3/16: i normally get a high from fasting, because it forces me to direct my attention to only a few things throughout the day -- one thing at a time. sometimes i move slowly when i'm fasting, but other times, i feel energetic and ambitious enough to do just about anything. it's a great feeling, and breaking fast is almost transcendental. it's as if all of the world's noise is softened and blurred for a brief moment, and the only thing that exists is me and the food that is nurturing me. my body and mind are no longer concerned with the external. /// i began fasting last week but stopped after a few days because of health problems. i want to try again but i think i'll need to exercise more discipline. the key to fasting is to replace food with other forms of sustenance -- to do and practice things that keep you energized and motivated. unfortunately i was concentrating on things that only made my depression worse, and i was away from family & friends and fasting for the first time without my dad. fortunately i'll be with my mom soon, i deactivated my social media feed, and i'm exercising more discernment i think. so i think i'll be able to fast in the coming days. /// i wonder how i can extend the euphoric feelings that come with breaking fast beyond ramadan. i have a few ideas.