hello ! let’s be friends ! i miss u ! please send me mail ! __,._ / _ \ lovelag@protonmail.com | 6 \ \ oo \___/ .|__|| _,..="^ . , " , \ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ____ ____ ____ ;.__________________/ "the lost glove is happy" 7.4 first show in two years standing with weak knees no i didnt listen to your set i was right there though but it went through me sometimes the sounds pass like water sometimes drumming in my deep pit stomach let me know when to get normal again 6.30 brain clanging clawing at the walls and champing at the bit drooling and frothing trying and failing wish i could help have to sit down 6.25 sometimes all it is is thank you and a half tooth smile 6.17 it keeps happening break down fix it make a list i can’t remember anything and i’m sleeping in 6.13 can’t sit still long enough to stop thinking gonna put it all together 6.12 off task when will i read and learn the things i forgot it will all come back, and it’s all always been here spinoza differentiates between internal and external but not nearly enough. inside is the same as outside? 6.10 orange blossom water did i do something wrong we're all celebrating now 6.8 gloomy feelings all day and spiky spines, when the picture changes i feel the same 6.6 making enemies making the best i can eating too sweet crunch too empty 6.5 were you always busy like this? were you always running around crazy?? yeah i’m on a different planet never felt better than when im going and going 6.2 heavens roulette spinning kicking wheel turning turning turn soon i’ll be home and busy again 5.31 home movies sleeping on a couch sleeping on a floor sleeping on a bed walking in the rain sitting in the sun taking a picture playing a song 5.21 busy busy couple days cooking baking working sweating rotting juice 5.19 i remember, walking to the liquor store why was the window open coming home 5.18 true expression of a time, but nothing comes up when searching, empty eyes could forget, won't let myself was it a lie? can't know for sure 5.16 many opportunities to go out and a cough that sounds bad to others but fine to me. we leave soon... 5.14 more granola bars have been thinking about the sound have been thinking about what i want is that true am i thinking about what i want or is it everyone else? hard to know but we're all one in the end anyways 5.13 wearing an apron like a tube top so many things feel like summer except that i keep making soup but it's fun to sweat and eat sweating food hot on hot on hot on hot burning up from inside and i cleaned my tank again fresh for you 5.11 puzzling un puzzling i want to go back to writing daily, it could be fun soon i will be in school again, and spending more time on the computer which will bring me closer to fishing 5.10 it's hot and feels like summer today in the park it is spring, and everything is new 5.08 took the day off today im sick but im not i dont need anything made so much kimchi jjigae ... 5.04 listening to affirms glinting again and connected again, having a terrible time for no reason maybe worry, or something. painful or something in the living room not here at all 4.27 nobody quite like you, in this world no one and i forget why it felt so bad yesterday joy and i remembered only joy 4.17 chain text message song i made a song and then another song and someones covering the lucinda song i like so cant do that one but she has a million and passover was strange and im abstaining from bread unless its something someone made and gave me things are confusing but all clouds have a silver lining 4.12 happy passover, baking bread today to give my recommenders i made a cake for coworkers birthday friday everyone seemed to like it dane asked if i do it out of obligation i said no i do it because i like praise and also i believe food deters people from rage i want to take another long walk im feeling sluggish 4.08 im looking away, im looking back i feel separate but i know substance means we are together now and always 3.29 and a new song, one where i am singing soft and precious head on the pillow on the couch 3.22 time keeps passing granola bars oven new song playing laundry folding dishes doing living living party later 3.10 tomorrow is jenny's birthday common notions when my body and another body combine to create a joyful passion and even when there is a disagreement between mine and another's bodies one step closer to god facing away