hello ! i miss u ! please send me mail ! lovelag@protonmail.com __,._ / _ \ | 6 \ \ oo \___/ .|__|| _,..="^ . , " , \ ____ ____ ;.__________________/ "the lost glove is happy" 02.20 falling through clouds have to shut up coughing holding it in pushing down air is it worth it to trip over arms roll forward become a little ball moving fast 02.18 i feel like a clown i am embarrassing myself again and again but the more i do it the less bad i want to feel about it i'm a clown and that's my job 02.17 not washing not watching everyone is sick and i'm laughing 02.12 overwhelmed in the world whelming slowly wish i had four hours so i could crochet a beanie wish i could sit still long enough to block my inertia 02.11 i keep waking up afraid me and my constant low grade fear last couple episodes of twin peaks s2 are so scary i’m thinking about the difference between a peritonsillar and retropharyngeal abscess 02.07 dream in a dream in a dream last night the dog looked at me and i was scared i slapped you in the face and fell asleep again still in the dream then woke myself then woke myself then woke myself again and couldn't move 02.06 theres a party going on and theyre celebrating brands theres a lecture going on about making art for brands theres a movie on i thought it was a movie its an advertisement im apple paying with my palm now i dont have to sell my soul i am partaking in the humiliation ritual eat from me drink from me all the world a stage all the world a runway all the world a warner bros set and im pee wee herman 02.05 i was poem i am poem im going poem im at the bus stop im judging people bad im writing poems about it i cant stop judging people im on the bus you look like heart failure what did you eat today where is your mother what are you doing what am i doing im on the bus you're on the bus the bus is slow we can't get off yet please pull the string for me this life is slow and we're all rolling shoulder to shoulder i cant stop judging 02.04 thought of each other on the same day would love to bump into you but today im just a clown crawling aground deep in a poem 01.22 can you read to me please i feel stuck at home in the morning have to remember it's okay to leave first 01.21 reading about health and feeling human i am outside while the world works while i would be working and i'm going back from acting to learning 01.20 it’s kind of a sweet thing i was uncool in 2016 and i was uncool in 2017 and 2018 and maybe even still right now but the beautiful things i’ve brought myself to keep coming so im thankful for my past self and all the paths they walked down 01.19 many things are happening do u ever meet someone cool and they’re very nice and they say kind things and people are people for true