11-11-2025 ========== NOW... LISTENING: MACHINE GIRL - DREAD ARCHITECT READING: GILBERT STRANG - ESSENCE OF LINEAR ALGEBRA DOING: LOOKING AT PRICES i expected to write some deep shit in here and talk about how im changing my workflow gradually and improving as a person but you know FUCKING WHAT and then youll ask "what in the FLYING FUCK ARE YOU GONNA TALK ABOUT???" WELL... i saw MY HOLY GRAIL on mercari TODAY MY HOLY GRAIL!!! https://files.catbox.moe/hrofr0.png YEAH. THIS IS MY HOLY FUCKING GRAIL. I'VE BEEN WANTING THIS FOR SIX- NO, **SEVEN** YEARS. SEVEN MOTHERFUCKING YEARS. i remember seeing it lying around in surugaya back when i was a wee 11 year old child. this issue has the very first kill me baby color pages EVER. THE VERY FIRST... and that's exactly why it's been at the top of my "things i NEED to have" list, higher than ga: geijutsuka art design class settei, higher than any kenma or suiseiseki scale figure, higher than any late 00s invader zim stuff, higher than THE LIFE SIZE PARAPPA PLUSH BY RODNEYFUN.COM... so when i saw it, i had to basically scrape at my savings to see if i could afford it. turns out i could, because i got 245 soles from my aunt back on saturday as a "christmas came early" gift from her. i had already given 141 out for a clothes spree, but out of the rest and my bank account i scraped just enough for the used kirara carat issue... 5700 yen total, because i went for zenmarket and discovered their proxy service fee for mercari is EIGHT HUNDRED YEN. never again. sticking to fromjapan for everything other than enstars merchandise but yeah, i finally got it. my first and cheapest holy grail of kill me baby collecting. because yeah, i still have the kirara carat issues i bought to scan the color pages of back when i was scanlating the manga. unfortunately the color pages i ripped off and got lost, but i'll do everything to ensure i won't have to do that this time around EVER (or at best, that i'll upload the scanlated result before they get lost, which is what happened with the last three early 2010s kirara carat issues i bought for the kmb covers/color pages)