together forever, never to part

01-11-2024 ========== drinking: water watching: cartoons (invader zim as of writing) reading: horoscopes listening: anything and everythning gee... it's november already? anyway, feliz dia de los muertos - yes, we do celebrate it here in peru, just not with all the parties that mexico throws. it's not really the first thing that came to mind, though - i completely forgot today was a holiday, and last night i sincerely thought i had forgotten to get my stuff ready for another day or school until my mom told me so. --- i planned to spend the whole day just watching cartoons and chilling, but alas, i was forced to... go take a bath while listening to "relaxing" pop music and kdrama insert songs. well, thankfully it eventually became silence, but these kinds of songs - bruno mars and whatnot just make me want to fall asleep and wish i was in an even deeper slumber as well. i can see why the "normal people" would like it, but after spending so many years listening to objectively superior japanese music and breakcore i would say that it's pretty hard to enjoy these kinds of tunes. --- 20:13 pm. finished invader zim. when i watch stuff, well... there's either more of it out there, or i didn't enjoy it enough to want any more of it. invader zim... i really want more of it. i kmow there are the comics and enter the florpus, but from what i've heard the tone is different. then there's the pilot, which i have yet to check, and the cancelled episode scripts, but these were never animated so it wouldn't just be the same - but i've also gone through the show bible today anyways, and going through that made me capable of enjoying gaz, taster of pork, so perhaps i should read them tomorrow? but anyway, this series is in the categories of those that manage to hit all the sweet spots for me: creative visuals with smooth animation, entertaining plots that don't necessarily need to have a heap of lore placed upon them, a small but entertaining cast of characters (even if i think the most enjoyable dib also needs to be a crazy ass dib), amazing humor and of course, a killer soundtrack - well, anime is usually more memorable to me regarding soundtracks, but the opening and ending themes stuck in my head enough. i could write paragraphs upon paragraphs praising invader zim from a critical perspective, but i think that if you make a quick google search you'll find a review of the show on iMDb with the exact same opinions as i have regarding the series. ok, perhaps not - if you go episode by episode - but you'll still find someone who has said words close enough to what i'd say. instead, i'd like to analyze zim from a more... symbolism-based perspective. since pluto is going to finally settle down in aquarius soon, perhaps i'll do that? --- “I release myself from past hurts and I will not allow guilt to hold me back.” from the monthly horoscope on fucking stylecaster, but it really means to me. i can see so much of my flaws, of my own faults - being selfish, lazy, uncooperative. i mean, i've spent the whole day watching cartoons but whatever - it's all i wanted to do today, to recharge, to slack off before i get off my crutches tomorrow, before i become able to go upstairs on my own again. in a way, the injury was like a clean slate - i couldn't move forward, but i couldn't go back either, just a standstill. a standstill between invader zim, school and me, sure. but a standstill regardless. no halloween parties, no trick or treating, but at least i'm becoming more aware of mself and promising i'll start doing better. i got to tell grandma that i really want to cook something with her. she's 80 now. i'm not sure when it will happen, but the day she goes away i will really miss her. my mom complained about the fact that on halloween i stayed on the classroom when i was meant to be watching the school performances, so now she's forcing me to be involved in all group projects. i've heard horror stories from fellow weirdos regarding group projects, even in college, but it'll be an inevitability. time to begin struggling, i guess.

things i like

  • parappa the rapper
  • manga time kirara, esp. kaduho and kiyuduki satoko
  • lyrical nanoha
  • animation in general, whether it be japanese or western
  • music
  • computing
  • sysadmining
  • cute anime girls
  • dying inside
  • reading
  • sleeping

stories i will never write

  • Antithesis of Time and Space (sci-fi/fantasy?)
  • GA: Geijutsuka Art Design Class: Second Year (fanfic)
  • Game Theory (Pokemon B2W2 nuzlocke comic)
  • playstation allstars battle royale 2
  • the complete The World is in Your Hands (parappa fanfic i started in 2022)
  • book about parappa the rapper
  • comitia tier original doujinshi
  • autobiography
  • Magical Girl Rendezvous

currently consooming

  • nanoha vivid (manga)
  • idolmaster u149
  • grim adventures of billy and mandy
  • invader zim comics

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