very crazy day at work, and i could handle being tired without too many overwhelming things going on. for context, i work as a contracted speech language pathologist in sped classes with students with mod-severe behaviors. i've only been at this job site for 2 weeks now, and it is exhausting, although i love working with the kids. it's just mostly the lack of funding, the environment, and the attitudes of some of the adults i work with that make my job more difficult. there is a long-term sub (that luckily only has 2 weeks left in her contract) who i have had a particularly difficult time working with. she is a retired sped teacher, and i can't imagine why or how this woman felt called to work in special education. she announced last week in a very open conversation with a staff member (and students around) that she "only took this job for the money". she has inappropriate adult conversations around the kids (last week she announced political events in the middle of class- on separate days, mind you), is impatient, and she is also just plain mean to them. last week she was having a difficult time with a student and told him at the end of the day "you weren't my favorite student today. but you can be tomorrow" and then told me that she feels she can say things like this because "they don't understand". don't understand don't understand don't understand??????? i told her to be careful and that they may understand more than she thinks. i honestly feel like part of the reason why so many of the students exhibit severe behaviors in her class is because of the lack of patience, understanding, respect, and compassion for these kids. regardless of communication difficulties with non-verbal students, kids can pick up on vibes and whether or not you are safe adult who cares about them. and it just pains me to work with someone who is actively creating a sad and negative environment for children that are more vulnerable. and part of the issue is lack of funding and staffing, but still. it doesn't cost anything to care and be kind and be professional. god. anyways. that felt good to vent about. i love kids! i love knowing i'm a safe adult for kids! tonight i'm going to have my mom's homemade spaghetti with my family (her cooking is so good and i feel so blessed to save money living at home right now and not worry about cooking for myself just yet. it's a blessing to save money and have dinner cooked by mama lol) later i'm gonna sort a fuckton of cutie craft buttons for my craft-supply-stash and maybe watch a movie. we'll see what i end up watching! smell ya later~ #36329F ⠈⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄ 3.8.2026 5:04 PM good evening :) I got everything done that I set out to do today and successfully avoided doom-scrolling throughout the day! today i: - went to the store and got supplies for work - made materials for the aides in my classroom - practiced music - journaled and collaged with pieces i've been holding onto for a Month! - went on a walk - cleaned my water bottle and some other dishes i've been avoiding #7ACC00 ⠈⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄ 3.8.2026 9:23 AM good morning! we sprung forward today; I'm excited for the days to be longer. I deleted instagram and facebook from my phone so i can avoid falling down a scroll-hole. happy to be here :) #6E9CEB