sometimes i think about how big the planet is 16/2/24 jag finns fortfarande och mår inte som jag ska! 30/7/22 ✨ resan är åkt klart ✨ var du med på det som hände 2-4/7/22, så prata med mig! hoppas att ni har det bra :) 22/6/21 hello special.fish! enroute to destination. 24/8/20 bang bang bang boom bang pow. the racket won't stop. i noticed that the sign up process for special.fish is now a little more involved. maybe that's why there have been fewer new users. 7/8/20 my log is getting longer and longer. tbh it seems like special.fish had a influx of users in may and june and then activity died done quite a lot. it's also not possible to see how many new users there are because the homepage now lists users in random order. i'm in a weird situation right now, because the suspense is killing me, but also most of the time i'm not thinking about it. 29/7/20 it appears that the squares have been replaces with a gradient circle with those you follow. hmmm. i will miss the square. i've got some big things coming up. EDIT: hmmm it seems like this new profile design is just for special.fish supporters. 18/7/20 the grind is real right now. one hopes it will pay off, but the chance of disappointment looms over one like a dark storm cloud. one can't help but think the decision is already made, and there's nothing that i can do, but with that mindset one will never get there. 9/7/20 minecraft! having real fun for the first time in a while. 5/7/20 thinking about adding a bloom-filter based search to my website like this here: https://www.stavros.io/posts/bloom-filter-search-engine/. it would probably involve me rewriting a bloom filter in typescript though, soo...... we'll see. things are going pretty well right now, and i'm getting a break for the first time in a while. 21/6/20 hey y'all. i just updated my website with a new design and new tech. eli.nz 20/6/20 things are slowly getting better. who thought normal could be good? 17/6/20 i don't have much to say today. just involved doing my own things. 14/6/20 What the *fuck* do they think their doing. ヽ(ಠ_ಠ)ノ Am I not good enough? Because how do you expect me to get better? 🤬 10/6/20 i'm not gonna die 🙏 9/6/20 the days just seem to drag on. things should be going back to normal now, but who am i kidding? we're not getting what we had back. some people just seems to think that 2020 should be a write-off, ignored. but what is that to say? that nothing important or of value will/was supposed to happen this year? i'm currently trying to ignore twitter, it's just a cesspool of people circlejerking each other's political beliefs, and not a place for discussion or intellect. 8/6/20 What if i just go. I might just go to the dairy, i might just go across the world. what's stopping me? 7/6/20 What a dilemma. What do I? I give up my life, but for what?, I ask you. I guess that the jaws of time will force my hand eventually. wanna talk? mention me, and we can sort something out