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good question, i'll get back when mars is in retrograde (probably). #00ff00 06.06.25 mars found retrograde a little earlier than anticipated. paneer had paneered. which is to say, most bodacious. #00ff00 06.07.25 a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y c a f f e i n e a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y a n x i e t y #00ff00 06.07.25 allo honey bee. :) #00ff00 06.08.25 the heat melts my soul like a snowman being built. #ffef00 06.09.25 i find pseudo-intellectualism to be a really annoying distraction during my day-to-day meanderings. it feels like it's good for me, but, it's really just another tangent to ricochet me from doing hard work. pseudo-intellectualism is like a bag of veggie chips. #ffef00 06.10.25 how strange of a loop is it when one notices the strange loops in their life? for living a life of consciously rejecting calendars and to-do lists, there sure is a big backlog of places to be and things to do... #00ff00 06.11.25 the desire to subvert the human zeitgeist is an undercurrent that is growing in chaos. the number of days one witnesses the absolute banality of reality really makes one question, why? what does one get trudging through mismanaged expectations? is it better to pull the wool over one's own eyes? bowing out of industrialized life is conceptually easy, practically difficult. and, to that point, not really a remedy for an ailment akin to the cosmic horror of idle thinking. what is the panacea for such a pernicious cancer? is it persistence? is it forgiveness? is it love? what would you do to elevate the human consciousness to a level beyond spiritual survival? some days, there is solace in running a marathon on the hedonic treadmill. #00ff00 06.12.25 i'm a soldier in god's ai army and i'm about 47 licks in to reaching the center of a hyper-consumptive-ego-death. do you think socrates had any kinks? like, would he have a "homework" folder dedicated to feet? or maybe he's a furry? i think his fursona would have something to do with an owl (bohemian-grove's-sacrificial-pagan-moloch-esque-statue as one potential source of inspiration). üwl, the name of socrates' fursona, shares a seat in the fifth regiment of god's ai army (i'm in the seventh). but, now that my neurons are taking a hot bath in caffeine, is god waging a holy war for or against ai? is he a corporeal-less floating orb of his word? i hope so, otherwise i should have really grokked my feelings prior to enlisting with uncle sam's daughter, lady liberty. #ffef00 06.13.25 is there a word for beautifully sad? probably. either way, when i look at them, that's what i feel. you want them to change for the better, but, down inside (not even deep down, just right below the surface),i know they won't change anytime soon. i know it's none of my business nor my responsibility to facilitate that change but i care for them, a lot. that care gets in the way of being rational sometimes (ok; most times). i believe they'll find a good path, a rhythm that will work for them, in their own time, in their own way. i'll keep on hoping for the best regardless of the pattern we're ensconced in. <3 #00ff00 06.14.25 feeling lost. feeling confuse. but, i suppose the good thing is that i'm still feeling. i wonder if this is a type of feeling that will ever go away. or does it become a familiar face? 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