▢/index /notes /self-reminders /lists --- ▢/notes 21.08.2025 #62777e when was the last time the numbers on social media — likes, comments, followers — felt more human in scale? the sky was dull all day, a muted steel-blue. i thought it would rain. it never did. still, i stayed inside. with the past few lively days behind me, i was slowly coming back to myself by cooking alone and getting lost in 'rocannon’s world'. my meal was steamed rice with chestnuts, sweet leaf soup with egg, braised tofu with mushrooms and daikon. at noon i lay down among my sleeping cats. the hour's stillness wrapped around us like a blanket. a weighty one. 16.08.2025 #fdd87e woke up with one cheek bathed in warmth; apparently the sunlight had managed to steal into the room through the window. --- ▢/self-reminders .what are the words i do not have yet? .how will i go about finding that thing the nature of which is totally unknown to me? .rest is rebellion against a society that neglects the body's needs. .you do not have to be good / you do not have to walk on your knees / for a hundred miles through the desert repenting / you only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves ~ mary oliver, wild geese .do the work and trust the process. those useless days of waiting, wandering, and wondering will add up to my becoming. --- ▢/lists